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Ok so I bitch at him one day, two days later he IMs me and wants to be friends. WTF IS THAT? Obviously I dont really want to be. Whatever. Fuck it ( Read more... )

Hes got a new fucking girlfriend. So the whole time he was getting mad at me for being jealous I had a reason to be pissed. I have a radar for those things. No wonder I got those bad feelings. Im not FUCKING STUPID YOU FUCKING PRICK! Apparently to him Im a sick bitch. Why, because Im not afraid to tell you what I think about you and youre friends ( Read more... )

I totally just told him how much I hate him and how shallow and self centered he is. So naive and immature, I hope he can grow up and get over himself. Im tired of being the nice girl that get walked all over. So now Im being the bitch that he was begging me to be, I think Ive realized that I didnt love him, I just hated him so much I didnt know ( Read more... )

I really dont know why I cant just let the tears run down my face, I hide behide the bottles and the people, but deep inside I know I still want you. why cant I just forget you ( Read more... )

Finally, I think i had to actually get mad in order to feel better.. READ ITTTTT!!!!!
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I dont know what Im feeling right now. I havent cried in 2 days so thats an achievment. *knocks on wood* I really wish I could spend Thursday with him and have it just be normal and nice. No sex, just hanging out. I just know that if we were to hang out Id go for more because it makes me feel loved. In a guys mind sex doesnt equal love. It just ( Read more... )

Feeling empty and hopeless. The lonliness is pushed aside but then creeps up when I least expect it. I know I have so many more people that care about me but it still ends up hurting and then I cry. I dont want to feel like this anymore. This needs to stop. So Im stopping. Heres a song ( Read more... )

Its weird that Im happy right now. Before I was sad and angry. now I kinda dont care. Hes coming over tomight to watch the OC with me. We arent going out anymore. Just friends. I really wanted things to work but Im not going to push it. If its meant to happen then it will. I just need space and so does he. I need to spend time with my friends again ( Read more... )

*sigh* Asking me to prom and then canceling and going with someone else because her date cant go, ISNT ok. Is it really your job or obligation to be her back up. You asked me and then werent willing to go as friends but youre willing to go with her. Im so pissed off. Everyone who has seen the conversation has said the same thing. Lets post the ( Read more... )