I tried to kill myself on Monday night. I'd been saving my medication that they "trust me to take" on the ward and I just took all of it. I'd been saving it for weeks ( Read more... )

I've been in treatment for a month. Inpatient. Again. FML, but wtf can I do? I finally started losing weight and My parents got a court order that said I'm incapable of making medical decisions on my own and they forced me in to treatment. As if my parents even care about me. They just did this to fuck with me, to ruin my life. They don't love me. ( Read more... )

What the hell happened to my pixs? FML. Even my blog hates me.

STATS
Height: still 5'5"
Weight: 141-145 lbs
Mood: shit because my jeans don't fit.
B/P rate: averaging 4-5x/day, but @6x so far today.
Restricting: not currently, I'm mostly B/P-ing, like, a LOT.

So, I'm still fat, still unhappy, still cutting, still pretending everything is perfect. FML. As proof, here are some pics: ( pictures of me recently )

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Why does everyone hate me?

I wish I could die ( Read more... )

Warning: potentially triggering. I did ( this )

Awesome. I puked blood last night. And I started cutting again. FML.