I hate the Japanese government, and fisherman ... on the news, watching them kill the whales ... it almost brings me to tears. I can't stand to keep on listening to the news. I hate them. I can't stand it ... it's horrible ...

And I've got my fucking period. Creator of the universe: what did i do? What the FUCK did I do?????

I have been doing negative calories the past two days - as in, I work off more than I consume. And for about four days before that I've gone to the gym for around two hours each day, and using those lovely little things known as laxatives for everything else I've eaten. My insides, and I can fuck them p if I do so desire. I haven't thrown up in ( Read more... )

Idontknowidontknowidontknow ( Read more... )

I feel ... I feel. I'm not going to say a word of it. Speak a single syllable. Two of my beautiful kitens are gone and I miss them. So does their mummy; my cat. I'm holidaying to Tasmania tomorrow and then ... and then ... moving sometime. And I've been wanting ... needing to cut so much lately. Ready to remake the excuses. Wear more bracelets. ( Read more... )

It's 6am. I have been awake since 1am. I went to bed at about 8pm, and didn't get to sleep until around 10 or 11pm. I feel sick. My stomach is rumbling; not that it bothers me, but I have a headache from lack of sleep and that does bother me. Sun doesn't rise for an hour and a half, twilight not for another hour. I need to leave at about 7ish to ( Read more... )

I'm taking my brother out for "dinner" this afternoon - although, of course, I won't eat. He won't notice. He knows I'm fat. He came second top in class for some aptitude test, which he thought he would fail because "we were meant to have calculators but I forgot mine". This is a kid who has been expelled from six schools for violence. Who smokes ( Read more... )

March 05; She is beauty ( Read more... )

Long time. A new blog; http://fuckedupnomad.blogspot.comRead more... )

I just want everything to go away. Not die - that would be subject to interpretation, to pain, to judgement, to embarassment, to admitting, to denial, to living ... and I don't want to live - I just don't want to exist. Maybe I don't. Who knows. I have a runny nose and I'm cold again but I'm still ... I'm still an elephant but not as ... beautiful ( Read more... )