well, ive been talking to chris all night, and its amazing what comfort can come from him. i miss you so bad. i want you. i want you back. i dont care how. i wont try or fight for it, but its what i want. "You will always be my comparrison to anyone, always that one boy." i dont want to be the comparison, i want to be the one. if you must compare ( Read more... )

my december ( Read more... )

today in weight training, we played football again. it sucked too because we couldnt play tackle. two hand touch sucks. coach made a comment that i should have been a quarterback! hah, hes so funny. he didnt sound like he was being a smart ass or joking, but i laughed anyway. how different would things be for me if i had played football? i dont ( Read more... )

well, today was alright. wow, kendel gave me this picture of herself and its amazing. oh well, doubt that. doesnt matter anyway. i get to make up more of my work, thats good. i get to go to work again tonight. fun fun. "are you stalking me, because that would be super" if only, if only. i want to go to the races this friday but i cant. go to nopi ( Read more... )

i heard this song today for the first time in a while. it fucked with my head some and i didnt like it. yes, i did see her. did it offend me that she didnt say hey? why would it. its not like much has been said since the "fuck you" verbally at least. i would let go. i have kind of, but i cant fully. i want to take vicky to the fair, but then again ( Read more... )

i just got back from florida yesterday. what fun. why is it that five or six girls still cant fill the void. i dont get it. dont get me wrong, its great, but im missing something. i dont ever feel right. it makes me wonder a few things but then i hit the delete button. the only problem is that its like pop-ups on a computer. it keeps comming back ( Read more... )

alright, so there are way too many people to talk to now. and so many of the opposite sex running around me, and talking and flirting with me for me to even think about school. i still manage. adam is hookin me up, ryan is hookin me up, im hookin me up, justin is hookin me up, girls are runnin me up the wall. it is phenominal. this is a great start ( Read more... )

well, yesterday was my b-day. it was alright. some ups, some downs, some mysteries. i woke up to a million phone calls from family and friends and fresh hot blueberry muffins. then i went to school and my teachers were letting me do whatever i wanted and someone bought my lunch and i had a good time. then i went home and it slowed down some. then ( Read more... )

"Cold ( Read more... )

Remember when I was young and so were you ( Read more... )