The weather turned when I blew into town, which kind of sucked for my hiking plans but whatevs. I was just escaping the family thing, with the mother and the mother's husband and the mother's sister battling it out for territory kind of thing and yeah.... if i can spend $100 and a half tank of gas just to escape all that, I will, kind of thing. ( Read more... )

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somehow i am still here

at some point i hope to have time to go back and see how everone is doing

if anyone is still blogging here and stuff wow that is so amazing

we have a weird disjointed but very real shared history

i feel like that is worth something

i don't even know any of yall in real life and doubt i ever will

- unless you happen to be in ( Read more... )

i will do nanowrimo but in Russian - that's the only way - it will help me with language acquisition tremendously

here is the start

йцукенгшщзхъ

фывапролджэ

ячсмитьбю

я знаю чмо моя семя была плохо после бойну но мы чорошо сейчас. мы жили на гороле тогла и мы знали

ok i will help yall out:

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disgustingly, overwhelmingly nervous & stuff

it's like there's 2 me's operating at the same time - one who initiates stuff, and the other who balks/regrets/wants to retreat from it all, and it's a constant battle

when i was a child i had serious behavioural problems in school, Kindergarten. Apparently I would steal kids lunches, picked fights, ( Read more... )

This was the lie we all believed in.

I could make myself believe it as old as eleven, if i squinched my eyes against a big evergreen in the neighbor's house: yes, Santa Claus. Flying thru the trees. In July.

Either I never believed in Santa or I still believe - I can't tell the difference.

The setup was: the night before Christmas all the ( Read more... )

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21. Name one thing you feel brings out the good in people.

honestly... sex. That simple. It makes people more grounded in their bodies, it discharges energy, it (in ideal scenarios) invites love, affection, and intimacy, and it is probably the easiest way to get exercise. It invites relaxation and confidence. I know it has made a huge difference in ( Read more... )

17. What song was stuck in your head recently, and what were you doing at the time that made you think of it?

i actually recently wrote about this here https://43tags.livejournal.com/139900.html

18. Describe 5 things you want to see or do before it’s too late.

1) live in this specific house (even if it's just as a guest for a couple weeks).  For ( Read more... )

for me to be angry at my dad

simply, because I am just way too much like him and I spend way too much energy trying NOT to be, trying to be a legit person and not making his asinine mistakes (because they suck for other ppl but also for him, too, honestly)

so I just have epic understanding of the struggle

i was going to ignore him because of the ( Read more... )

because YouTube

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my parents split up when I was 2 or 3 but when he was stationed way South (possibly so as to keep a patina of respectability) he talked my mom into us living together again, in a remote outpost near Antarctica

it was very much a disaster. At one pt my mom OD's on sleeping pills and had to go to the ER (not intentional, so we're ( Read more... )