Addictive Obsession - Chapter thirteen [PART I]
Title: Addictive obsession
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~ And now his facebook and OMG, youtube account!!
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
A/N: Sorry for being late, but I think the next chapters will also be a little late because of the holidays <3 This is our present from Santa and with which we wish you a 'Merry Christmas!' and a 'Happy New Year!'
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Chapter thirteen
The thirteenth scent ~ Body
Sometimes, we’re confused. So confused that we don’t know what to do anymore and it clouds our judgment when we try to do the right thing. Too many feelings, too many emotions that we can’t separate anymore and we start to confuse one with an other, acting how we think it’s right only to find out how wrong we were. We can feel angry when actually we should be relieved; we are upset when we should be happy; we are accusing when in fact we should be loving and protecting.
It isn’t our fault, such mistakes can happen to anyone.
The question is if we’ll be able to see the difference in the end.
They nailed a cab and Kazuya didn’t say anything when Jin told the driver his own address, choosing on keeping quiet for the moment. The older one seemed to share his thoughts and fell silent for the rest of the trip, except for some instructions as they got nearer to his apartment. He paid the driver and got out the car along with Kazuya, still keeping the silence until they got to his house and went inside. Jin locked the door behind him and, without saying anything, he headed to the kitchen, leaving Kazuya all by himself to follow or to do whatever he wanted.
The younger made a face when Jin left him alone and he turned to the opposite direction, going straight for the living room. There he threw himself on the couch without turning on the lights and he stared at the dancing ones from the ceiling. The sound of the night flew in through the slightly opened windows and Kazuya was soon lulled by it into a well deserved sleep.
A sigh escaped Jin’s lips when he saw the boy like this, not expecting to find the younger in his living room but in his bedroom. He thought that now that they were getting along, it wouldn’t be too much to consider himself Kazuya’s lover and call the boy his boyfriend. It seemed normal to him to sleep together but Kazuya seemed to have other thoughts - and maybe their fight had also had a small part to play in this decision of Kazuya’s. The older one made his way into the room and crouched next to the younger, flicking his nose in a playful manner. “Come on, wake up.” He said with a warm voice. “Come to bed with me.” He added with what seemed to be a plea but even he wasn’t sure about it.
“I like it here.” Kazuya grunted and turned away from Jin, now facing the couch. He had woken the moment Jin had entered the room, like he had some kind of radar for the older one or something like that. He wasn’t sure why he was acting like this with Jin but somehow he felt like doing so. He wanted to be selfish, bitchy and Jin was there to take it for him.
Jin sighed again. “At least take the pill I brought to you.” He added, settling on the floor with his back on the couch and one leg spread in front of him, the other one bent up. “It will ease the hangover you’ll have in the morning.”
“I never take pills.” Kazuya said and after a pause he added - “Thanks though.”
“Yeah, right.” Jin snorted before he could stop himself. Still, he didn’t say anything more and just stared at the ceiling, his head propped on the couch, near Kazuya’s body. He closed his eyes, feeling a little tired and Kazuya wasn’t making things easy for him. He sighed for the third time in a row. It was a little uncomfortable position to be standing in such a weird position, but Jin had dealt with worse so he could take it now as a man, especially if it was for his lover. It was the only thing he could do now, seeing as Kazuya wasn’t willing to talk to him. Maybe he would give in to Jin’s stubbornness in the end and he’ll realize that he had to talk to him because the older one wasn’t moving anywhere from there. His lips curled up into a tiny smile. Kazuya was as stubborn as him sometimes, but Jin was left with no other solution than to wait for the younger. Forcing hadn’t worked out. Maybe patience will.
The question was how long could he keep it.
“Yeah…” Kazuya mumbled after some time, thinking about the time when he had been in hospital and everyone forced him to take some fucking pills like those would’ve cured him. “I don’t take medicinal pills for a few years already.” He found himself saying, though without a particular reason. “Whether I have a cold or hangover, I’ll deal with it the natural way… no pills, no nothing.” He continued, the bitterness in his voice only half hidden. “So, don’t take it personally when I refused the pill you brought me.” Well, Kazuya was trying to say sorry or at least to show that his moodiness had passed.
“Why?” Jin whispered his question, like he didn’t want to scare Kazuya and push him away if he was insisting too much. He wanted to find out more about the younger and he had expressed his whish to do so, but… Kazuya never seemed to be keen on fulfilling it. Until now.
“Hospital and then rehab.” Kazuya replied with a small voice. “I was in there for a year, that’s why I got sick of taking pills. Never took since I went out.” He continued, turning once more to look at the ceiling and the dancing lights on it.
Jin bit his lower lip, wondering if it was okay to go on and he wasn’t intruding too much on the younger’s life for the moment. He gulped and opened his eyes when he felt Kazuya moving, fixing his gaze on the ceiling as the boy did, after glancing at him. “Rehab for what?” he finally asked, expecting all sorts of answers. After all, he wasn’t that unknowing of Kazuya’s real face.
“Overdose of amphetamine.” Kazuya answered casually like this happened to everyone. “I got addicted to it and I couldn’t get away from it. So rehab was necessary.” He didn’t know why he was telling Jin all this, but it was night, it was chilly, he was feeling numb and nothing mattered.
Jin swallowed a gulp and nodded his head, even if Kazuya couldn’t see him. He was starting to understand the younger a little more now, but a lot of holes still existed in his knowledge about him and Jin wanted to fill them completely. “So why did you start taking drugs?” he said, trying to appear as casual as Kazuya sounded but he knew that it wasn’t working so well for him.
Kazuya laughed hollowly. “Out of mistake. After the amphetamine problem, I did my research and chose the weakest drugs so that I wouldn’t get myself addicted. Slowly, I began to take stronger ones and I kinda need them every two weeks. But there are moments that I can’t handle so I overdose it a little.” The younger answered, thinking of all his experiments with the drugs up until then. It was funny now that he was looking back.
Jin wanted to laugh too because it was the typical story of drugs addicts. They always start with something apparently harmless, thinking that they’ll stop immediately. Soon, they lose their effect and they begin to search for much stronger ones, to need them more than they need to live. He had seen it happen a lot of times and he had been the one to instigate it. Come on, it doesn’t hurt you to try. He had said this line for a million times but he never would have guessed that he will fall in love with one of them. He briefly wondered who was the one who got Kazuya in this mess in the first place, but decided that it was better to not ask. It wouldn’t do any good to neither of them. Still, there was a question that he needed to voice out. Slowly, he turned to look at Kazuya but he didn’t move from his spot and kept his distance.
“And when are those moments?” Jin asked, his voice trembling a little. Is it… he wanted to say more, but he was afraid of the answer. Because if Kazuya would say ‘yes’, Jin would destroy his life completely. And he wouldn’t care in the end. “Is it because of me?” he more whispered the words, but loud enough to be heard and low enough to be misunderstood.
“Don’t flatter yourself, Jin.” Kazuya snorted somewhat amused. “I have my own issues, you’re not even in the top three of them.” He laughed, thinking that until now he had thought of Jin being a real big problem, but coming face to face with his past, Jin had indeed fallen to a lower place in his top of worries.
“Oh.” Jin said, feeling relief sweeping over him. He then chuckled, feeling like a heavy weight had been lifted off his chest and now he could finally breathe freely. He got a little closer to Kazuya, feeling how his confidence was slowly coming back and rebuilding itself, giving him back the smirk and arrogant expression. “Then in what I’m top three?” he asked with a flirting tone, gazing at Kazuya’s face. He considered that it was enough for confession for a night and he felt satisfied to be now a little closer to Kazuya. They still had time.
Kazuya turned to watch Jin, carefully studying his frame. “Why do you ask?” he replied, tease and all. “Are you feeling unsure?”
“No, just to make sure.” Jin grinned as he raised himself to sit on his knees and look from above at Kazuya’s face, their breaths entwining and their lips almost touching. Jin’s eyes roamed to Kazuya’s brown orbs and then to his mouth, repeating the move for a couple of times before he showed one of his famous smirks. “Because I have a few ideas.” He added, his lips teasing Kazuya’s with a little touch as he spoke but only that.
