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Sigo sanando
Buenas noches soy Johanna superviviente de abuso sexual en la infancia, sigo en este proceso de sanar mis heridas por este terrible trauma, aún siento miedo a la intimidad aún se me dificulta confiar en una mujer. Hace un año y 3 meses no tengo novia tengo 44 años y se me dificulta confiar soy muy celosa,siento que las mujeres son como mis ( Read more... ) -
Step I/Question VI: Do you isolate yourself/how?
Step I/Question V: Do you isolate yourself? If yes, how?
I don't normally look at it as 'I isolate myself'. I just happen to spend a lot of time alone/with very limited people.
The only people in my circle are my three children and my fiance. I don't talk to my family and since ending unhealthy relationships with past friends and my children's ( Read more... ) -
I’m new here. Looking for support
It’s scary to reach out - even online. I was sexually abused by my biological mother from age 0-18 years. I repressed it all until my 30’s when I started having nightmares and little pieces started coming back. It’s disgusting and terrifying and so so disturbing. I am feeling like I need someone to relate to. I’ve never met anyone who was sexually ( Read more... ) -
I am worried for my nephews
TW: child to child sexual abuse ( Read more... ) -
Step 1/Question X: Do you nurture yourself and reach out for support?
I do try to nurture myself. I have my hobbies that I am starting to get back into. I exercise and try to eat healthy. I try to do things for myself. Always looking for ways to better myself, which I feel is a form of nurture - to nurture those things that make me, me.
Reaching out for support would be a NO. I attend SIA - 12 step meeting for ( Read more... ) -
Step I/Question IX: Are you in touch with your feelings now?
Am I in touch with my feelings now? Definitely not. This is one of the biggest issues with my abuse. As I've mentioned, I don't struggle with flashbacks, etc. My struggle is my disassociation with myself and those closest with me. Which is because I am not in touch with my feelings. I feel like I go through life emotionally flatlining. I'm ( Read more... ) -
Step I/Question VIII: How has the abuse affected how you function sexually? (TW)
Trigger Warning
Thank goodness it doesn't affect me the way it use to!!!
There use to be a lot of shame around sex/masturbation. A lot of the sex I had was for the other person, not for myself. Even if I wanted to be sexual as well, once we started, it was as if I removed myself from it and just went through the motions of whatever the other ( Read more... ) -
Step I/Question VII: How has the abuse affected how you feel about your body?
Step I/Question VII: How has the abuse affected how you feel about your body?
For one, the abuse made me HATE MY BODY. I will write on this after.
For two, the abuse made me HATE ME. I hated myself so much. I hated everything about me. On top of all the sexual abuse, my mom was an alcoholic/drug addict who would beat and abandon my brother and ( Read more... ) -
Step I/Question VI: Do you isolate yourself/how?
Step I/Question VI: Do you isolate yourself? If yes, how?
I don't normally look at it as 'I isolate myself'. I just happen to spend a lot of time alone/with very limited people.
The only people in my circle are my three children and my fiance. I don't talk to my family and since ending unhealthy relationships with past friends and my children' ( Read more... ) -
glad I found you
Hello. I have been in Overeaters Anonymous for over 30 years and I am grateful for the priceless and plentiful recovery there. It was there in my first 4th/5th step that I first shared my story of incest. It was the first time I told anyone, the first time I said it out loud. I knew I had been molested by my grandfather at age 12 or 13 but I didn' ( Read more... )