i have passion. passion breeds respect. i don't measure what people think of me (because in the end, does that matter?) but in the wonders i see in the people around me. it brings up a swell of emotion. emotion, passion, respect beholden me. (or is it the other way around?)
this is why i admire feminine beauty, will, strength. (and not in this ( Read more... )

if. if i had a certainty.

well. if i had a certainty of happiness, love, pleasure, and the pull of true attachment tugging me right behind my navel... i might risk it.

i might even risk this racked, disease-infested, mutation-filled, drug mutilated body of mine. ....but that wouldn't be fair, just to appease my own desire to feel motherhood.

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i find it important to remind people about the Dallas nurses. what happened to these two people, and the organizations they work in.. it exposes the punches made through the delicate lacework in health care.

they need protocols put in place, or else it's given opportunity to spread (as feared). they need to understand what they're dealing with and ( Read more... )

 this was.... a LONG, long time ago.

i'm going to have to have a good think and type up the health escapades that have happened in the past year.

thankfully, there isn't that much to note.

i post most frequently on my Facebook account. (and i know a few people here don't use Facebook, or if they do, infrequently, and i totally get that.)

myself, i' ( Read more... )

.... as i referred to it while he was taking the sample ( Read more... )

 i have decided. 
if i ever, EVER want a child, i will adopt....
or ask my sister to be a surrogate. 
i'm sure she would if i was desperate. 
...thing is, i'm at the stage of my life where children, babies, are in the forefront because it is, or has been, for many of my friends for a few years. i didn't really examine this part of myself until i saw ( Read more... )

i may need to start an official Jeremy Brett collection. i have the Sherlocks, of course. i recently acquired "Jennie", where he plays Count Kinsky.
i'm sure i have many Brett aficionados out there.
any suggestions for good drama?
i'd probably go for My Fair Lady, but his singing was DUBBED! :-(
i can't think of anything else offhand he was in.... ( Read more... )

i find paintings infuriating at times.
i get drawn in by one painting i see while reading geneologies online. i look up more paintings of the same subject, and find similar loveliness.... but different eye color. different face shape. sometimes the two have no similarities at all.
i LIKE consistency! i know the whole point of painting was/ is to ( Read more... )

strip away any old gauzes and undies.
shower body to freshen everything.
check skin with hands down below for superficial peeling skin (skin doesn't like fistula drainage and reacts).
go back to shower to scrape/exfoliate the dead skin away with exfoliating gloves and soft foot brush. rinse clean.
dry body with hairdryer and washcloth. 
examine below ( ( Read more... )

 Liberals/NDP. Liberals, NDP. 
politics exhaust me, but when the party in question may be involved in the funding of K, it goes a little beyond EVERYTHING. 
i have a feeling the the NDP would be more open to fund the drug that is, right now, giving me a reason for living, since they have been very open-minded and supportive of me in this current ( Read more... )