Guess who got a perm?  This guy. Meaning, me. No worries, it's very subtle, looking nearly identical with my previous straight hair, just poofier and stinking of rotten eggs.

Even more exciting news!  I rescued a caterpillar and a turtle the size of a dinner plate!  The caterpillar looked like this but not as terrifying.  It felt like a cool, ( Read more... )

Slowly I am starting to unclench.  Had a pretty productive weekend.  Finished application #15, worked on this Brahms piece, ran four miles straight again for the first time in forever.  Also took my bike to the bike shop to get tuned up after wiping off 8 years worth of insect casings and cobwebs.  It is a good thing that I am not scared of spiders ( Read more... )

Was flipping channels and accidentally caught Coldplay's performance on the MTV music awards.  Had been indifferent to Coldplay since  Gwyneth Paltrow's married the frontman, but this new single is like, instantly, madly addictive (maybe because of Brian Eno's production). I've listened to it continuously for the last two hours.  It makes me want ( Read more... )

Assiduously written thank you letters notwithstanding, I think at this point it’s safe to say I did not get the job I interviewed for last Monday.  *sigh* Since March, I have applied for 14 positions, gotten two interviews, and still, nothing.  This week I became so anxious about receiving more rejections that I couldn’t make myself send out any ( Read more... )

Have been back now for over a week and it astonishes me how quickly and easily the time has gone by.   What have I been doing that my days should feel so full?

Well, I have been walking the big dog and looking after the little dog.  While doing the former, I saw three snakes and a turtle on the same day, crossing the road. I was worried that ( Read more... )

Am in VA, having left ILL for good on Sunday.  Because I'm finished with grad school?  I mean, I'M FINISHED WITH GRAD SCHOOL!  Yeah, I did it? ! ? ! ? !  It feels weird, I guess. Not exactly anti-climactic, because that would imply there was a build-up that was disappointed. More like, there was never an expectation of climax in the first place, ( Read more... )

I got called "ma'am" today.  TWICE.  The first time by a man in his mid 30s.  The second time by a tall, dark and hot undergrad student worker.  I don't know which incident was worse.  Like, I guess I can accept that I no longer look like a college student.  But to have an old dude see me as an old lady?  I am 26 years old, goddammit.  I still have ( Read more... )

Yesterday I got home from work so tired from my period and from hating work that I went straight to bed and woke up at 9p.m.  Stayed up for a little bit, then tried going back to bed at 11:30.  Couldn't stop my mind from picking apart the future,  so around 2 in the morning I decided to go grocery shopping.  As soon as I started driving, I realized ( Read more... )

My last day of classes was on Wednesday.  I am officially done next Sunday, the 11th.  I don't have a job yet, though I've sent out 11 resumes, and I'm expending most of my emotional energy fighting the urge to worry about it.  I remind myself that there is nothing fun about having to work 40 hours a week, so why be so desperate to chain myself as ( Read more... )

SHAME!   That's what's I feel all the time!   I have known that word for a long time but only today did I realize it matches the emotion that is the foundation for my daily life.   Whew!  Nice to finally have a name for it.