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Yes, I am still alive
How long did I refrain from writing? Years? It sure feels that way ( Read more... ) -
A new beginning, new eating habits...
Last June seems not too long ago, but my life has changed so much ever ( Read more... ) -
At the point of no return
I am at the point of no return. I have spent years running away from my own emotions, suppressing them with distraction, with food, with work. For years I was in a downward spiral and did not even know. I struggled a very long time until I finally decided to find help - first in Hilversum, then in Leidschendam and finally at GGZ Leiden. Having had ( Read more... ) -
Verloren vriend
Mijn afscheid van mijn eetstoornis in de vorm van een gedicht van mijn hand. De knop is nu definitief om. Het is nu erop of eronder ( Read more... ) -
Voor mijn vrienden in dankbaarheid
André Van Duin ( Read more... ) -
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Can anybody imagine what it’s like to start life anew at age 40? To lay down one’s habits and believes and to learn what it is like to be an autonomous person with wishes, dreams and feelings? I tell you, it’s very confusing. I’m at square one of an entire different game now. It’s not that the person Larpphoenix does not exist anymore. Of course, a ( Read more... ) -
Ponderings of an old fool
Listening to the Lord of the Rings soundtrack. A trip on memory lane. Back in 2003 was when it all began. Or did it end? 2003 was the year in which I got to know a new hobby: larp, live action roleplay. I visited the Elf Fantasy Fair and after that the EFF forum. Someone wanted to start a group consisting of lrp newbies, like me. It seemed like ( Read more... ) -
Nearly 'over the hill'
My 40th birthday is coming, faster and faster.... Next Monday I'm no longer a woman in her late thirties. I'll be 40 going on 50. Ancient. I can't help but think. About my life up until now and life in general. I've seen many dark hours come and go. But... I've also got a lot to be grateful for. My health is acceptable, therapy is fruitful, albeit ( Read more... )