i feel exhausted. consumed. stuck. frustrated. stupid. affixiated. sad. like i have no space. i'm trapped in a box. as will ferrell would say, "i'm trapped inside a glass case of emotion!!!" i'm anxious. i'm delirious. i want to feel happy. i want to be happy with all this. chris is nice. i feel like i'm leading him on though. i told him some stuff ( Read more... )

hm. so pretty much i am exhausted. it sucks. me and chris are...i don't know what we are. but it's good, that's all i know. mike finally gave me back my necklace last night. talked to him for about an hour in the freezing ass parking lot. got half of the across the universe soundtrack. god. he irritates me. it was just like how it was before we ( Read more... )

i am an asshole. i told chris today that i don't want anything right now. he took it hard. he's not talking to me. it sucks. he thinks i used him to get back at mike or to get over mike. i kind of did i guess. but..no, i thought i wanted to use him but i didn't. i feel so horrible and he won't let me explain. god, i hate my life. it just never gets ( Read more... )

Nobody's perfect, dear Aquarius, so there's no sense in trying to be. Even if you feel that something is pushing you to perfect certain aspects of your love life at the moment, remind yourself that sometimes doing too much can be as damaging as doing too little. It isn't necessary to have an overcharged schedule. Try and slow down the pace a bit, ( Read more... )

Thursday, September 13, 2007 ( Read more... )

talking to chris right now. i made him watch 'i am sam'. best movie ever. buuuuut yeaaaa..he told me stuff that mike had said. he makes me so mad! and then chris said, "do you still have feelings for him?" um........nooo. damn. no. i don't know why it all makes me so mad. i hate it. but writing this is totally distracting me from our convo. he's ( Read more... )

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today i'm just sitting there on my lunch..minding my own business. i get a text. it is from michael. it reads, "i've been thinking and i think i'm going to give you back your brand new tickets." .....i then reply, "well, okay. i still wanted to go with you, but if you want to be like that. can i ask you why you changed your mind?".....he then says ( Read more... )

i smell like chris. i don't like it. mike smells different. better. urgh. i hate my life. i fell on my ass today at work. it really hurts. i hurt myself alot today. gaaay. mike hates me some more. gay. well, guess what..me too. freaking asshole. aimee cried to him last night just like i knew she would and he asked me about it. fuck that. i am so ( Read more... )

Tuesday, September 4, 2007 ( Read more... )