this seems like the most appropriate place to post. my dear friend, estranged for 11 years but recently back in touch, passed away yesterday from reasons yet unknown ( Read more... )

so it's been three years now since i drank. my life and my relationships have changed completely in that time and i can attribute that to the growth and change that comes w/ facing your crap w/o the use of substances. i'm really proud of myself today and very grateful for the relationships which have given me the support and love to get through the ( Read more... )

I have to write this entry for the sake of novelty more than content. I am laying in the floor of my high school sweethearts living room in the house he previously inhabited w his wife and two kids, he and his tenants/bandmates are playing music in the basement along w his 12 y/o daughter. Tonight he and his two kids will stay w me at my moms ( Read more... )

didn't realize this thing (lj) was still in use! exciting! has anyone ever archived their old posts? it seems like a tedious process but there's so many life events we've all chronicled on here!

On Friday night I slept in a tent on the top of an immense mountain in Maine- I couldn't see over the vista when we arrived because of the darkness... and I awoke on Saturday to great cloud bank which prevented visibility over the cliff. This was my birthday morning and I was greatly disappointed to not be greeted by the view. Upon our return ( Read more... )

so it's been 528 days and as of the moment i checked, 4,566,555 heartbeats without booze. which is a long time! i don't have a lot of perspective of how long it's been on a day to day basis but in 2 weeks i'll be going out to portland, oregon for the momentous occasion which is bay's wedding (wootwoot!). it's been, save for 1x a few days after ( Read more... )

to booze or not to booze ( Read more... )

It's not, and never has been, the not drinking which is really truly horrible about the last year. In some ways I wonder if I should drink again, just to stop all the crippling insecurity I experience whenever my life connects with Girls Who Drink ( Read more... )

so i decided to go for a long run and to a meeting instead of dwelling on how bad i felt last night. and wouldn't you know the topic was on losing our attachment to people and things! how incredibly applicable ( Read more... )

lj as sobriety journal (sj?) yet again... kind of ( Read more... )