Illusions (19/25)
Title : Illusions (19/25)
Rating : NC 17
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 19 - So long
Summary : “Aw, jealous? Don’t worry. You will always be my favorite”
A/N : We are reaching the end! I am stuck at Chptr 22! ^^: Blame it on Dir en grey. Been listening to Namamekashiki Ansoku, Tamerai ni Hohoemi and been angsting ^^; rofl.. fic may turn out to be angst! ^^; C&C welcomed. This is from Kai's POV! ^^
Past chapters
Chptr 1, 2 , 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 1 8
Surprisingly, they weren’t at the toilet having hot and steamy sex as per my initial expectations. The thought of the possibility of them doing so did not hurt any less than a few weeks ago when I confronted him on his cheating on me. The night that our relationship fizzled to just one night stands instead of a steady relationship. Usually it works the other way but for us, it had happened the other way.
I faltered in my rush to find them. Am I really that prepared to see them in the act? Wouldn’t that hurt even more? I heard voices from the partially parted door leading to yet another rehearsal room currently unused. Do I want to go in? I paused at the door, steeling myself, peeking into the room. The sight that greeted me was nothing that I expect less of. Ruki and Satsuki kissing. Can I still fight to keep what we have previously? I was about to leave when I see Ruki shoving Satsuki away. That I didn’t expect. I stood there, still uncertain to barge in or to just leave.
“Stay away from him”
Satsuki chuckled, leaning against the table, staring at Ruki lazily.
“I do not know what you meant”
“I see how you were staring at him. Don’t mess with him”
“Aw, jealous? Don’t worry. You will always be my favorite”
“No more. I don’t want to do this anymore”
Satsuki lifted an eyebrow, giving Ruki a look of disbelief.
“And why is that?”
“I love him”
That had my jaw dropping and Satsuki laughing.
“That didn’t stop you before”
“I do not have to explain myself to you. Goodbye”
I did not have the time to hide myself as I now find myself face to face with Ruki. His face turned red as he came to the realization that I had overheard him. Satsuki gave us an amused look as he edged past us to leave. I didn’t know what to say to Ruki, neither did he. Why is it that when words matters the most, both of us can't say them? The fact that he had told Satsuki that he loves me stunned me more than anything. In our turbulent relationship, he had never said it to me. I was the only one who had told him that. The one and only time that I told him that in Matsuyama, in that place overlooking the city, he hadn’t replied it, further casting our relationship in doubt then. I didn’t know that I myself had needed to hear those words. To know that he too felt what I felt. That it was not just physical for him, that it was not one sided.
“Don’t cry”
I looked into his panicked eyes as his hand reached up to brush away tears that had formed unknowingly.
“Kai”
I waited for him to speak, the warmth of his hand still lingered on my face before his hand fell to his side. He gave a nervous chuckle, scratching his nape.
“I love you”
He looked up at me, firm conviction in his eyes as he uttered those three simple words.
Rating : NC 17
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 19 - So long
Summary : “Aw, jealous? Don’t worry. You will always be my favorite”
A/N : We are reaching the end! I am stuck at Chptr 22! ^^: Blame it on Dir en grey. Been listening to Namamekashiki Ansoku, Tamerai ni Hohoemi and been angsting ^^; rofl.. fic may turn out to be angst! ^^; C&C welcomed. This is from Kai's POV! ^^
Past chapters
Chptr 1, 2 , 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 1 8
Surprisingly, they weren’t at the toilet having hot and steamy sex as per my initial expectations. The thought of the possibility of them doing so did not hurt any less than a few weeks ago when I confronted him on his cheating on me. The night that our relationship fizzled to just one night stands instead of a steady relationship. Usually it works the other way but for us, it had happened the other way.
I faltered in my rush to find them. Am I really that prepared to see them in the act? Wouldn’t that hurt even more? I heard voices from the partially parted door leading to yet another rehearsal room currently unused. Do I want to go in? I paused at the door, steeling myself, peeking into the room. The sight that greeted me was nothing that I expect less of. Ruki and Satsuki kissing. Can I still fight to keep what we have previously? I was about to leave when I see Ruki shoving Satsuki away. That I didn’t expect. I stood there, still uncertain to barge in or to just leave.
“Stay away from him”
Satsuki chuckled, leaning against the table, staring at Ruki lazily.
“I do not know what you meant”
“I see how you were staring at him. Don’t mess with him”
“Aw, jealous? Don’t worry. You will always be my favorite”
“No more. I don’t want to do this anymore”
Satsuki lifted an eyebrow, giving Ruki a look of disbelief.
“And why is that?”
“I love him”
That had my jaw dropping and Satsuki laughing.
“That didn’t stop you before”
“I do not have to explain myself to you. Goodbye”
I did not have the time to hide myself as I now find myself face to face with Ruki. His face turned red as he came to the realization that I had overheard him. Satsuki gave us an amused look as he edged past us to leave. I didn’t know what to say to Ruki, neither did he. Why is it that when words matters the most, both of us can't say them? The fact that he had told Satsuki that he loves me stunned me more than anything. In our turbulent relationship, he had never said it to me. I was the only one who had told him that. The one and only time that I told him that in Matsuyama, in that place overlooking the city, he hadn’t replied it, further casting our relationship in doubt then. I didn’t know that I myself had needed to hear those words. To know that he too felt what I felt. That it was not just physical for him, that it was not one sided.
“Don’t cry”
I looked into his panicked eyes as his hand reached up to brush away tears that had formed unknowingly.
“Kai”
I waited for him to speak, the warmth of his hand still lingered on my face before his hand fell to his side. He gave a nervous chuckle, scratching his nape.
“I love you”
He looked up at me, firm conviction in his eyes as he uttered those three simple words.