I haven't cut since March, but I continue to think about it a lot and have impulses and such. When I saw my psychiatrist (I have bipolar type 2) on Thursday, I asked him if there was anything we could do so I don't think about cutting myself all the time. He suggested that the cutting was more of an OCD thing for me (in part because I didn't ( Read more... )

 Does anyone else find the holidays extremely hard to deal with??  Or is it just me?

That's how my body feels right now - like i'm buzzing, like there's electricity on my skin.  my nerves feel completely frazzled.  I'm running on very little sleep - mostly due to work, but partly because when I sleep lately i'm having heart-pounding nightmares.  I had been doing so well...  I got through the Thanksgiving Holiday without the blues ( Read more... )

 I made a new journal. Wanna be added its 
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I have been self harming since about 20 or 21. I was a late bloomer. I am now 35. I was mostly stopped for quite awhile, of course I was drinking then too. I have had a resurgence of urges and actually doing the SI. I really want this to finally be over. I am afraid it won't ever completely go away. Hopefully I can find some people who can ( Read more... )

Hi all. I've never posted here before, but I've watched the community for some time now. Here's my story...

( Random babble, possibly triggering? )

How do you tell someone that you desperately need to hang out with them so you don't hurt yourself? I helped clean a friend's apartment cuz I was feeling like I just needed to be around someone and she didn't understand how it was 'therapeutic' for me. It was hard to explain without just blurting out that if I was left by myself with my mind ( Read more... )

 
I don't know how much longer I can hang on.  I've been a while now without hurting myself, but the urge is coming back so strong.  I feel like every time I gain some ground, everything falls even further down.  I have recently found out what the main people in my life really thinks about me - and it wasn't pretty.  The sad thing is, the things ( Read more... )

tonight was the first time in a few months. i started to freak out (inside) at work and i knew it was going to go two ways: screaming and crying going absolutely ape or taking a pause for the cause. so i chose the latter. i work in a coffee shop so there's razors available always, but this is the first time i've actually given in to the temptation ( Read more... )

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