“When you don’t have ideas?” Kazuya rolled his eyes, pretending to be annoyed. “Only your ideas got me in trouble until now…” he whined a little, pouting. He didn’t do anything to encourage Jin in his desire, Kazuya was simply making his cutest expressions ever, looking as innocently as he could.
“And I could think at more things I can get you in.” Jin replied with a perverted tone, licking Kazuya’s lips like a puppy and now concentrating his eyes on Kazuya’s to see his every expression. “Do you want me to share?”
The younger boy shifted a little, feeling a bit too warm to be comfortable. He smirked upon hearing Jin’s words and reading between the lines. He caught the licking tongue of the older one’s with his lips and pulled on it. His own tongue brushed over the tip of Jin’s tongue before backing away. “If I say no, will you care?” he asked on a playful tone.
“Well, then I won’t tell you and just show you.” Jin laughed, leaning down a little to catch Kazuya’s naughty lips into a kiss, nibbling at them slowly and gently, without rushing and without forcing. The smile was still plastered on his face and Jin closed his eyes, letting his right hand fall near Kazuya’s head, teasingly playing with his hair and brushing along his ear, while he brought his other hand to cup Kazuya’s left cheek and bring him closer and deepen the kiss just a little more. “Or you don’t like my ideas?” Jin asked, detaching himself from Kazuya just to start and trace kisses along his jaw.
“Mhm…” Kazuya made a sound, his eyes still closed. Then he opened them and smiled pervert like to Jin. “You’ll never know.” He answered and slipped his hand behind Jin’s nape, squeezing a little before bringing the older into a more passionate kiss, one that would make him burn and not sizzle. And Jin gladly answered, entangling their tongues into a game of dominance and passion. He raised himself from the floor but careful to not pause the kiss and lose Kazuya’s lips, settling on the couch, above the younger, and capturing his body between his legs and arms like in a cage. He closed his mouth when he caught Kazuya’s tongue and sucked it, moving his lips almost in slow-motion, teasingly and maddening, earning a low moan as Kazuya lifted his hands to Jin’s hair and pulled on it, making the older one groan in frustration and need.
Jin freed Kazuya’s lips and bit his chin, sinking his teeth into the flesh, hard enough to leave a small imprint, but still gentle to disappear quickly. He went lower and kissed Kazuya’s neck as much as he could because of the clothes which the younger was still wearing, letting his hand roam on his body, tugging on his waist and under his shirt. “And what can I do to make you tell me?” Jin laughed, barely now seeming to remember Kazuya’s last words.
The younger chuckled low seeing how little control Jin had over his desire and how his own body responded to the other one’s touches. He rolled his hips, brushing against Jin’s lower part and smirked when he heard a muffled groan. The younger let his hands wander on Jin’s back and slowly traveled to his ass, slipping them inside Jin’s jeans to grab onto his ass cheeks. He groped them while his body moved against Jin’s in search of more friction. “There’s nothing to tell but to show.” Kazuya whispered and licked Jin’s ear lob, inserting his tongue inside the small cavern, wetting and quickly warming it with a soft blow. “But I have an idea…” he moaned as their groins touched each other, the rough material between them being a nuisance, but also a pleasure to keep it longer. “Want to know it?” he whispered, chewing on Jin’s ear, licking, biting and soothing.
“Surprise me.” Jin almost whimpered, desperate for more touching and grinding and just for more of Kazuya. He let his right hand sneak under Kazuya’s shirt and go up, brushing his fingers over the younger’s nubs but not letting them linger too much, just some ghostly touches. His left hand went down and Jin grabbed Kazuya’s arousal through his jeans, feeling the boy how he immediately leaned into his touch, swallowing a gasp and burying his nails into Jin’s ass cheeks, the older grunting because of the pain and pleasure induced. Jin’s hand didn’t linger too much on that spot either and his fingers were now working on Kazuya’s jeans, trying to open them while his lips found the boy’s into another kiss, more lustful and much needier.
The younger smirked in the kiss, wondering how Jin will react upon hearing his sudden idea. And there was Jin’s hand fumbling with his pants, touching him unceasingly and making him harder and harder. Oh, it felt good and Kazuya wanted all the more to spill his idea to Jin. So he broke the kiss, looked into Jin’s eyes with a fervent passion as his hands held tightly the other’s ass cheeks and trapped his hand between their bodies, moving up and down slow, very slow. “Let’s get high.” He breathed the words, pushing his lower part into Jin and making him feel everything, including the most burning place of his body. Kazuya bit on his lower lip and closed his eyes as Jin’s hand clutched around his manhood. “Please…” he whispered as he opened his eyes and lifted his head a little to let his tongue travel from Jin’s jaw down his neck.
A flicker of surprise appeared in Jin’s eyes as Kazuya’s words registered in his mind. It was the last thing Jin thought at, but, then again, it shouldn’t have been that surprising considering the fact that Kazuya was addicted to drugs. For a moment, Jin wanted to say no, thinking that the boy wasn’t in the best state to lose his mind even more after his earlier breakdown, but exactly when Jin opened his mouth to say something else than a moan, Kazuya moved his hands and brushed his finger’s over Jin’s rear and Jin fell deep into the trap of lust that Kazuya had set up and lost every hint of responsibility.
He forced himself to put one foot on the floor and smirked at his lover, retracting his hand from Kazuya’s crotch and grabbing the younger’s hands from his ass to lock them into his hands. He smirked and clashed his lips over Kazuya’s into a more forceful and demanding kiss, ravishing his lips and exploring his mouth into its deepness until nothing remained but their breaths entwined. Jin stopped suddenly and blew a puff of air into Kazuya’s mouth, smiling perversely after and raising himself from the couch with the boy in his arms.
“Then you’ll have to do one thing I say too, right?” he stated more than asked, already starting to move with the younger one towards his bedroom. He was already hard enough, but he could still wait. If that meant that he’ll have Kazuya as he liked, then it would be worth it, Jin decided.
Kazuya let himself be carried like a princess, settling even better in Jin’s arms and not quite still. His hands kept playing in Jin’s hair, pulling when gently when roughly. And his mouth was all over Jin’s neck, offering feathering kisses, light bits and soothing lickings. He moaned near Jin’s neck, nibbling at his ear and blowing some hot air. “And what is it that you want me to do?” he whispered, digging his nails in Jin’s nape.
Jin chose to ignore Kazuya for the moment as he opened the door to his bedroom with his foot and slammed it behind them. He just grinned and went to sit on the bed with Kazuya straddling his lap, as the older was now looking at him with a look that said how much lust and desire were hidden in his soul and how much he wanted Kazuya that moment. He didn’t touch the boy more than letting his hand rest on Kazuya’s waist while he used his right one to search into one drawer and snatch something from it. It wasn’t too difficult to know what he had retrieved from it, but Jin still hid the little pill from Kazuya and put it in his mouth, kissing the boy immediately after and giving the little drug to him only to take it back soon and repeating the move a few times, teasing Kazuya and feeling himself starting to get excited at the thought of getting high with his lover. He hadn’t done this in a long time and usually he did it only to test the new products, having more than enough of them when he was forced to deal with them.
Still, that didn’t mean that Jin didn’t like his job and to see people going crazy for only a little pill.
Kazuya pulled Jin towards him, ravishing his lips and forcing him to give that damned pill. It was too much of a tease the way Jin wanted to play and Kazuya wasn’t that inclined to do it this way. So he took Jin, claimed his lips and sucked his tongue, the pill dissolving slowly in their saliva. “More, Jin… it’s not enough.” He breathed against his lips, his eyes now a blur of passion and neediness.
Jin chuckled and put another pill into his mouth, this time letting Kazuya to take it without much of a fight. He kissed his lips another time, just a little peck and let his tongue and teeth trail on Kazuya’s jaw and cheek, reaching his ear and biting it softly, his hand now buried in the boy’s hair. “I’ll give you even more if you do something for me.” Jin whispered at his ear with a low voice.
