I am of the opinion that life is always an aim for some distant target. The cruel joke is that once you reach the target, you become bored and then want to find another target. And this goes on and on until you die. And the biggest targets are the things you can't have. And those things I become obsessed with, like some 5 year old who can't go ( Read more... )

right now modified music has some of my cd's in there, it's only going to sell for 4.95 each because it has only 6 songs on it. Also, gray whale agreed to sell my cd too, and that will happen in a few days. this is awesome, I am getting out there. Modified and gray whale agreed to also play my music in the store to attract buyers.

I need to get over other people's beliefs. I have to work on that shit. Usually I am more tolernat, but unfortunately I was in a really horibble mood because of things that happened today and because I am dead tired. I am an asshole, and I am miserable and mean to people I care about. I got into an argument with a girl earlier, but it's because ( Read more... )

I got in the biggest fight I think I ever have with my dad. But in the end, he was right. He thought I didn't appreciate what they both do for me, they don't show and graditude and love towards them. In a way it is true, but I think I am so used to living with my parents that I just don't notice how uncaring I might seem. I know I mooch off of ( Read more... )

Did you ever wonder what it would be like to fart inside of another fart? Like somehow, the smaller molecules of your own fart enter unseen into the molecules of the bigger fart, and go unnoticed and yet leave a smell hitherto? It would always be undiscovered if that fart was part of the bigger fart, as a small and distinct fart, or another fart ( Read more... )

wow, I looked at the latest slug, and found my ralp demo in the reviews section....it's a good review too. man, i am so excited about that. On my myspace page I shall post a pic of the page I scanned form the magazine...you'll probably have to use windows fax and viewer and magnify it to see the review though. But wow, this is fantastic!

lately I notice that I focus on small things, or become obesessed with particular things for a while, then get bored, then move onto another thing. I always have been that way, but moreso lately. I have been spending hours each day adding new music to my ipod nano, just hours and hours, scouring my collection and memory for any music I can think ( Read more... )

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I don't want to live anymore, yet I cannot die because that would hurt everyone I love too much. So I simply must go on living. I despise everything.

Just to let you know, readers, there is no real need for me to post any journals on livejournal anymore, now I mostly post them on the Myspace blog on my page, so if any of you wanna read about me, check my page out or subscribe to my blog.