well this weekend was pretty cool i guess. it could have been better but ill settle for haveing gotten out of here for the weekend. so the drive up there was horrible. we had stopped in peddleton to put gas and i went to the pottie and while i was in there i decided to arrange my money. well i forgot my wallet in the stall!! so we get past waco and ( Read more... )

ok so i am trying to get up the conversation that would take place when i ask for my raise. see thats what i do i think of everything he can say and i have a rebuttle for everything. thats always how i do things that have some kind of importance. and today i had the perfect oppurtunity to do it and bring it up, but of course as fate would have it i ( Read more... )

im starting to hate my job. im seriously getting fed up with this old man and him getting after me for every little thing that he fucks up on. he doesn't even pay me enough for this shit thats for sure. i dont really know if a raise would do much for me. but i do know that i am reaching my limit and i'm going to just expload one of these days. i ( Read more... )

i hate this shit i really do and i am fucking tired of it. i didn't do shit and he gives me additude. fuck that shit man. i have had it and i dont know what to do. he makes me miserable and i dont know how fucking much more of this i can take. i really dont. he just pisses me off. im so fucking emotionally tired of acting like everything is ok when ( Read more... )

well this is the worst time of the month for me... the dreaded day has arrived and i am a mess. i've gotten rather good at concieling what i am feeling. few can see through my armor. but i hate this day. i need beer today. thats a definet! i feel like shit i dont want to work today i'd rather be home asleep. pretending that today isn't today. that ( Read more... )

well i can't help but think about him. its really weird cuz every month at the same time something happens that just reminds me of him and when i realize what the date is... it sends me in a spin. i think about him and i can't believe that he is gone. i can't. i had lunch with him... that friday i did. he seemed sick but it wasn't anything like out ( Read more... )

i dreamt about him again last night. i dont know where to go with this. the dream felt like it was real. i just want it to be real. i want him, i love him, i always have and i probably always will. i woke up depressed as shit just like i always do when i find out it was just a dream. i hate it. i want to leave and find some happiness somewhere. ( Read more... )

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i am just so mad right now i could punch through a wall. here at work we have insurances that we pay through an agency for "convienience". yeah well the fucking bitch that handles our insurances has, since day one, talked to me like i am a moron who doesn't know what the fuck she is doing. me. ok so i take it. well today im trying to figure out ( Read more... )

well i was so relieved!!! i thought that i was going to be at home last night but my friend showed up with beer and saved me from lonliness for one night. it felt great to drink and just hang out. well as i expected my husband didn't do shit. nothing. not even a happy v-day. nothing. how depressing is that seriously. i dont know why i set myself up ( Read more... )