The younger moaned and swallowed the pill while his arms were now around Jin, holding him dearly and wanting more closeness. He began to move his hips, thrusting back and forward into Jin’s lower part. “And what is it that you want?” he asked with a husky voice, closing his eyes, slowly letting the colors take over him. There was a deaf sound in the distance… fireworks had begun. Kazuya’s mouth went dry and he desperately searched for Jin’s. When their mouths met, there wasn’t gentleness or anything of the sort, just pure and raw desire, burning lust that carved deeply in both of their bodies - the ones that were now yearning to become one.
Jin smirked into the kiss and answered to Kazuya with the same passion, adding even more if it was possible. It was becoming painful to wait any more and Jin had to swallow a grunt of annoyance when he stopped the kiss and pushed Kazuya a little to look into his eyes. And he liked what he saw. The way Kazuya’s eyes seemed to dance and watch him with an unleashed desire, ready and waiting for the perfect moment to ravish Jin completely. His hair was messed up as Jin had taken care to ruffle it and now it made Kazuya look even more sensual. Jin had to bite his tongue in order to stop a grumble from escaping his lips when the younger one smirked and he felt his body in fire. He had no idea how he managed to control himself and his burning desire to open his mouth and actually sound coherent.
“I want you…” he started, his voice confident and his expression needy as he got closer again to Kazuya and inhaled his scent, letting his tongue roam on his neck. They were still both clothed but Jin didn’t mind it that much now, knowing that he would snap if Kazuya was already naked. “To…” he added, now tilting his head even more to bite on the silky skin, making Kazuya moan and Jin shiver because of how heavenly that sound seemed for his ears. “Dress in something special.” He finished his sentence with a perverted grin on his face, looking again at Kazuya and slowly nibbling on his lips, while his hands had already started to get rid of the boy’s jeans.
“You want me to cosplay for you?” Kazuya laughed and let his body fall back, held only by Jin’s arms and loving the way their groins kept on touching as he moved up and down. “A nurse? A maid? Or maybe a Playboy bunny?” he looked up at Jin his eyes sparkling. “Which is it that you want me to dress?” he lifted himself back and encircled Jin’s neck, his rasp breath caressing Jin’s lips. “Such weird fetishes you have, Mister.” He smirked and bit onto Jin’s lower lip until the metallic taste of blood filled his mouth. He licked the tiny drops that prickled the other’s chin and not at all gentle, he pushed Jin down on the bed. He gave a thrust and heard Jin groan as he put pressure on his hardened member, making him smirk insanely. “You sure you’re up to my cosplay?” Kazuya leaned forward and blew whispers over Jin’s chest covered by the material as his hands slipped between them to unbutton the jeans.
The distant fireworks were making their way closer.
“I’m definitely sure.” Jin smirked as he stretched on the bed and let himself be at the mercy of Kazuya. “I just need to imagine you in a dress and I’m already hard.” He continued, breathing a little heavy as Kazuya managed to unlock his jeans. “I’ll watch you as you come closer and lift your skirt a little to give me a better view of your legs.” He closed his eyes and bit his lower lip when Kazuya’s hand touched his erection, slowly, painfully, giving a girlish laugh to help Jin with his imagination. He hadn’t expected such a… cosplay. But, hey, Kazuya was ready for anything and in that moment he was pleasing Jin’s imagination.
“I’ll look at you like a wolf ready to devour you and you’ll feel so helpless under my gaze, naked and ready for me to take you.” Jin grinded his hips into Kazuya’s, yearning for more friction between their bodies and not allowing himself any. The boy parted his legs even more, pressed his pulsing member against Jin’s one and let out a soft sound, as his fingers entered in his mouth, sucking on them. “You’re so wet, Kazuya, under my fingers.” The older moaned, not being able to stop himself as his hands clenched on the sheets. At these words, the younger one lifted Jin’s shirt and slipped his fingers coaxed with saliva under it, playing on the burning skin of the older one, teasing his nipples and wetting them too.
“Your hole is pulsing against my fingers when I touch it. The dress makes you even sluttier, Kazuya…”
The younger chuckled and he leaned forward, his lips dancing on Jin’s bellybutton, his tongue violating it repeatedly only to leave it wet and red as he trailed a line down until it stopped above Jin’s throbbing member. “And what else makes me sluttier, Jin?” the younger whispered, blowing hot air over his manhood. “How my dress slips when I take you in my mouth?” Kazuya grabbed the boxers and pulled them slowly, his hand touching briefly the prideful shaft. “Or how my long hair tickles you as my lips graze along your length?” there was a pause and the boy looked up at Jin, innocent as he was - his lips parted, his face flushed and his eyes burning with malice and desire.
Oh… the first explosion reached within him, Kazuya thought as he felt his body engulfed in the warmth of the pill’s effect.
Jin opened his eyes, darkened by lust and desire, and looked into Kazuya’s brown orbs. He smirked and lifted himself, supporting his body on his elbows to come closer to the younger. “Come here.” He breathed, his voice deep and uncontrollable. He pushed Kazuya on the bed and just looked at him for a couple of seconds, before cupping his cheek with his left hand. And he smiled, leaning over Kazuya to kiss his lips as gently as he had done it earlier on the couch. His hand explored the boy’s body as Jin got rid of the shirt and jeans that were keeping him from fully touching Kazuya. Jin swallowed hard, letting his eyes roam over the body that always succeeded to make him lose his mind. His eyes met Kazuya’s once more, seeming able to pierce to the bottom of the younger one’s soul and decipher every secret that he was hiding. A weird glint was glowing in them and it made Jin look mysterious and dangerous. Too dangerous to not fall for him.
The older one raised himself from the bed once more, dragging Kazuya by his hand with him. Once they were standing on their own feet, Jin’s eyes seemed to observe Kazuya once more, like he wanted something more, like he wasn’t satisfied with just having the younger one’s body but more. More and more until he’ll know nothing but Kazuya.
“Search into my closet. The top drawer from the left.” Jin said, leaning over Kazuya to trap his lips into a sweet kiss once more. “I’ll be back in five.” Were the last words he said before he headed to the door with a promising smile and left the younger alone.
Kazuya stood for a few moments transfixed, not really getting what was happening. Here he was, with a hard on - let alone the idiot who had one too - and he was supposed to search for something in a drawer. If Kazuya had not been taking those pills, maybe he would have gotten angry, but this way… he started to laugh and practically floated to that drawer Jin had pointed to him. Humming, he searched for whatever Jin had and whistled when he found it. He took the costume out, jiggling those two big and rough-looking circles while he stared at them thoughtfully. Well, he won’t be using that and that, but the others seemed to him a must.
So, Kazuya took the black stockings and pulled each of them on his legs, styling the white and red silk into a nice bow at the half of his thigh. Then - sighing at his still hard on - he pulled over a tight dress, that of a police woman, and buttoned it only half, revealing his small chest. Kazuya looked at the remaining items and smirked. He took the collar and tied it around his neck, letting its chain fall and jiggling the earlier circles - the handcuffs. The younger returned to the bed and climbed up on it, stretching his now beautiful and dressed in silk legs and handcuffing one of his hands. He left the other one free, just in case.
And when the door opened and Jin returned, Kazuya signaled him with his leg, calling his lover in the bed. Then he lifted his hand to show Jin that he was prisoner of his own body, the handcuffs and the collar visible from that position. The dress was a bit tight and much revealing, but that was one of Kazuya’s least worries. He was paying attention only to his lover who looked famished… of him.
Jin took a step into the room, almost like he couldn’t believe his eyes. He had a few costumes on his top shelf but he had to admit he had forgotten about most of them since he had last used them. He had only tried this fetish when he had first started to have sex but after a few failed attempts, nothing seemed to get Jin riled up so he had given up at cosplay. But this… Jin had no words to describe the image in front of his eyes. It was appealing, it was seductive, it was sexy as hell and it was driving Jin crazy. He got closer to the bed in a split of a second, his eyes still roaming over Kazuya’s body and sparkling with a powerful glint. He licked his lips and a smirk appeared on his perverted face, as he put his knee on the bed to be closer to Kazuya.
