I would love to write an entry to take advantage of that line, but I just wrote it because it's what I'm listening to, and I don't unfortunately have time to delve into anything. I knew it would happen when I got back, but it's damned annoying ( Read more... )

Reflections. Representations. Beautiful inaccuracies. Conceptualizations so pure they need not breathe, need not expire. Pieces of a wall so well constructed it lets no light, no sound, no air through. A wall so well constructed it encompasses all light, all sound, all air. Ideas with mass... weight. Ideas stacked upon ideas, holding together ( Read more... )

One and the same in the end? One of the most difficult realities is the concept of the infinite. It simply doesn't work with my perception. I am spatially and chronologically based, everything measured in fixed distances and times. My concept of existence is always defined in those terms. To accept that there is no beginning or end, for myself ( Read more... )

I was just about to go to sleep, and I realized that I never use my journals for what I want to use them for. Discourse. Venting through the never-ending sequence of internal discussions I have ( Read more... )

7:55 that is ( Read more... )

so my last entry was a real downer I guess ( Read more... )

I want to quit my job. I want to leave this country. I want to make a difference. I want to connect. I want to be in an artist co-op again. I want to do volunteer work. I want to wake up in strange places and discover that I don't understand anything. I want to love without complication... without logistics. I want the world to not be ( Read more... )

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Not a very content driven update, but I now have a shaved head. Pretty liberating, and mildly creepy ;)

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I'm increasingly aware that I have more resilience than is good for me. I weather compulsions, conceptualizations, aspirations, and epiphanies constantly. Why can't I just reach a fucking breaking point for once? How can I stand my state of existence in the face of my potential ( Read more... )