In the wreckage of a life, I still need to survive.

Disabled, alone, impoverished, with children to raise, I need to find a way to survive. The people who cared for me in this city have turned against me out of loyalty to my abuser. The one exception, technoshaman, is moving around the world in less than a year. I can't leave the area without losing my ( Read more... )

A newspaper article riveted my attention this morning... about the sentencing of a Texas woman who murdered her young son by suffocation. In it, the remorseful mother said, "I am very sorry to have caused the intense pain and suffering to my precious son Camden. He did nothing whatsoever to deserve that by my hand... My sorrow is intense and ( Read more... )

I don't usually respond to things my ex posts, but as long as I have the post up, since there is a direct question involved, I'll make an exception.

I understand that legal boilerplate has to exist, and that there are tragic situations where a former intimate partner gets injured or killed by a vengeful ex. ***But that isn't me***. That's what you ( Read more... )

My ex, cflute, posted publicly recently that she was "surprised" by a couple of offers I had made, including one she called "extremely generous." I'll respond by a request for a simple piece of return... not generosity, I wouldn't expect that, but responsibility ( Read more... )

The emergency room on Christmas Eve is not a good place to be.

Okay, actually, the emergency room ever is not a good place to be, but sometimes it s a necessary one. Yesterday evening, my medications (at a reasonable dosage, not am extreme one)combined with dehydration to throw my system into utter weirdness. Dizziness, muscles going so weak I ( Read more... )

To my total astonishment, I have a free weekend. More than a free weekend -- I'm basically done with 95% of the scrambling startup tasks that had to get done quicker than immediately in the first few weeks of living without a partner. The only thing left is to get the car registered, and I'm planning to do that the first week in January, after the ( Read more... )

...I made the last post about how much I missed cflute public. Because I want her to know how very much she was -- and is -- loved. Even though we can never be together again, I still love her, I'll always love her, and I want her to know that. She did her level best to kill that off in me, but I'd told her at the beginning I don't stop loving people ( Read more... )

I miss her so much. I don't want to miss her this much; quite frankly, she doesn't deserve it. But my tenant was cleaning up and found a bag which contained what was evidently intended to have been a Valentine's Day present for me, which somehow never got delivered. It was like a stomach punch. Her warmth and love were so wonderful, and even though ( Read more... )

When mdlbear and I introduced our new duo, Lookingglass Folk, we mentioned that we thought we were going to be able to handle the concert slot that we were asked to take over from Tempered Glass, scheduled for Conflikt. We said then that we had a rehearsal weekend upcoming, during which we intended to work on the necessary arrangements and see if we could ( Read more... )

I'm always cold. Blankets and turning the heat up don't help; I shiver constantly. I am well aware of why this is; it's because I'm consuming about 400 calories a day, and that isn't enough to maintain a decent core temperature. I can't eat. I've been sitting here munching oyster crackers in desperation, because they are the only thing I've been ( Read more... )