incredibly frustrated. thats all i have to say for now.

well we told him. at first he was eerily quiet. he just got up and asked us to let him know when we were leaving. and he also asked us to leave sooner rather than later. it hurt that while we were crying he seemed disconnected. and later when he thought we couldn't hear him, he did what he does best: make hurtful comments about how gabby and i are ( Read more... )

so on top of the incredible storm coming my way, i just found out that one of my very close cousins, not one any of you know, has hiv. he was very close to dying but they managed to get him to the hospital. so he was stupid and decided not to take care of himself cuz he was depressed. hence the depression made him go stay with his sons mom, who is ( Read more... )

so things don't seem to get any better. My sister and i have officially decided that we are going to be leaving. unfortunately its not as easy as just deciding and going. i'm not that lucky. my mother is ecstatic, of course. i think on some level she feels like she's winning. and i know thats how my father is going to see it when we tell him, which ( Read more... )

i figuratively lost my mother years ago and now i've figuratively lost my father. as a result of a recently bad fight, i'm 80% sure myself and my sister are relocating back to massachusetts. i'm surprised to feel not entirely happy about that fact. i don't know if we'll ever be like we were, i don't even know when he'll speak to me next. i just ( Read more... )

So things are weird. i don't even know how to express how i'm feeling. i just really hate it down here. i feel like i lost a big part of my life, and thats not even the worst part of it. no one seems bothered by my leaving. i know this makes me sound like a pissy child looking for a pity party, and i'm not, pity is the last thing i want. but i ( Read more... )

Well its been awhile and things have been going well. we had a very productive day yesterday. after several meetings, we now have another agent ready to work with us, and we also set up a friendship with a man who owns a pharmacy, which will allow us to meet with more people who need our services. i also did my first presentation yesterday, all by ( Read more... )

okay. so things are goin kinda well. i signed 2 applications this morning, meaning i made 900 dollars today. not too shabby, if i do say so myself. still struggling with the spanish a bit, but i'm workin on it, and i'm slowly becoming more confident in my presentation skills ( Read more... )

Well its official. After weeks of grueling studying for 10 hours out of the day, looking at the same boring, monotonous bullshit again and again and again... I finally passed ( Read more... )

still struggling but better now.
will post a real update asap.