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The unpleasant pilgrimage home...
Hmmm, I guess I should try to put this down. It was really weird... ( not so epic journey ) -
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Ugh... I don't know what to say. Lately I'm kind of depressed and unmotivated. I feel wildly emotional and then incredibly apathetic. I know I shouldn't be complaining or whatever, but they are my feelings and I am in desperate need of some validation. BTW, if I hear one more person dismissively chuck it all into the "senioritis" bin one more time ( Read more... ) -
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I feel really, really homesick suddenly. It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep or stop crying. No, nothing bad happened... I just feel it really suddenly more than usual. The funny thing is... I don't really know what I'm homesick for. It's not like I have a home in America. I feel homesick for people and for scenes. For memories? I feel ( Read more... ) -
Ughhhh I'm such a 5 orz
This past week I have felt SO discouraged. I didn't hear back from that job interview, and I called but there was no answer or voicemail. I ~really~ wanted that job. I think I will appeal again later, but for now it just got me SO down. I missed 4 days of school this week just because I couldn't bring myself to face the world. I think I'm gonna be ( Read more... ) -
2010
I always get SOOO inspired by reading everyone else's New Years blog posts, I feel like its the only time I write in here when its not out of trauma ( Read more... ) -
being a child
It's funny, because I have always wanted a big warm family with kids and nice holidays. I fucking LOVE holidays, you guys. History has taught me that the holidays are times when grudges are put aside and everyone must at least pretend to love each other despite their faults. Now, most families that are functional should be trying to do this anyway ( Read more... ) -
I can haz Fainting couch?
Okay, so today makes three fainting episodes, each one seemingly worse than the last. The first time I was standing on the train, the second time sitting down playing video games, and the third time I was sitting on the toilet peeing(sorry, TMI). It starts with a strong wave of nausea, then an incredibly upsetting sense of impending doom(this last ( Read more... ) -
Hmm...?
What's that? Is that the sound of me not being incredibly irritated or panicking? Wow, I think it is. Since we've moved I have felt so much better. Our pesky neighbor hasn't shown up here yet, but I'm beginning to hope she never will, or at least almost never. The roommate problem is pretty much gone, except that the one roommate who handles the ( Read more... )