WARNING: This is personal crap. If you don't want to know my personal emotional pain DONT READ this!! I wrote this with the encouragement of my therapist. Please ignore all grammar mistakes!
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FOr those not in the loop RJ is moving to CA to live with his Dad in 3 weeks. We are going to Pennsic for two weeks and the day after we get back I fly him to CA. This saddens me a great deal and I am very much grieving this move. I could take it to court and win but that would just create and ugly situation with his Dad which would be detrimental ( Read more... )

I am still alive - very busy with the SCA.

The kids are growing up so fast.

Still dont know where RJ is going this fall - with his Dad or with me.

Work is fine

G is keeping me very busy cause he is now into EVERYTHING!!!!

Need more sleep - but what else is new . . .

OK if I am insane and have lots of energy than this is how my summer schedule will go ( Read more... )

In my bout of trying to be productive today, I jumped the gun on something and fucked up some potentially really good things. Some days I really hate my ADHD tendencies. There was an assumption that I had knowledge I didn't, but also I made an assumption about a conversation I thought I had(and hadn't in reality) Now I just made things a lot more ( Read more... )

I am trying to gain a new habit of doing arm exercises everyday and I am not doing well at it. I need to gain arm strength to become a better fighter. So I hope by writing it here it will help me remember to do them!

I got a call from my Mom today. My sister lost her baby today. This is the third miscarriage in 1 year. I feel so sorry for her. She really wants to have another baby with her new husband. Part of me feels unreasonably guilty since I have 3 kids with no problems. I am not sure what she is going to do now - give up or do in vitro - due to a strange ( Read more... )

I have been doing a lot of self processing these last few weeks. In the end it is all a good thing, but sometimes actually doing it is difficult. One normally doesn't like to look at those nasty hidden self messages that are there to sabotage oneself. They are really good at hiding and are really good at being nasty. But the only way to get rid of ( Read more... )

OK so technically this was not a suggested topic, but it came up for me while writing the last entry - self-sacrifice.
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I am going to combine two ideas on this one - being a man at arms and fighting.
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