I took a taxicab from the airport. I did not want Rufus to be bothered in picking me up; there would be enough on his mind to worry him with such a thing. It was almost a process, or rather a remembrance, very similar to our first meeting, slightly over three months ago. Like the first time we met, I brought a single red rose, wrapped in green ( Read more... )

Sometimes it takes a catastrophic event to gain some perspective. How easily priorities can change. They can waver, numb drunk in confusion. It is all smoke and mirrors as they say ( Read more... )

I am the world's biggest imbecile. I cannot believe I threw away a fulfilling relationship for....shit.

He was slick satin, soft and gliding. Easiness like the sun peaking over the horizon, warm and calming. Gentleness with a spark of the devil in his eyes, cunning and vibrant. He was stepping off of a cliff, the excitement of free fall, the tranquility of pulling the parachute ripcord, dandling carelessly in the air, wind through the hair ( Read more... )

Sitting in this cold house, helplessly empty, I have worked over thoughts about a million times within my head. Questioning actions, questioning motivations. I almost want to laugh at myself. I know I have no one to blame but myself for uncomfortable situations I have found myself in as of late. Dwelling on my weaknesses and misery is not ( Read more... )

The opera of life. Sing-son triumphs, melodramatic lows. It is almost amusing how I thought of opera in relation to my life. I can recall it spilling out of the speakers in the living room, comfortable on the couch with tea, even though I prefer coffee. Coffee, initially black and bitter like razors on the tongue, in contrast to the honey ( Read more... )

After a fire there is usually noting left but ashes that can easily be blown away or swept into a small pile or agile hands. We burned so bright, the light blinding to the naked eye, yet ultimately put out by cool water, dampening the remnants of ash and small chunks of wood ( Read more... )

And the Lord God said, Behold, the man is become as one of us, to know good and evil: and now, lest he put forth his hand, and take also of the tree of life, and eat, and live for ever ( Read more... )

In times of trials one learns who the important people in his or her life are. I may disagree with some choices those around me have made; yet I do not turn my back on them. My hope has been to be extended the same courtesy, yet life obviously does not work that way. This week I have learned a great deal about friendship ( Read more... )

The world looked different this morning when I awoke. Sitting up in bed, drawing my legs close to my chest, all of the hard edges of the furniture appeared soft and smooth. Rounded with an almost fuzzy edge, almost like how things are seen when dreaming. I will think and dream of you as I always have. Colours popped out, three dimensional in ( Read more... )