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You Make Me Remember Things I Want to Forget...
I was not prepared to see him. I wasn't. There has to be some cosmic reason that the one days that I actually miss Keith are the days when he somehow finds a way into my life. Last week when I thought about him, he texted me....Tonight...I was sitting with friends and feeling lonely and missing him and in he walked. Right through the dore. I ( Read more... ) -
The Ghost of You
WHY?!! I was fine just letting you go! And I was starting to learn to be happy again.... Why does keith have to keep texting me and asking me things then not saying anything? He texted me last night and asked me what I was doing today. When I responded today....and asked why he played with me and said why do you think? I asked if he wanted to ( Read more... ) -
She F*ing Hates Me!
Funny...Keith always liked this song. Go figure ( Read more... ) -
Let's all make believe that we're still friends and we like each other...
After rehearsal I feel amazing.... Although it was sad because Bobby's car got broken into an a lot of his things were taken. I have been cast as something I NEVER get cast as I realize. The sexy, beautifl, sultry woman in a musical.... It definitely boosts my ego. Me! Cast as the sexy one...especially next to Erin Marie Hogan. Eeyan might be ( Read more... ) -
Why can't we be friends, why can't we be friends?
Son of a bitch! I am now learning how to be angry at Keith rather than hurt. He said that night that he would always be here for me and he still wants to be friends. At the time, it hurt too much to even think of the prospect...but yesterday, when I came out of my too many sleeping pill coma I was suddenly over it. Really it was strange...but ( Read more... ) -
I never thought I'd die alone...
i need to move on....i need to go on to something better but i don't know what -
I Know It's Easy to Say, but it's harder to feel..this way (The Fear You Won't Fall VI)
He ended it as of 2:45 Am this morning. And I feel like right now I have nothing to live for. It was the first time in five years that I thought about suicide and I was that close to doing it. If I had gone4 home, I would have taken all those sleeping pills in one swoop. I don't know how to live right now. And there he was. Laughing about it ( Read more... ) -
Because you kill me...you know you do you kill me well...
It's so messed up the power I let him have over me. He calls me and tells me to come over and I'm there. Then just as easily he dismisses me to go over to another girls house. And....I leave.....without a kiss....or anything. He asks me 6 times what I'm doing that night and I say nothing over and over again....hoping that he wants me to be with ( Read more... ) -
Your Tears Don't Fall, They Crash Around Me
And here I am in tears after seeing old texts from him that read:
"I'd love to come over cuite"
and
"Sitting here, wanting you next to me"
I HATE myself. I really do. -
I just Can't get you out of my head...
How do you stop loving someone? I don't know how to do that. I've never loved someone the way that a man and wife would. I don't know what that is. But I do know what love is...and I have it for so many people. I've never just stopped. I just....I just don't understand how to do that. I think that's why it hurt so much when Eeyan very easily ( Read more... )