Their eyes met and Jin stopped for a second to just take in every emotion, every feeling that was in Kazuya’s brown orbs. He let his gaze travel south, over the boy’s body, until it reached his toes where Jin’s hand was already waiting. He touched Kazuya’s foot with a ghostly movement, lingering on it just a little before going up on his leg, teasing his calf and reaching his knee. Jin stopped yet again and leaned over to kiss the spot where his hand rested, locking his eyes with Kazuya who was now watching him intensively. He let his hand continue its observing and slowly touched the younger’s tight, fisting the edge of the skirt and letting it free after to go to the boy’s crotch, pressing with a little strength, just enough to earn a low moan from Kazuya.
Jin ignored Kazuya’s silent plea and continued his little game, his eyes still fixed on his moving hand like this was the only thing that mattered. He sneaked a finger through the dress’s buttons and leaned over for the second time, this time letting his tongue tease the burning skin and doing the same thing for every spot between the buttons of the dress until he reached the top where Kazuya’s neck was waiting for him just perfect to be kissed and taken advantage of. His hand still didn’t stop and continued to go up on Kazuya’s arm while Jin bit on the boy’s skin and left marks all over his neck, marking Kazuya as his and only his and carefully avoiding the precious collar. Their hands entwined when Jin finally raised himself to kiss the younger with madly, unsatisfied and almost painful desire to feel him more, to know about him and his body even if there wasn’t anything that Jin didn’t already know about how to make Kazuya scream his name with a loud moan.
The need for air finally won and Jin separated their lips, still nibbling on them, not willing to let go. A click was heard and Kazuya found himself trapped, the other handcuff being now locked to the bed. Jin smirked. Drunken on whatever Jin was doing to him, Kazuya had realized too late that he was captive by his own game. He had planned to handcuff Jin with the other one, but the bastard outdid him first. He growled unsatisfied at the turn of the events and bit forcefully onto Jin’s lower lip.
“Give it to me.” He asked, his teeth still seeping into the older one’s soft lip. Kazuya lifted a silky leg to wrap it around Jin’s waist, causing two buttons of his dress to snap. “And you’ll take it with me.” The younger added, smirking and finally releasing the painful throbbing lip. He could only move a hand now so he passed trembling fingers over the swollen lip.
“Give you what?” Jin asked innocently, pretending that he wasn’t understanding what the younger was talking about. “This?” he added, grinding his hips into Kazuya’s and brushing his body onto the younger’s crotch, now naked and fully exposed to the rough material of Jin’s jeans.
“Oh, fuck, Jin.” Kazuya groaned and threw his head back, shivers of pleasure spreading in all his body. He caught Jin by the nape, his hold tight and punishing. “Do that again and…” he stopped all hitched breath when Jin did exactly what he had warned against. “You’ll kill me.” The younger whispered and crushed his mouth against the older one’s.
Jin leaned more into the kiss, slowly rediscovering Kazuya and exploring his mouth like it was the first time their tongues met, like it was the last time he could suck on the younger’s lips and devour them with a lick. “Interesting choice of words.” He breathed against Kazuya’s lips, entwining their hands again and letting his other hand slip under the dress to touch the younger’s erection softly, with a ghostly caress. He freed the younger’s mouth to suck on his neck a little something that he had put earlier on the soft skin above the dress and then he lifted his head to look at Kazuya and slip another pill into his mouth, keeping one for himself. “Because I want to kill you now so much so you can’t belong to anyone else but me.” He confessed, his voice hateful and loving and caring and just void in the same time.
Kazuya sucked a little on the pill before swallowing it and smirked at the last words of Jin’s. There was his hand, teasing and caressing, and the boy felt his body tremble with excitement and expectance. He shifted a little, the dress being suddenly uncomfortable. He urged Jin to touch him, bucking his hips towards the teasing hand while his tongue danced skillfully on Jin’s lips. “Then… kill me.” Kazuya whispered and his body arched as the drugs were having effect on him. He closed his eyes and his nails dug into Jin’s nape, feeling the shudder of pleasure taking over him. “Kill me and that’s how you’ll completely have me…” he breathed again, opening his eyes now of a darker and brightening color. His free hand relaxed and slowly moved down Jin’s neck and up to his lips. The younger lifted his head a little and caught Jin’s lips and one of his fingers with his own lips. He began to suck on the other’s tongue, wetting in the same time the digit.
Jin looked with a foggy gaze at Kazuya, savoring the kiss and letting himself be driven mad by the younger. His hand released the boy’s crotch and Jin let it roam above Kazuya’s body, slowly making its way up and touching and caressing his skin until it found the younger’ neck. The younger one looked at the other one in anticipation, but Jin stopped there and circled Kazuya’s neck with his hand, pressing a little on it to make Kazuya choke, exactly on the collar that he was wearing, but not enough to let him lose his breath completely. The boy gasped for air, but in a seductive way, his lips slightly parted and his breath just a tad hitched. Jin’s mouth left Kazuya’s lips and he raised himself a little to look at his lover while his hand was still pressing on the spot that was making Kazuya nervous and uncertain. The older one smirked.
“If you die, I’d have to kill myself after because I don’t think I could survive without you.” Jin said, his eyes locked with Kazuya’s and his breath as heavy as the younger’s. His grip became a little softer but the force was still there when Jin leaned over Kazuya to bite on his ear, tracing a wet line with his tongue from his ear to his neck where he sank his teeth into the flesh, sucking and biting with force and leaving a big and red mark.
“Undress me.” Jin whispered, his gaze still over Kazuya, his hand now completely releasing the boy’s neck as Jin said those words.
“With one hand, Jin?” Kazuya asked, his voice slightly strangled. “I want to feel you, not to pretend doing so.” He added with a smirk. He closed his eyes, licked his lips and his mind blanked out. “Before I fall apart…” the younger whispered as another shudder took over him.
“With one hand, baby.” Jin confirmed with a smirk adorning his face. He retreated his hands and set them aside, supporting his body on them to look at Kazuya from above. “Touch me, Kazuya.” He continued to whisper with a low and needy voice, his breath rolling over Kazuya’s lips and making him tremble at the contact. “Make me feel you with your everything.” He added, softly nibbling on the younger’s lips, this being the only contact between them that Jin initiated.
Kazuya chuckled softly and passed his tongue over Jin’s lips, before letting himself succumb to his emotions. There was a blur in his mind, his eyes were slowly becoming blind, nothing but the pure lust - that was Jin - being the one he could see and feel. Kazuya made his body lower under Jin, now his mouth dancing on the other one’s neck, his tongue kissing the skin wet while his teeth seeped when ghostly, when powerfully in it. His hand slipped between their bodies, snapping open the shirt Jin wore as his fingers trailed over his chest, scratching and pinching the hardened nipples. Kazuya wriggled his legs from under Jin and encircled the older one’s waist, causing another two buttons of his dress to snap open too. The only difference between them was that he was naked while Jin still had clothes on - not for long though - so, his only free hand made way to the already unbuttoned jeans and slid into them, caressing the sensitive skin around Jin’s crotch. Meanwhile, his mouth was busy to pull off Jin’s shirt, wetting the material and grazing with his teeth the hot skin. Kazuya’s tongue left burning trails over the other one’s shoulder and collarbone, making him shudder while his hand passed briefly and teasingly over his throbbing member. Taking support in his legs, Kazuya lifted his lower part and moved up and down, brushing against Jin’s cock and causing the jeans to slowly slip, leaving the older one just in his boxers.
“Take me.” Kazuya whispered as he pulled up his body, his mouth searching for Jin’s. There was his rasp breath, the hot air warming Jin’s lips and the naughty tongue wetting them. “I want to feel you now.” He added, kissing the older with greediness as he began to buck his hips.
Jin trembled under Kazuya’s administrations and shuddered when he felt his cock about to explode because of the pleasure that he was refusing to give to it. He chuckled when Kazuya expressed his desire to have Jin and he grinded his body to the younger one’s, gluing them and grinding their hips to cause more friction between them. He suppressed a moan and let Kazuya kiss him until he fell out of breath on him, his lips still searching the soft skin that he had missed so much even when he was touching it all over.
