( wherein I ramble about stuff more depression related than si related really )

It's been so quiet around here - where is everyone?  I hope that means everyone is doing well.  I've been hanging in there but I can feel myself sliding.  The latest is - I found out I'm pregnant.  It was a shock because we had medical intervention to be able to have my first child 2 years ago and the doctor told me I couldn't get pregnant again.  ( Read more... )

( under here just in case )

I had one of those 'accidents' that's not really an accident on Tues. and Weds this week. My dad is my alltime biggest trigger and that man just loves to start shit ( Read more... )

I was / am just sitting watching the Red Sox game, and reading a book during the commercials. I started chewing on my finger nails, and the soft corners of my hands. Realized what I was doing and stopped ( Read more... )

I don't think i am going to make it to 4 months 3 days.  The need is overwhelming, the feelings intoxicating ( Read more... )

i think its the summer heat,making er'one a bit crazy.My fam. is stressing me out,so is work,and the number one cause of my stress and anxiety is my girl-friend. I've been really good,i haven't cut for like 3 months but all the problems we've been having lately.............is fo surely bringing me down. She took off for 3 days,jus cuz she felt like ( Read more... )

Hi.
Sorry, I dont know if this is ok - I just need somewhere to vent a little and thought you guys might understand.
Just ignore me or delete if its not ok.

Does anyone else find it ironically bemmusing to be constantly doing lj-cuts to save other people from having to see your thoughts if they dont want to?
Sorry, thats just random.
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I'm sorry to be here so often- it always helps... I always mean to reply to comments too... But I only just have time to read them most of the time. I'm going crazy today ( Read more... )

That's how long it has been since i last took the blade to my skin.  Right now, i sit here in bed, it's the only thing i want.  I am tired of feeling so scared, i can't shake away these feelings of doom.  I feel like something bad is about to happen to me.  These memories from so long ago -- they plague me.  I HATE IT!!! PLEASE MAKE THEM GO AWAY ( Read more... )