Just a quick note to mention that I finally got my old hard drive data back and got Semagic working on my system. It's been a hellacious last few weeks, and I plan to post more soon. At least for now, though, some progress's been made. The last big chunk of Ariel's stuff's been donated to charity. Just a couple pieces of furniture and some odds ( Read more... )

I haven't posted much here of late.  Part of that's cause the hard drive on which I'd had Semagic running died on me.  As a result, I haven't been able to do posts that I could save on my hard drive, which has been my prerference for quite some time.  I'd tried to get it fixed, including taking it to a couple  IT friends of mine, with no such luck ( Read more... )

Well, I made it through my first birthday without Ariel in 15 years.  Overall it went pretty well. I started the day with something for Memorial Day I'd heard from a lady at the support group I attended last Wednesday.  I went to the store, got a helium balloon, wrote some things to Ariel on it, and let it go into the sky.  I like that ( Read more... )

I'm a lucky guy. I've got friends who were willing to go through the stuff that was left and set aside, sort it out, price it, and come and run a garage sale yesterday. Even more, they were cool with it that I wasn't up for being here for the sale to take place. I'd started stressing out about it Friday evening, knowing it was coming up. It was ( Read more... )

For those who're feeling life's not worth it anymore and that it's time to check out, I've got a few thoughts for you ( Read more... )

It was three months by the calendar that the police came to the house to tell me Ariel was found dead in that hotel room. It was 12 weeks ago last Friday. How the Hell has 3 months gone by? I don't know what to think or believe about that ( Read more... )

I wandered through the house on the way to the computer. I notice empty spaces where things used to be, mostly Ariel's but some of the mine, too. It's a bizarre, surreal expereince seeing parts of the life you thought you had falling away and not knowing what will replace them....when or if. The massage table she'd gotten when she was looking at ( Read more... )

I got ahold of Ariel's ex today. I'd had a pretty good idea of who he was and how to get ahold of him, but for various reasons had been putting it off. This morning, I finally sent out an e-mail to his work, wanting to know if he's the guy I thought and asking him to respond. Much to my surprise, I had a response back within a few hours. I ( Read more... )

This has been an exhuasting week. Got a lot of stuff done, but Lord a'mightly it's taken its toll. The easiest was probably getting Ariel's car sold. I'd been stressing about doing it myself, getting it listed in the local paper/TV station want ads, getting it re-registered so it could be taken for a test drive (which'd also mean getting it ( Read more... )

Today would've been 15 years that Ariel and I would've been together if she hadn't killed herself back in February. It seemed like a fitting day to dispose of a couple of things. One was part of a loaf of bread. For our 10-year wedding anniversary, one of the things we did was bake a loaf of bread. Doesn't sound like much, right? Well, most of ( Read more... )