“So impatient.” Jin said, laughing again as his hand sneaked under Kazuya’s dress and touched his shaft, letting his hand roam up and down on it. “You’re such a slut for my cock, aren’t you?” he breathed, using his other hand to snap open the rest of the buttons from the dress, allowing Jin to finally touch Kazuya, to pinch his nipples and caress his whole body with his tongue, going lower and lower, stopping just above his navel. He raised his head and looked at Kazuya with a smirk before letting his head fall again and engulfing Kazuya’s penis in his mouth.
The younger gasped as he felt the warmth of Jin around him and began to move up and down, needing more. “The same goes for you too, right?” he breathed, curling his fingers around Jin’s locks until he got a firm grip of his hair. His body arched as Jin grazed with his teeth along his length and his tied hand hooked around the bed’s front, biting on his lower lip. “I like the way your tongue goes around my cock.” Kazuya chortled low and deep, quickly followed by a moan as the older took him fully. Well, Jin could do a proper blowjob.
A smirk flickered on Jin’s lips as Kazuya’s moans became louder and louder, his hips bucking into Jin’s mouth and making him take even more of Kazuya into his mouth. Jin caught the younger’s hips with his hands and pinned them down into the sheets, not allowing Kazuya to move more than a little, just enough to let Jin have the liberty to do what he wanted, slowly guided by the younger’s hand which was still fisted in his hair, moving Jin’s head up and down, along his shaft. The older one let his tongue roam on Kazuya’s cock, sucking it dry and cupping his balls into his hand, earning another moan from Kazuya when he pressed with too much strength.
“And what else do you like my tongue to do?” Jin asked with a perverted voice, on a low and almost dark tone, looking at Kazuya while his lips found the younger’s cock again and sank his teeth a little in it, just enough to make the boy tremble and moan for more, soothing it after with his tongue, giving it a few licks before taking Kazuya back into his mouth, quickening his pace and using more force.
“What - ah - do you have in mind?” Kazuya asked, biting his lower lip, closing his eyes and feeling the pleasure spreading thorough him. “But - please - don’t stop…” his body shook, drug and desire exploding in him.
Jin smirked again, stopping from deep-throating Kazuya’s cock, and looked at him with an expression that said more than enough. Oh, and he had a lot of things in mind. It was just he wasn’t sure he’d have the time to do them all before he had the younger one fainted in front of him. “Hmm…” he started, lingering on his words and pretending to think. He replaced his mouth with his hand, continuing to move along Kazuya’s penis but now at a slow pace, not allowing Kazuya to have his release. His other hand brushed over his nipple and went down Kazuya’s body, caressing it with a soft touch, moving it along his waist and continuing its way on the younger’s leg to stop behind his knee which Jin lifted to place a brief kiss on the exact spot his hand had been resting.
“I don’t know, you tell me what to do.” He finally answered, kissing again the skin behind his knee and heading up his leg, his eyes fixed on Kazuya’s face to catch every expression of the younger one, to see and hear every moan that his lover released.
If it was something more erotic or arousing than Jin kissing his knee… well, Kazuya failed to recall it. Because that soft kiss, that excruciating meeting of the lips and skin had Kazuya shudder deeply till his core. He stilled for the moment and whimpered a little, trying to pull his leg but not really wanting to do so. The gentle kiss and the sadistic way of having Kazuya writhing couldn’t have a better effect on him. And there he was - head fallen back, mouth wide open, eyes shut in delight and his whole body arched in expectance. The room was filled with Kazuya’s moans and his words filled with neediness.
“Oh, Jin. Please…” he writhed and bucked his hips, feeling at his limit. “You’re torturing me.” The younger one added, stretching his handcuffed hand towards Jin, his face twisted in pleasure and pleading.
Jin smiled, seeming satisfied with the reaction he got from the younger one and approached him to kiss his lips, letting Kazuya taste himself into a forceful and needy kiss. His right hand left Kazuya’s cock and sneaked under him, silently searching for that tiny hole which Jin knew that wanted to be touched as much as the front part, while his other hand found Kazuya’s tied hand, entwining with it in the kiss and disappearing when Jin’s lips started to kiss his chest and tease his nipples. He brought it to the table beside the bed and searched from something, throwing all the stuff he didn’t need until he finally found it. With a short click, Jin opened Kazuya’s handcuffs from the bed and threw the key on the floor, letting them to hang on Kazuya’s hand. He still had an idea for them, but it had to wait until he could finish preparing the boy.
“Tell me you like it.” Jin breathed on Kazuya’s lips, kissing him again. “Tell me what I make you feel.” He continued, his index finger teasing the younger’s ass and pushing inside just a little, enough to make Kazuya go mad but too little for him to really feel it.
“Yes. I like it!” Kazuya replied on a strangled voice, his pulsing hole tightening around Jin’s quarter of a finger. “But… more.” He breathed and locked his eyes with Jin, dark liquid of passion. “More… I need you, Jin.” Kazuya threw his hands around Jin’s neck and powerfully grinded his body into the older one, making his finger enter more. He gasped near Jin’s lips before kissing them with his own trembling and dry ones. “You drive me mad, you make me burn, you turn me needy… there’s only you in my mind.” He whispered and plunged his tongue into Jin’s mouth, brushing against his just as his body did the same.
Jin answered to the kiss while he inserted his finger completely into Kazuya’s hole, feeling the younger’s hands fisting in his hair and him swallowing the moan that Kazuya screamed at the intrusion. He moved a little and discarded his pants, also throwing them on the floor and not caring where they landed. He rolled on the bed and pulled Kazuya with him, making him land on top of Jin without interrupting their kiss.
“Good.” He chuckled into the kiss, beginning to move his finger in and out of Kazuya’s ass and slowly inserting the second one.
Kazuya threw his head back, his body making a beautiful arch, the moan escaping his lips being a sweet melody to Jin’s ears. He began to move slowly, wanting more, needing more. Kazuya turned to look at Jin and his hands dug into his chest. “If it’s good, then make it better.” He said and leaned to bite onto Jin’s nipple. “And after better, make it the best.” He added and traced a wet line with his tongue up till Jin’s lips. “Make me crush.” Kazuya ordered and claimed Jin’s lips again, his whole body moving up and down, their throbbing erections brushing against each other.
“As you wish, my love.” Jin chuckled and inserted the third finger, making scissor movements to open up Kazuya as much as he could to not hurt him or at least to help him feel the pain a little less. He raised his other hand and fisted it into Kazuya’s hair, pulling on it and pushing his tongue deep into Kazuya’s mouth, sucking on his tongue with a need and lust that even Jin didn’t know he was capable of. They broke off the kiss when the need for air became too much and just looked a couple of seconds into each other’s eyes before crushing their mouths together again, this time into a slower kiss as Kazuya began to move his hips along Jin’s fingers, moaning into his mouth and asking for more. Both of Jin’s hands cupped Kazuya’s ass now and stretched it a little, allowing the older to move his fingers even more into the younger’s hole. When Jin finally felt that the boy was stretched enough, he detached himself from the kiss and breathed along Kazuya’s lips - “You know what to do.” - with a perverted voice and a low tone, full of lust and passion.
Kazuya gave a soft and low laugh, lowering his hands and pulling off Jin’s boxers. The erect member stood prideful and the younger one threw a glance at it with a smirk tugging at his lips. “So ready for me, ah?” Kazuya whispered as he grabbed Jin’s manhood, pumping it, coating it with the pre-cum. “But, yet again, so am I.” he breathed and pushed himself onto Jin’s cock, gasping for air at the sudden intrusion, making him open up and tighten in the same time. “Oh, god!” Kazuya murmured, closing his eyes and fully taking Jin inside of him. The heat, the throbs, the sweet pain - everything entwined in his body, exploding into thousands of shards of pleasure.
Jin grunted, trying to not move and give Kazuya time to adjust with the sensation of being entered, using all of his self control to not move against Kazuya’s hips and start to buck his hips into him. “Fuck.” He swore when the younger took inside of him all of Jin’s member, making him close his eyes and bury his nails into Kazuya’s skin from his waist in lack of something else and, most of all, of patience to find something else. “You’re so tight.” Jin said, now with his eyes opened and looking at Kazuya who was staring back with a smirk adorning his lips, seeming to have gotten used to the pain and welcoming the pleasure.
