Mum's sad and worried about many things at the moment, but it always ends up with her channeling her emotions towards me.  So I get a morning of anger.  (one splash of coffee on the table and getting up 20 minutes late! - OMG.

So I was rather sad when I got to dad's office and had an uncharacteristic cry and ED disscusion with him.  We usually see ( Read more... )

 Sooo.... Prince Hal's been having a nice time in Afghanistan - I'm pleased to hear.  He appears to have enjoyed it anyway. - good for him.  - Sunshine and annonymity ( Read more... )

Sorry for absence (those who remember/care) and

THANK YOU so much to everyone who asked after me.

I've had a few computer problems and been to apathetic and depressed to sort them out.

I've been quite bad lately - I feel like some sort of Kamekazi pilot:. Like the little boy in 'The Empire of the Sun' - I understand and kind of admire the Kamekazi ( Read more... )

Rant preparation!I have a great session with my therapist about my relationship with my mum.  I've learned what our problems are!  She's emotionally repressed and it all comes out in OCD around "seeing practical results" :   my Weight, my behaviour, my mood, money  etc.  me. me. me.  She can't let go of her baby.  I'm 27 ( Read more... )

In my more depressed moments, I find this to really hit my ED nerve:

Hope people are OK ! Post Xmas slump and all that - it cn be a bit of a depressing time, so best wishes to all you lovely folk.

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Hi all. xxx
Lil' update? Why not?

Hope you all had as pleasant a Christmas as possible - I really do! I hope everyone got at least SOME joy out of the holidays. There's still New year coming up - so more time for either 'repenting' or making up for lost 'fun' - Yeah ( Read more... )

It's weird I'm better on the Prozac and for the first time in years I AM actually feeling quite christmassy. Having said that - I'm dreading the big few days themselves! and I don't want to be part of them.  I have the seasonal spirit, but I'm sad, too ( Read more... )

I know that raised blood pressure whilst purging can break blood vessels in the eye.  It happens to lots of us, but I've just discovered someting else.

A few days ago I gave myself a large black eye.  OK - so nothing to be alarmed about - I hit my face on the handle of a metal trolley thing, but it was a bad bruise.
Purging made it much worse and ( Read more... )

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