So James and Ed found my journal, which is going to lead me to lock it up from now (or at least everytime I mention them.) Because they are losers (and also university always seems to get dull late afternoon) they started to read it all starting from the very beginning. James even has a file on his computer where he has cut and posted the most ( Read more... )

James and Ed are super cool.

I'm not that depressed anymore, even though today I have every reason to be, because I locked myself out of my room, and then got lost when we went to this stupid societies thing. Justin was super excited to go for the prospect of free stuff, but I didn't get that much free stuff at all. Except I did join the indie society and they gave me a CD and ( Read more... )

I always feel so shitty in the morning. I wake up with a lump in the my throat and a stomach that feels like a big black hole. It's shitty. Although I guess that's because I have nothing to do in the morning, and so just sit in my room and feel sorry for myself, just like I'm doing right now. All the other times I can do stuff, and recently stuff ( Read more... )

I still feel shitty. I've been having serious conversations with my mother about what will happen if I drop out. I have been here for four days and I am thinking of dropping out. How pathetic is that? Super pathetic. Although however pathetic it is, I still do feel horrible at the moment, to such an extent that I am wondering why I am here ( Read more... )

I feel shitty now. I feel like I want to pack my bags and catch the next train to London, and work in Sainsbury's for the rest of my life. Really. Really, really. I wouldn't go as far to say I hate it, but being here makes me feel so uncomfortable that I want to go home. Why force yourself to feel so crappy? Why would anyone want to feel like this ( Read more... )

Oh My God! I am here. It is crazy. I now have the internet, but in order to get it, I had to ask some boy upstairs to buy me the right connections! Now I need to go to English and sign up. I have no idea where English is. Hooray!

I am currently packing my entire life into the back of my dad's car. Because tomorrow I am running away to university. And yes, I know it's crazy that I am going this late, I don't know why I'm going this late actually. Maybe we should ask them. Although it's not really my life in the back of the car. Because looking around my room it really doesn' ( Read more... )

I haven't updated for a long time. I maybe blame the fact that the internet is starting to lose its appeal rather quickly, and also that I am rather busy preparing myself for university. Plus also waving farewell to everyone, who all left weeks ago, and I still haven't, even though I am terrified that maybe I read my letter wrong, and maybe school ( Read more... )

I ended up catching an old episode of Roswell this afternoon. I've actually seen bits of quite a lot of them recently, which is mainly due to the fact that I've been doing nothing else for the past three weeks but watch television. But today they all went to Las Vegas, and had fun. I remember that episode. I remember that I tend to consider that ( Read more... )