uglyfatty1

Lets be honest

uglyfatty1 Dec 30, 2008 15:09

Here I am again. Huge. "recovered". I go back and forth all the time about restricting or not restricting or saying to myself "would you REALLY be happy if you stopped eating again". Recently my husband has begun talking about a new girl at his office that he just hired. He says that he thinks she's anorexic. He said her fingers are bony and thin ( Read more... )

food, eating disorder anorexia anorexic bulemi, ed

Hi all

uglyfatty1 Aug 21, 2007 12:02

I noticed my last post was 86 weeks ago! wow. I guess thats when I was tricked into eating. anyway I am really heavy again and need some help. This time it is for a very important reason. I AM GETTING MARRIED IN 26 DAYS! I can't be a chunk bride, I just can't. I think I am going to go on the american heart associations soup diet. That has ( Read more... )

eating like a normal human being.

uglyfatty1 Dec 22, 2005 12:09

Hello friends ( Read more... )

no purging!

uglyfatty1 Nov 10, 2005 22:21

One good news though guys I haven't purged since my last entry! (not the other one from today but the one before that) That is so good. I am really proud about that, and of course it truly does make the desire to do it less the longer you are able to abstain from it. I am worried about weight gain, but I am just keeping tabs on my restriction.

Where is the hope for mental illness?

uglyfatty1 Nov 10, 2005 22:04

Hey guys I'm so sorry I've once again been away for a while. I'm turning out to be a bad lj friend. I just got really depressed AGAIN back down into the pit. Having trouble getting out. Freaked out in therapy today having a full out panic/ cry fest picking the shit out of myself the last 3 days. My therapist is trying the EMDR therapy with me to ( Read more... )

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uglyfatty1 Oct 31, 2005 13:21

I'm worried about my health. The thing is I am not even close to being underweight at 130, but I will admit this looks quite thin on me, although my legs are still someone fatty. All the restricting and purging, my teeth everything. I am scared I'll have a seisuze. I'm scared I'll never sing again. My throat is sore, my voice is deeper and ( Read more... )

dental stuff, stress at school

uglyfatty1 Oct 25, 2005 14:31

question to throw out there, although I am a big bio person, I don't know too much about teeth (the basics yes), but I wanted to know if I really take care of my teeth and I b/p (once a day on average sometimes more sometimes less), what are my chances that I will do BIG damage to my teeth? I have been worried about it lately then the other night ( Read more... )

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uglyfatty1 Oct 23, 2005 23:16

hello friends ( Read more... )

sorry for mia was depressed

uglyfatty1 Oct 16, 2005 21:41

ok well long story short I had invited people from grad school class (via email) to my bday outing downtown one said she'd let me know if she could make it then didn't hear from her. then another girl said she'd come. I was high high anxiety that day. I considered calling her and telling her it was canceled because I didn't feel well mostly bc I ( Read more... )

hate myself

uglyfatty1 Oct 08, 2005 00:18

I don't have much to say. I haven't writen a lot lately cause I am really depressed. I purged 3 times today, and one time was in a public bathroom with stalls... no one was in there, but I can't believe I took that chance. whatever I don't have much to say, I've been depressed. apparantly after 7 years of secrecy I have finally officially bee ( Read more... )