“You like it?” the younger asked with a taunting voice, lowering his body to be closer to Jin, but still far enough to not let their lips touch. “You like when you feel your cock being squished into my rear, don’t you?” he added on the same tone, moving his body up and down, slowly, maddening, making Jin growl of frustration.
Jin wanted to laugh, but Kazuya’s moves made him unable to talk so Jin shut his mouth and just settled to look at the boy with an expression that said how much he wanted to have him move faster. He gulped, Kazuya’s image being extremely alluring and arousing and making him even harder than he already was. His ruffled hair, his dress still hanging on his back, his perverted and teasing eyes… Jin was already about to explode but then Kazuya moved again and brushed his fingers over Jin’s chest and nipples while his tongue was leaving wet traces on his neck. Jin brought his hands to Kazuya’s waist to hold him tighter and a raw moan escaped his lips when the younger suddenly lifted himself up and let his head fall back, supporting his body on his hands which were now gripping Jin’s legs and taking the older one’s length even more into his hole.
“Harder, Kazuya!” Jin pleaded with a whine and moaned loudly when Kazuya complied with his wish and started to buck his hips up and down much faster, leaning down again to crash his mouth against Jin’s into a disheveled kiss, just a clash of teeth and tongues and saliva and even more passion. Release was the only thing on their minds as both of them started to coordinate their moves in search for that sweet feeling of liberation that they had been deprived of for so long and when it finally came, Jin fisted Kazuya’s hair and pulled on it with force, while Kazuya closed his eyes, enjoying the moment and then collapsing on Jin’s chest.
Kazuya stood this way for a few moments, recovering his breath and stilling his heart. Then, slowly, he moved and felt Jin pulling out of him, a load groan escaping from both. He lied down next to Jin and absently he searched for a cloth in one of Jin’s drawers. He cleaned the other one up, then he simply stared at the ceiling, a well-deserved silence engulfing them. It was for the first time that the drugs he had taken had their effect faded in front of the passion, lust and desire he had for Jin. Of course, he could still feel the euphoria he usually had, but it was less than ordinary. For the first time… the drugs proved to be inefficient.
He turned to look at Jin and saw him with his eyes closed, his breath still hitched, but with a satisfied look on his face. Could it be that Jin can save him from the world of drugs? Could it be that Jin can make the nightmares go away?
No.
Definitely not. Whatever happened tonight, it was just the excess of hormones and the bad quality of the drugs. Or maybe he hadn’t taken enough. Either way, Jin could never give him the obliviousness he looked for or the bliss he found in drugs. So it was better to stop being delusional, because no matter what… the safety Jin offered was nothing than a trap for Kazuya, even if sometimes - most of the time - it felt right. Kazuya drew closer to Jin and blew some air in his ear so that the older would open his eyes and turn to look at him. And when he did so, Kazuya simply smiled.
Sometimes it was better not to question and take what it was given to you. There must be a reason somewhere why you received such things.
Jin blinked for a couple of times, looking at Kazuya and not understanding what happened. He felt his heart beating faster when his eyes fell on that beautiful smile that the younger was showing and Jin couldn’t stop himself and smiled back, feeling something warm making way into his heart and soul. And it was good, it was a wonderful feeling and Jin decided that he never wanted to let it go. His smile got even brighter as soon as these thoughts engraved into his mind and he leaned closer to Kazuya, to wrap him into a warm embrace, holding him tight and letting the younger feel the fast beating of his heart. He was not afraid anymore to share things with Kazuya. He knew now that it wasn’t wrong to trust him and he wanted to do it. He wanted to give Kazuya his heart, body and soul, everything that was Akanishi Jin.
“I love you.” He whispered in the comfortable silence, feeling that it was the only thing that could manage to describe what he was feeling in that moment, the only words close enough to tell Kazuya how much he meant for Jin. It felt right to say them, to feel them. Because it was Kazuya.
The younger chuckled and cuddled into Jin, feeling again warm and fuzzy as that day on the beach. “I know.” He replied, thinking of no better answer after such a great sex. Then there was silence again and Kazuya played lazily on Jin’s chest, his fingers drawing circles or hearts. He wanted to say what he had planned, but… he wasn’t sure it was the best moment. Though another moment he wouldn’t find, so he took his chance, hoping that Jin would understand.
“I’m leaving tomorrow.” Kazuya said with a whisper.
PART II
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~ And now his facebook and OMG, youtube account!!
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
A/N: Sorry for being late, but I think the next chapters will also be a little late because of the holidays <3 This is our present from Santa and with which we wish you a 'Merry Christmas!' and a 'Happy New Year!'
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Chapter thirteen
The thirteenth scent ~ Body
Sometimes, we’re confused. So confused that we don’t know what to do anymore and it clouds our judgment when we try to do the right thing. Too many feelings, too many emotions that we can’t separate anymore and we start to confuse one with an other, acting how we think it’s right only to find out how wrong we were. We can feel angry when actually we should be relieved; we are upset when we should be happy; we are accusing when in fact we should be loving and protecting.
It isn’t our fault, such mistakes can happen to anyone.
The question is if we’ll be able to see the difference in the end.
They nailed a cab and Kazuya didn’t say anything when Jin told the driver his own address, choosing on keeping quiet for the moment. The older one seemed to share his thoughts and fell silent for the rest of the trip, except for some instructions as they got nearer to his apartment. He paid the driver and got out the car along with Kazuya, still keeping the silence until they got to his house and went inside. Jin locked the door behind him and, without saying anything, he headed to the kitchen, leaving Kazuya all by himself to follow or to do whatever he wanted.
The younger made a face when Jin left him alone and he turned to the opposite direction, going straight for the living room. There he threw himself on the couch without turning on the lights and he stared at the dancing ones from the ceiling. The sound of the night flew in through the slightly opened windows and Kazuya was soon lulled by it into a well deserved sleep.
A sigh escaped Jin’s lips when he saw the boy like this, not expecting to find the younger in his living room but in his bedroom. He thought that now that they were getting along, it wouldn’t be too much to consider himself Kazuya’s lover and call the boy his boyfriend. It seemed normal to him to sleep together but Kazuya seemed to have other thoughts - and maybe their fight had also had a small part to play in this decision of Kazuya’s. The older one made his way into the room and crouched next to the younger, flicking his nose in a playful manner. “Come on, wake up.” He said with a warm voice. “Come to bed with me.” He added with what seemed to be a plea but even he wasn’t sure about it.
“I like it here.” Kazuya grunted and turned away from Jin, now facing the couch. He had woken the moment Jin had entered the room, like he had some kind of radar for the older one or something like that. He wasn’t sure why he was acting like this with Jin but somehow he felt like doing so. He wanted to be selfish, bitchy and Jin was there to take it for him.
Jin sighed again. “At least take the pill I brought to you.” He added, settling on the floor with his back on the couch and one leg spread in front of him, the other one bent up. “It will ease the hangover you’ll have in the morning.”
“I never take pills.” Kazuya said and after a pause he added - “Thanks though.”
“Yeah, right.” Jin snorted before he could stop himself. Still, he didn’t say anything more and just stared at the ceiling, his head propped on the couch, near Kazuya’s body. He closed his eyes, feeling a little tired and Kazuya wasn’t making things easy for him. He sighed for the third time in a row. It was a little uncomfortable position to be standing in such a weird position, but Jin had dealt with worse so he could take it now as a man, especially if it was for his lover. It was the only thing he could do now, seeing as Kazuya wasn’t willing to talk to him. Maybe he would give in to Jin’s stubbornness in the end and he’ll realize that he had to talk to him because the older one wasn’t moving anywhere from there. His lips curled up into a tiny smile. Kazuya was as stubborn as him sometimes, but Jin was left with no other solution than to wait for the younger. Forcing hadn’t worked out. Maybe patience will.
The question was how long could he keep it.
“Yeah…” Kazuya mumbled after some time, thinking about the time when he had been in hospital and everyone forced him to take some fucking pills like those would’ve cured him. “I don’t take medicinal pills for a few years already.” He found himself saying, though without a particular reason. “Whether I have a cold or hangover, I’ll deal with it the natural way… no pills, no nothing.” He continued, the bitterness in his voice only half hidden. “So, don’t take it personally when I refused the pill you brought me.” Well, Kazuya was trying to say sorry or at least to show that his moodiness had passed.
