it's been a long time hasn't it? no excuses...just facts - life is the unwholesomeness right now. I am very tired - emotionally, physically and spritually. most friends have either retreated into their lives or are wrapped up in troubles of their own - or worse...both. things in my life...once ordered - now very....very....chaotic. BAD chaotic. ( Read more... )

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I just noticed this earlier today...someone I don't know...added my journal on his friends list without asking me...should I be angry? it just feels like some kind of personal advertisment....especially when I hopped on to his site and find various pleas to buy his homemade films. since he has heavy goth interests - I'm guessing he found me though ( Read more... )

no no....not the contest where you can see how low you can go....nope...what I'm speaking of is that area where nothing makes sense - no rhyme or reason to the events happening around you - a state of utter confusion and frustration. Things have not been going well in the Tony camp...both friends and family have been having a rough time of it as ( Read more... )

I don't know where to start...it's like getting smacked with an anchovy the 1st day...a goldfish the second...by the 10th day you're getting assaulted with salmon and catfish...it's the 30th day...I'm keeping a wary eye out for the whale. Seriously though...it's been my own lil piece of Hell of late...and I'm thinking my meager efforts at damage ( Read more... )

you know...when I was a kid - about 3 or 4 yrs of age....I got a Big Bird stuffed doll...I loved that doll...took it everywhere with me...the wear and tear made it ratty and worn - despite - or perhaps because of....the many washings...and the eyes fell off...so my grandmother sewed on yarn eyes....I still loved that ratty ol' thing...then my ( Read more... )

birthdate.

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I'm tired of apologizing that I have feelings - and I'm tired of being sorry for giving a damn about others. I can only play these games for so long....before people have to actually have to freakin take off the masks...(not that that sort of thing really fools me anyway...usually.) Of course - when someone fools me completely - just enrages me to ( Read more... )

just trying to figure this life out - it just doesn't serve me to have too much on my mind during this break - but I can't stop feeling all dready and such - and I've gotten some pretty wicked bad mojo feelins of late.....I need a goddess of mercy influence and a remover of mental and physical obstacles in my corner. Yeesh! I just feel like I'm ( Read more... )