I went to my friend Ammo's for New Year's, just like I did in the previous year. It was funny to see some people I connected with physically before the party but each of them moving on to their next partners. At midnight, I kissed everyone on the cheek and bid farewell to 2023: a really really weird and maybe sometimes awful year, but I made it ( Read more... )

This might just be a petty side of me, but whenever I am skeptical of something not working out, I have to confirm its suckitude.

The friend who I broke it off with recently wanted to rent a home with a group of friends near the beach in California.  I agreed to this initially because I thought we would choose something reasonable and actually on ( Read more... )

I dumped a friend a few weeks ago.  I made it look like she was dumping me for behavioral reasons mostly because I was at the end of my rope and could not control feeling annoyed anymore.  I did not always feel comfortable in her presence, but since she left for LA things were always harder to gauge.  We spent a decent amount of time together ( Read more... )

Last night I confirmed something I had long suspected. I am into women. Her name was Pamela. Everything about her was strangely beautiful. I knew I wanted her badly and we went home together with another guy and had 5 hours of the most ridiculous fun mildly inconvenienced by the guy who was unable to keep anything hard for a long time. I don't ( Read more... )

I was diagnosed with a cyst in November ( Read more... )

I said goodbye to Princess Jasmine, one of my best non-human friends on Tuesday. She had been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and was experiencing a sharp decline in health. The euthanasia was at home. The doctor discussed the steps as we were going through them and then she was given two injections. One to rest peacefully and one to end her ( Read more... )

A week ago I went to San Diego. I was going to stay at ES's because we were still sleeping together so it made sense. I came in on Thursday to what I felt was a lukewarm welcome. I planned to stay until Tuesday. A few days before I contemplated even going at all because Princess Jasmine (my cat) is experiencing a sharp decline in health. A ( Read more... )

I love that he calls me on the phone. Just so he can hear my voice ( Read more... )

On Friday I went camping in an area with no cell reception. I returned to ES texting if I was back. We've been chatting about almost every day.. sometimes in the group chat. We also made plans to see eachother in LA. Downtown. At a nice hotel. This is definitely what I wanted from him even if it is all just bad timing.

I hadn't imagined a scenario where "El Scorcho" (kind of a dumb name but I have nothing right now) would apologize to me because I had simply assumed he was going to leave and that was that.

And then we started texting.

First to apologize.  Then he asked me to come over.  I enthusiastically showed up at his door.

To rewind a bit, he's starting ( Read more... )