In less than 30 minutes the West Coast will catch up with most of the rest of the world. And I'm sitting here, messing with 2 computers, just changed the tv to the Times Square broadcast, with a Sunkist. My heart has dropped into the pit of my stomach, 'cause one of the celebs giving an appearance is Katy Perry, the singer of the song me and my ex ( Read more... )

Less than a day to the new year. I'll be sleeping, probably. No one special to enjoy some crazy party with. No one to kiss when the clock strikes midnight. Or maybe I'll just be sitting right here, watching TV with the only girl who loves me, my precious kitty. Which reminds me. The day I will die will be that of my cat. She's probably got about a ( Read more... )

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I fucked up the best thing that ever happened to me. I've lost her for good. But I can't take this much punishment. My brain won't let me forget. Just keeps showing me everything I did wrong, and imagining just what all her and the girl she fell in love with have already done. Kissing the girl I still love. Spending time with her. Sex? Loving her. ( Read more... )

The fewer people I know, the fewer people I'll hurt. I don't deserve to have friends. I'm fucked up. I do horrible things. I hurt people. I should just stay away from the people I care about so I don't hurt them any more. I'm not worthy of love. My last girlfriend proved that to me. I've always been an outcast. People only like me 'cause I'm a ( Read more... )

I hate the world and the world hates me.

Maybe it's time to push everyone away. The fewer people I know, the less people I'll hurt, and the fewer who can hurt me.

I wish I were never born. It would have been best for everyone.

I'm fucked up in the head. The meds don't help. I'm just not a happy person. I should just be shot and put out of my

She lies.

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I hate myself so much. I'm an evil plotting cuntrag bitch with lots of problems. I play games and fuck with peoples heads when I don't get what I want. I'm mean. I say mean things. I fuck things up. I'm fucked up. I'm definitely fucked up in the head. My heart is broken beyond repair. I hate myself. I'm up to smoking 3 packs a day. I just took two ( Read more... )

Hah. I'm still up. Been busy. But now I can barely keep my eyes open, so this time I'm really gonna go to sleep.