for some reason i started thinking about Mad Libs.i used to love those when i was a kid.for anyone who doesnt know,the first page is a list that asks for a noun,plural verb,adverbs,etc.then that list is used to fill in the blanks for a short story that is on the next page ( Read more... )

Remember I wrote this when i was strung out!!! im keeping the spelling mistakes,im copying it exactly as is from my old notebook ( Read more... )

last night i went through the last of my boxes that i had stored up in my stepfathers attic since july 2001 when pete and i got kicked out of our apartment and lived in the caddy in philly.all the boxes so far have had empty bags and needle wrappers in them.we were strung out and being kicked out of our apartment for not paying rent for 5 months.we ( Read more... )

we took nate to his 2 year well visit.i was surprised that he only weighs 25 lbs...he feels so much heavier!he is still in the 20th percentile for weight(he's very skinny)but since its always been that way.his height is evening out he is average height now,he used to be 95th percentile ( Read more... )

finally things are back to normal around here.pete is back to normal.i swear it was like he was pms-ing.it lasted a week just like my pms does.its all good,though.i posted in the 2 new jersey communities im in to try to find other stay at home moms to do daytime stuff with like going to the playground ( Read more... )

its been hectic lately.i had nate's 2nd birthday party and my stepfather's grandsons 2nd birthday also.ive been getting depressed again,part of it is that i think my medicene isn't working anymore and the other part is Pete ( Read more... )

i am very worried for leah right now.her husband has been clean of heroin for 7 years now.i probably mentioned before that he has been taking oxys for a few months now which is technicly relapsing on opiates.i think he might be on morphine now or possibly back on the heroin.she told me he has been scratching himself abnormally.all over his entire ( Read more... )

this is a poem about my second overdose which i even dated....3/30/2001...its terrible.its more like a spoken word thing than a poem.i would feel like a jackass standing before an audience and reading this ( Read more... )

i was reading my story entry.that chapter is so short.i think i will call it a scene rather than a chapter.at least i won't have to use an lj cut with this story...

Nightfall transforms the cityscape into an alternate dimension.The ugliest decaying sections of the city become mysterious,beautiful mirages.The blinking crimson,pink,yellow and blue lights of a chinese restaurant sign and windows turn a dank,desolate alleyway into a hidden paradise,a rainbow of color as the neon reflects on puddles and dumpsters ( Read more... )