"Oh your such a big start to me, your everything i wanna be..." love that song. That's how I'm feeling now though. It's so sunny outside, and I'm praying it stays that way my friends. O.k, so technically I've been cropped up in the library all day, but it's all good. I've had lovely little breaks, with lovely little people, and i guess... I'm in ( Read more... )

It's official. The inevitable has hit me. Exams start for me in exactly a week, and I can't believe how unbelievably screwed I am. I made a complete balls of this year. Understandable in ways though. I am freaking out now. Today has been a weird day. I planned to study lots, but studied zero, and i genuinely mean zero. How could i do that? It's f ( Read more... )

This morning, my world had so much possibility. I made a decision. I felt empowered, i felt healthy, i felt free. I knew i could do it.
Then, at 5pm, the old me took over, and i ruined everything. I hate myself for it, beyond anyones understanding. I feel disgusting, i feel awful. I hate this feeling, and the worst thing is, its me who done it!!

I ( Read more... )

I've had an absolute breakthrough. Something, and I'm not entirely sure what that actually is, has happened. The only way i can articulate this feeling is that something had finally clicked. I was awake, alone, and browsing through WW vanity, reading up about success stories and admiring the before and after pictures of all these amazing people. It ( Read more... )

Hello Everyone,

This will be somewhat short. I'm having a bit of a surreal moment. Today, the 25th April 2008, is my final day as a first year in college (a freshman) Isn't that insane? Ok well probably not to you. But i can't actually make sense of it. How can a year have passed already? It's sheer insanity. I'm in college now, tying up some final ( Read more... )

In ways, i would definitely consider myself a bit of a Charlotte York. But is that such a bad thing?
If I'm to be truly honest, then yes, i suppose you could say i have my life pretty much mapped out.
But i don't like that term. It's so confined, and boring. Is that who i am? Confined and boring?
It's not so much that i have my life planned. It's ( Read more... )

Hi Everybody <3

So it's Wednesday, actually no wait it's technically thursday because it's 12.18am :)
Today has been a strange owl day. It was what i like to call a "mood-hopping day". This s basically when my mood can drastically change from minute to minute, with no explainable reason to justify it. The day started off a little dis-jointed. I ( Read more... )

I hope everyone is enjoying this fine Tuesday ;) If not, know that tomorrow is a new day, and a new day means lots of new possibilities.

OK just as a general note, my new blogs are going to include food diaries, and basically comments on my weight loss ect. I think it would really help me become more in tune with the whole process, and also i really ( Read more... )

So it's Monday and I'm in the library. My assignments due in a couple of hours, and It's really not looking too good at the moment. The fact that the library was completely packed is depressing enough itself. It means everyones been studying all day. People actually got up early and prioritized their exams. Okay, so i didn't have a lye on or ( Read more... )

This is something I've been thinking about doing for quite some time. I think it took me so long to join because i knew that there was a possibility of certain people seeing it, people who are no longer part of my life now. Scary how these people were, at one point, the foundations of my life. And it was wonderful. I'll always look back on those ( Read more... )