There are soft tones adrift on the breeze bringing a scent which fills me with a pure and simple pleasure. I watch as the prismatic light filters through the light refrain, light distended and reshaped burgeoning with new promise. I think i dreamt the other night of life restored to dead flesh but i can't quite recall if this is memory or just a ( Read more... )

the roof is blackened by the perpetual spirals of smoke that drift lazily towards the rafters, accompanied by a low murmur whispering secrets kept. time passes here much the same as anywhere though i think its the sky or maybe the light that makes it feel the way it does ( Read more... )

Its curious but sometimes i forget how much of an influence other people have on me. That i can move along in apparent independence yet suddenly find myself so affected by someone, not in a good way though. Something about this person just irritates the complete and utter fuck out of me, like their psychic energy is so barbed that their very ( Read more... )

ok so i think i just figured out my vampire matriarch dream. not really much of a surprise i guess. but it seems that i have been constructing situations as a means of controlling the outcome. based on a sense of insecurity i have been reluctant to let go and place myself in a situation that would result in my injury, mostly emotional. that even ( Read more... )

So here i am in slightly better shape than yesterday, though my head still hurts after a weekend of indulgence which exceeded all others previously in the consumption of something particular. I feel somewhat chagrined to note that I do these things in a kind of penance, to earn my karmic stripes of a sort. I've always held this belief that ( Read more... )

Good things are coming. i don't know if you feel it but the near future is laden with promise. you will see. it is close. you will know the time.

I had a dream last night that I was being followed by this ridiculously attractive woman, through streets and alleys, under overpasses. She was trying to seduce me with lurid gestures, the kind of of things someone without a grasp of sexuality would use on the primitive minded. Perhaps more specifically just flashing her bits. I knew something was ( Read more... )

Apparently my magic number is 5 which is described as a quixotic number with a quicksilver temperament, i just like it cos the word feels nice in my mouth as i roll it around, the phonetics satisfying me in a way that a goat cannot. Though its also nice since apparently my lovelife sign is described as an oxen which is not especially romantic or ( Read more... )

guilt. irrepressible and consuming. maybe its not so bad but to see others do what i do to myself is not something i am comfortable with ( Read more... )

So ah yeah some 18 year old started a fight with me over a married girl who i am not married to how cool is that. i think somehow i have slipped from single into a strange cosmos where i have inadvertently discovered the polar opposite of single while not actually having the fun parts an kisses. its more embarrassing than anything though as you ( Read more... )