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Beams
Ok....so I heard this song on CP24 breakfast and the guy was a hippy: The wrold is full of kind beams.....WTF? No its not. And sure enough, I had a nervous breakdown at work and was in the bathroom crying for half an hour. How friggin annoying. :( It has been building up for quite some time and BOOM...got set off by my boss. Oops. I suck in ( Read more... ) -
Lonliness
So, I guess since I know there is a difference between alone and lonely, I wont drone on about it. I don't know why but I was struck suddenly with such a despair yesterday that I could not explain. And I hate myself it because I know it is dumb but alas, my brain does not yield to silence except in sleep. I believe that were I not socialized to ( Read more... ) -
Meow!
I was up so late last night moving snow....man does it ever snow in Stouffville!!! :) I am cat sitting and all is going well with them! I can NEVER get enough cats! -
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
I am so mad at one of my people. She is suggesting that if I wear colour I will be happier.....really?! This upsets me on so many levels! First off the stereotype that all of us who wear black are depressed. Not so. I MAY fit the stereotype but there is no need to go pink on me. Second, I tried all that shit a LONG time ago and it did not work so ( Read more... ) -
WTF!?!
Today I got up and felt fat. I also feel off. The off feeling caused me to burst into tears on the walk to work. :( WTF! On a better note I am practically wearing pjs to work today cuz I am tired of being the only one here on fridays. Yai me! Not like I have the oomph to get a better job. What is wrong with me? All this therapy that is taking up ( Read more... ) -
Blah
Ok, so now I am on a different pill at a higher dose in hopes that the random attacks of sad don't get me like they did on this last one. Hmmm....I dunno if I feel like I am running out of options here. I go to my therapy and come out feeling a bit better but it doesn't last. I am such a great actress too. People assume I am ok. Well, not so much. ( Read more... ) -
What is Happening?
Ok so I woke up yesterday and was completely EXHAUSTED, having had bad dreams mixed with waking up a hundred times and sweating etc. Not cool. Then today I was tired and sweaty again. But for the last ten years I have always covered my arms naturally. It is an instinct due to my circumstances. But today, I came into work with a short sleeve dress ( Read more... ) -
Meh
So therapy is taking up the greater part of my life right now. I have 4 differen things going ( Read more... )