“Why?” Jin whispered his question, like he didn’t want to scare Kazuya and push him away if he was insisting too much. He wanted to find out more about the younger and he had expressed his whish to do so, but… Kazuya never seemed to be keen on fulfilling it. Until now.
“Hospital and then rehab.” Kazuya replied with a small voice. “I was in there for a year, that’s why I got sick of taking pills. Never took since I went out.” He continued, turning once more to look at the ceiling and the dancing lights on it.
Jin bit his lower lip, wondering if it was okay to go on and he wasn’t intruding too much on the younger’s life for the moment. He gulped and opened his eyes when he felt Kazuya moving, fixing his gaze on the ceiling as the boy did, after glancing at him. “Rehab for what?” he finally asked, expecting all sorts of answers. After all, he wasn’t that unknowing of Kazuya’s real face.
“Overdose of amphetamine.” Kazuya answered casually like this happened to everyone. “I got addicted to it and I couldn’t get away from it. So rehab was necessary.” He didn’t know why he was telling Jin all this, but it was night, it was chilly, he was feeling numb and nothing mattered.
Jin swallowed a gulp and nodded his head, even if Kazuya couldn’t see him. He was starting to understand the younger a little more now, but a lot of holes still existed in his knowledge about him and Jin wanted to fill them completely. “So why did you start taking drugs?” he said, trying to appear as casual as Kazuya sounded but he knew that it wasn’t working so well for him.
Kazuya laughed hollowly. “Out of mistake. After the amphetamine problem, I did my research and chose the weakest drugs so that I wouldn’t get myself addicted. Slowly, I began to take stronger ones and I kinda need them every two weeks. But there are moments that I can’t handle so I overdose it a little.” The younger answered, thinking of all his experiments with the drugs up until then. It was funny now that he was looking back.
Jin wanted to laugh too because it was the typical story of drugs addicts. They always start with something apparently harmless, thinking that they’ll stop immediately. Soon, they lose their effect and they begin to search for much stronger ones, to need them more than they need to live. He had seen it happen a lot of times and he had been the one to instigate it. Come on, it doesn’t hurt you to try. He had said this line for a million times but he never would have guessed that he will fall in love with one of them. He briefly wondered who was the one who got Kazuya in this mess in the first place, but decided that it was better to not ask. It wouldn’t do any good to neither of them. Still, there was a question that he needed to voice out. Slowly, he turned to look at Kazuya but he didn’t move from his spot and kept his distance.
“And when are those moments?” Jin asked, his voice trembling a little. Is it… he wanted to say more, but he was afraid of the answer. Because if Kazuya would say ‘yes’, Jin would destroy his life completely. And he wouldn’t care in the end. “Is it because of me?” he more whispered the words, but loud enough to be heard and low enough to be misunderstood.
“Don’t flatter yourself, Jin.” Kazuya snorted somewhat amused. “I have my own issues, you’re not even in the top three of them.” He laughed, thinking that until now he had thought of Jin being a real big problem, but coming face to face with his past, Jin had indeed fallen to a lower place in his top of worries.
“Oh.” Jin said, feeling relief sweeping over him. He then chuckled, feeling like a heavy weight had been lifted off his chest and now he could finally breathe freely. He got a little closer to Kazuya, feeling how his confidence was slowly coming back and rebuilding itself, giving him back the smirk and arrogant expression. “Then in what I’m top three?” he asked with a flirting tone, gazing at Kazuya’s face. He considered that it was enough for confession for a night and he felt satisfied to be now a little closer to Kazuya. They still had time.
Kazuya turned to watch Jin, carefully studying his frame. “Why do you ask?” he replied, tease and all. “Are you feeling unsure?”
“No, just to make sure.” Jin grinned as he raised himself to sit on his knees and look from above at Kazuya’s face, their breaths entwining and their lips almost touching. Jin’s eyes roamed to Kazuya’s brown orbs and then to his mouth, repeating the move for a couple of times before he showed one of his famous smirks. “Because I have a few ideas.” He added, his lips teasing Kazuya’s with a little touch as he spoke but only that.
“When you don’t have ideas?” Kazuya rolled his eyes, pretending to be annoyed. “Only your ideas got me in trouble until now…” he whined a little, pouting. He didn’t do anything to encourage Jin in his desire, Kazuya was simply making his cutest expressions ever, looking as innocently as he could.
“And I could think at more things I can get you in.” Jin replied with a perverted tone, licking Kazuya’s lips like a puppy and now concentrating his eyes on Kazuya’s to see his every expression. “Do you want me to share?”
The younger boy shifted a little, feeling a bit too warm to be comfortable. He smirked upon hearing Jin’s words and reading between the lines. He caught the licking tongue of the older one’s with his lips and pulled on it. His own tongue brushed over the tip of Jin’s tongue before backing away. “If I say no, will you care?” he asked on a playful tone.
“Well, then I won’t tell you and just show you.” Jin laughed, leaning down a little to catch Kazuya’s naughty lips into a kiss, nibbling at them slowly and gently, without rushing and without forcing. The smile was still plastered on his face and Jin closed his eyes, letting his right hand fall near Kazuya’s head, teasingly playing with his hair and brushing along his ear, while he brought his other hand to cup Kazuya’s left cheek and bring him closer and deepen the kiss just a little more. “Or you don’t like my ideas?” Jin asked, detaching himself from Kazuya just to start and trace kisses along his jaw.
“Mhm…” Kazuya made a sound, his eyes still closed. Then he opened them and smiled pervert like to Jin. “You’ll never know.” He answered and slipped his hand behind Jin’s nape, squeezing a little before bringing the older into a more passionate kiss, one that would make him burn and not sizzle. And Jin gladly answered, entangling their tongues into a game of dominance and passion. He raised himself from the floor but careful to not pause the kiss and lose Kazuya’s lips, settling on the couch, above the younger, and capturing his body between his legs and arms like in a cage. He closed his mouth when he caught Kazuya’s tongue and sucked it, moving his lips almost in slow-motion, teasingly and maddening, earning a low moan as Kazuya lifted his hands to Jin’s hair and pulled on it, making the older one groan in frustration and need.
Jin freed Kazuya’s lips and bit his chin, sinking his teeth into the flesh, hard enough to leave a small imprint, but still gentle to disappear quickly. He went lower and kissed Kazuya’s neck as much as he could because of the clothes which the younger was still wearing, letting his hand roam on his body, tugging on his waist and under his shirt. “And what can I do to make you tell me?” Jin laughed, barely now seeming to remember Kazuya’s last words.
The younger chuckled low seeing how little control Jin had over his desire and how his own body responded to the other one’s touches. He rolled his hips, brushing against Jin’s lower part and smirked when he heard a muffled groan. The younger let his hands wander on Jin’s back and slowly traveled to his ass, slipping them inside Jin’s jeans to grab onto his ass cheeks. He groped them while his body moved against Jin’s in search of more friction. “There’s nothing to tell but to show.” Kazuya whispered and licked Jin’s ear lob, inserting his tongue inside the small cavern, wetting and quickly warming it with a soft blow. “But I have an idea…” he moaned as their groins touched each other, the rough material between them being a nuisance, but also a pleasure to keep it longer. “Want to know it?” he whispered, chewing on Jin’s ear, licking, biting and soothing.
“Surprise me.” Jin almost whimpered, desperate for more touching and grinding and just for more of Kazuya. He let his right hand sneak under Kazuya’s shirt and go up, brushing his fingers over the younger’s nubs but not letting them linger too much, just some ghostly touches. His left hand went down and Jin grabbed Kazuya’s arousal through his jeans, feeling the boy how he immediately leaned into his touch, swallowing a gasp and burying his nails into Jin’s ass cheeks, the older grunting because of the pain and pleasure induced. Jin’s hand didn’t linger too much on that spot either and his fingers were now working on Kazuya’s jeans, trying to open them while his lips found the boy’s into another kiss, more lustful and much needier.
