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wow
just read an entry from one of my new 'friends' from add me the jist of which was ' for all you people who keep writing in your journal about being depressed and complaining about things *rather than JUST MAKING THEM BETTER magically because i used to be depressed and post stuff like that but i dragged myself up by my bootstraps and so can you no ( Read more... ) -
uncaged brain
i'm sitting here, as often happens after one of these interpersonal nightmares, feeling like a bomb has gone off in my head and my skull has blown out, leaving my brain just kind of floating out of my head. lingering fear and foreboding. no pain, just a kind of hopeless confused nothing i can do feeling mixed with guilt ( Read more... ) -
advice *PLEASE* from anyone at all?
apparently i am a bitch for not wanting my bf's other ex around all the time as well. her words ' your bitch of a girlfriend. i'm never coming back.' she was supposed to be here 2 days, fine. then she got herself too drunk to drive yest morning and i was supposed to be ok with another night. i really wasn't. had discussion with bf, which she ( Read more... ) -
getting too angry
about exes.want my own friends.on okcupid but i think there 'friends' translates to 'fuck buddy'
don't wanna. does anyone go on there just for friends really or is that BS?
very discouraged and feel like crap -
NEWNESS
its been awhile since i've written on here. stuff happened, mainly Abilify. i've been racing manically through quilts, floorcloths, and etc for house. seems house is coming, barring nuclear holocaust or such. (one never knows.)
told work. now they're only giving me fill-ins, so money is tight. however, when there was money i stocked up on floorcloth ( Read more... ) -
then
my 'friend' rob came home and started screaming about there being a lawnmower in the living room. yes.i've been wasting all my time off trying to get YOUR yard cleaned up for you and i dragged the lawnmower up to see if i could get that to work- it didn't
i was a bit tired- so i didn't drag it back down immediately. stupid me, i thought i was being ( Read more... ) -
in the end
its the little things that kill you. have major depression, ok with that.sketchy boyfriend, ok with that. no money, ok with that. constantly lonely, ok with that.
weedwhacker won't work? AAAAAAAAUUUUGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!
it ran out of string. looked for string in stores. none. started last fall, this looking. gave up. winter came so its ok. spring ( Read more... ) -
Hey Sean
Walking away
You were walking away for ever
No more to say
End of heart's endeavour
Bitter the wind on the back of my neck
Bitter the glance that you threw me
Bitter the wave on the knuckle of rock
Time and tide will cover
Fear and beauty shake my heart
Memories pursue me
Not to let them break my heart (too late)
I let the wave roll through me
SEE THESE THINGS ( Read more... ) -
bad mood
ok went over there yesterday. found out i'm much.much more angry about the house bait and switch than i thought i was. that you really want to lash out and hurt them back but you don't
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my job
has been the best part of life lately. how creepy is that? i help old people wipe themselves in the bathroom (among other things but thats a big one)- ok, got to find some joy here real fast ( Read more... )