Dreamed of a stocky blond haired toddler boy, with the same round face as the baby before the ultrasound, and the greenest eyes. Very quiet and seemingly withdrawn, but seeing so much. There is this clear moment when I get his attention from the construction toys he is playing with - where he looked at me and his eyes filled with tears and I ( Read more... )

Vivi woke up sick (102 fever, horribly runny nose, bit of a cough). This is after a week of fussies and a clear runny nose so it wasn't exactly a surprise. Patrick seems a bit sick but it is hard to tell. I'm hoping it isn't RSV, thinking of calling someone whose child had it to see if the symptoms match. Hopefully it is just a cold ( Read more... )

My husband has begun to complain about the monotony of breakfast (to which I pointed out that he really should be grateful to have a breakfast to complain about). But he is right, the rotating between pancakes, fried eggs, and muffins is wearing thin ( Read more... )

There is this richness that I feel having multiple children. When it was just patrick and I it was like we lived in this bubble completely focused on each other. Tinged with constant paranoia of something bad happening because he was my everything and I couldn't imagine living without him. Now there is this love that is generated and is ( Read more... )

I have been spending too much time indoors. And really sunshine is essential for my mental health. The problem is it has been cold. And I swear cold is physically painful when I am pregnant. I know that theoretically I could just wear warmer clothes but it never seems to happen, not to mention the challenge of finding warm stuff that fits over ( Read more... )

It started with an intense dream about the dark haired girl that increasingly multiple people are getting visions of me having (although apparently not this particular pregnancy). One of those lost/given up and then reclaimed child dreams where you wake up aching for a child you haven't even had. The interesting aspect was she was not my ( Read more... )

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After much internal debate I have decided to keep my icon, at least until another calls to me ( Read more... )

I was supposed to have the "big" ultrasound tomorrow. The one where they make sure everything is okay and (assuming baby isn't shy) tell you if said child is a boy or girl. But it had to be rescheduled for Thursday. So to everyone whom I promised phone calls don't feel left out tomorrow and everyone else, I will likely post an update on my ( Read more... )

This weekend was chaotic but fun and most certainly interesting ( Read more... )