http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbPuTwo1bxs

Beautiful song, and sad too. Same with the video.  I remember how hard it was to make the call he did at the beginning

Now I'm back to the usual battle I tend to fight. Part of me that wants to be normal, and part that wants to give the world the finger and go it alone. Problem is, both have their appeal, and I'm not sure which I want anymore. I'm pretty sure my plans for self elimination are done (as sure as one can be I suppose), but, a large part of me wants ( Read more... )

I want to walk the path that Squall did, and gain the strengths he found there. I I hope I also find the 'weaknesses' he found at the end of that path

Around a month and a half ago, the meds did something they've done a few times while I was on them. Just stopped working. After this most recent time, I decided to move on without them. I felt like I was in stasis with that stuff, and I felt like it was time to learn to deal with my own issues on my own terms. Which meant I'd be going back to ( Read more... )

My myspace, and now my facebook are getting too crowded. Time to come back here, where I can write whatever I want, and not have to worry about someone reading it and getting the wrong idea. Sorry I was away so long lj

Make of this what you will. Careful though, you might be wrong ( Read more... )

A story that has felt especially true for me lately ( Read more... )

For awhile, when this latest 'relationship' of mine went the way that they all do, I fell into something new. Usually, I bury my hurt and disappointment, and those mix to make sadness. After a time, I usually manage to turn all of that into hope. But each time my hopes are dashed, it's harder to hope again ( Read more... )

First, to any who may have wound up with hurt feelings, I'm sorry that happened. However, I'm not apologizing for anything I said, whether it was rude or not. Becuase everything I've said lately, was either true, how I was/am feeling, or was something I was just too polite to say before. While I'm a lot more 'recognizable' today, I'm still not the ( Read more... )

This is something new. I feel ... comfortably numb