i think i hate everything and myself more than ever. its like i dont know what i want. as soon as everything is right again - everything is wrong again. im a dick. im a prick. i suck. im not fun. im a loser. im a bastard. you hate me. i hate you. i dont care. i hate myself. will call it even. i swear to god somedays i just want to keep to myself ( Read more... )

toritup12: i dont write live journal entries anymore cause they make me think about her ( Read more... )

you can tell me what you think if you want, im wondering if things are this hard on you ( Read more... )

"i just want to go backwards or forward in time so i can be with you ( Read more... )

everything is dark and there in no light. where am i? who am i? what the fuck is happening? all of a sudden a bright white light comes on one where the light bulb is burning so hot that i can not see the person or persons behind it who have turned it on. what am i doing here? i have no idea. why the fuck is it so dark? a voice breaks the ackward ( Read more... )

coming to the crossroads you notice a bridge. the shear architecture of the structure that is laid out in front of you is something to be marveloud at. you see it is suspened hanging from pillors and transverses over a large rushing river bottom that sweeps violently below, beckoning for souls. i pause for a moment of reflection what if i i jumped ( Read more... )

why i suck at life................

cause i miss you so bad that i want to just quit everything. and here's something else i'm so afraid to talk with you cause for real all i want to do is just give you a big hug and hold you close, perhaps call you mine. wishful thinking fellas. im jaded.

i begged her. honestly i wanter her to do it so bad. i prayed she would. i told her, i promised her it wouldnt hurt. it would all be done quickly. please, please, please, please, please do it. i wont move. i wont cry. i wanted her to do it so so so bad. please, please, please. i wont feel it. i promise i wont. i saw her clinch the scissors and a ( Read more... )

Dissecting Hector Marchand - anatomy 508 ( Read more... )

sleep and dreams ( Read more... )