The younger smirked in the kiss, wondering how Jin will react upon hearing his sudden idea. And there was Jin’s hand fumbling with his pants, touching him unceasingly and making him harder and harder. Oh, it felt good and Kazuya wanted all the more to spill his idea to Jin. So he broke the kiss, looked into Jin’s eyes with a fervent passion as his hands held tightly the other’s ass cheeks and trapped his hand between their bodies, moving up and down slow, very slow. “Let’s get high.” He breathed the words, pushing his lower part into Jin and making him feel everything, including the most burning place of his body. Kazuya bit on his lower lip and closed his eyes as Jin’s hand clutched around his manhood. “Please…” he whispered as he opened his eyes and lifted his head a little to let his tongue travel from Jin’s jaw down his neck.
A flicker of surprise appeared in Jin’s eyes as Kazuya’s words registered in his mind. It was the last thing Jin thought at, but, then again, it shouldn’t have been that surprising considering the fact that Kazuya was addicted to drugs. For a moment, Jin wanted to say no, thinking that the boy wasn’t in the best state to lose his mind even more after his earlier breakdown, but exactly when Jin opened his mouth to say something else than a moan, Kazuya moved his hands and brushed his finger’s over Jin’s rear and Jin fell deep into the trap of lust that Kazuya had set up and lost every hint of responsibility.
He forced himself to put one foot on the floor and smirked at his lover, retracting his hand from Kazuya’s crotch and grabbing the younger’s hands from his ass to lock them into his hands. He smirked and clashed his lips over Kazuya’s into a more forceful and demanding kiss, ravishing his lips and exploring his mouth into its deepness until nothing remained but their breaths entwined. Jin stopped suddenly and blew a puff of air into Kazuya’s mouth, smiling perversely after and raising himself from the couch with the boy in his arms.
“Then you’ll have to do one thing I say too, right?” he stated more than asked, already starting to move with the younger one towards his bedroom. He was already hard enough, but he could still wait. If that meant that he’ll have Kazuya as he liked, then it would be worth it, Jin decided.
Kazuya let himself be carried like a princess, settling even better in Jin’s arms and not quite still. His hands kept playing in Jin’s hair, pulling when gently when roughly. And his mouth was all over Jin’s neck, offering feathering kisses, light bits and soothing lickings. He moaned near Jin’s neck, nibbling at his ear and blowing some hot air. “And what is it that you want me to do?” he whispered, digging his nails in Jin’s nape.
Jin chose to ignore Kazuya for the moment as he opened the door to his bedroom with his foot and slammed it behind them. He just grinned and went to sit on the bed with Kazuya straddling his lap, as the older was now looking at him with a look that said how much lust and desire were hidden in his soul and how much he wanted Kazuya that moment. He didn’t touch the boy more than letting his hand rest on Kazuya’s waist while he used his right one to search into one drawer and snatch something from it. It wasn’t too difficult to know what he had retrieved from it, but Jin still hid the little pill from Kazuya and put it in his mouth, kissing the boy immediately after and giving the little drug to him only to take it back soon and repeating the move a few times, teasing Kazuya and feeling himself starting to get excited at the thought of getting high with his lover. He hadn’t done this in a long time and usually he did it only to test the new products, having more than enough of them when he was forced to deal with them.
Still, that didn’t mean that Jin didn’t like his job and to see people going crazy for only a little pill.
Kazuya pulled Jin towards him, ravishing his lips and forcing him to give that damned pill. It was too much of a tease the way Jin wanted to play and Kazuya wasn’t that inclined to do it this way. So he took Jin, claimed his lips and sucked his tongue, the pill dissolving slowly in their saliva. “More, Jin… it’s not enough.” He breathed against his lips, his eyes now a blur of passion and neediness.
Jin chuckled and put another pill into his mouth, this time letting Kazuya to take it without much of a fight. He kissed his lips another time, just a little peck and let his tongue and teeth trail on Kazuya’s jaw and cheek, reaching his ear and biting it softly, his hand now buried in the boy’s hair. “I’ll give you even more if you do something for me.” Jin whispered at his ear with a low voice.
The younger moaned and swallowed the pill while his arms were now around Jin, holding him dearly and wanting more closeness. He began to move his hips, thrusting back and forward into Jin’s lower part. “And what is it that you want?” he asked with a husky voice, closing his eyes, slowly letting the colors take over him. There was a deaf sound in the distance… fireworks had begun. Kazuya’s mouth went dry and he desperately searched for Jin’s. When their mouths met, there wasn’t gentleness or anything of the sort, just pure and raw desire, burning lust that carved deeply in both of their bodies - the ones that were now yearning to become one.
Jin smirked into the kiss and answered to Kazuya with the same passion, adding even more if it was possible. It was becoming painful to wait any more and Jin had to swallow a grunt of annoyance when he stopped the kiss and pushed Kazuya a little to look into his eyes. And he liked what he saw. The way Kazuya’s eyes seemed to dance and watch him with an unleashed desire, ready and waiting for the perfect moment to ravish Jin completely. His hair was messed up as Jin had taken care to ruffle it and now it made Kazuya look even more sensual. Jin had to bite his tongue in order to stop a grumble from escaping his lips when the younger one smirked and he felt his body in fire. He had no idea how he managed to control himself and his burning desire to open his mouth and actually sound coherent.
“I want you…” he started, his voice confident and his expression needy as he got closer again to Kazuya and inhaled his scent, letting his tongue roam on his neck. They were still both clothed but Jin didn’t mind it that much now, knowing that he would snap if Kazuya was already naked. “To…” he added, now tilting his head even more to bite on the silky skin, making Kazuya moan and Jin shiver because of how heavenly that sound seemed for his ears. “Dress in something special.” He finished his sentence with a perverted grin on his face, looking again at Kazuya and slowly nibbling on his lips, while his hands had already started to get rid of the boy’s jeans.
“You want me to cosplay for you?” Kazuya laughed and let his body fall back, held only by Jin’s arms and loving the way their groins kept on touching as he moved up and down. “A nurse? A maid? Or maybe a Playboy bunny?” he looked up at Jin his eyes sparkling. “Which is it that you want me to dress?” he lifted himself back and encircled Jin’s neck, his rasp breath caressing Jin’s lips. “Such weird fetishes you have, Mister.” He smirked and bit onto Jin’s lower lip until the metallic taste of blood filled his mouth. He licked the tiny drops that prickled the other’s chin and not at all gentle, he pushed Jin down on the bed. He gave a thrust and heard Jin groan as he put pressure on his hardened member, making him smirk insanely. “You sure you’re up to my cosplay?” Kazuya leaned forward and blew whispers over Jin’s chest covered by the material as his hands slipped between them to unbutton the jeans.
The distant fireworks were making their way closer.
“I’m definitely sure.” Jin smirked as he stretched on the bed and let himself be at the mercy of Kazuya. “I just need to imagine you in a dress and I’m already hard.” He continued, breathing a little heavy as Kazuya managed to unlock his jeans. “I’ll watch you as you come closer and lift your skirt a little to give me a better view of your legs.” He closed his eyes and bit his lower lip when Kazuya’s hand touched his erection, slowly, painfully, giving a girlish laugh to help Jin with his imagination. He hadn’t expected such a… cosplay. But, hey, Kazuya was ready for anything and in that moment he was pleasing Jin’s imagination.
“I’ll look at you like a wolf ready to devour you and you’ll feel so helpless under my gaze, naked and ready for me to take you.” Jin grinded his hips into Kazuya’s, yearning for more friction between their bodies and not allowing himself any. The boy parted his legs even more, pressed his pulsing member against Jin’s one and let out a soft sound, as his fingers entered in his mouth, sucking on them. “You’re so wet, Kazuya, under my fingers.” The older moaned, not being able to stop himself as his hands clenched on the sheets. At these words, the younger one lifted Jin’s shirt and slipped his fingers coaxed with saliva under it, playing on the burning skin of the older one, teasing his nipples and wetting them too.
“Your hole is pulsing against my fingers when I touch it. The dress makes you even sluttier, Kazuya…”
The younger chuckled and he leaned forward, his lips dancing on Jin’s bellybutton, his tongue violating it repeatedly only to leave it wet and red as he trailed a line down until it stopped above Jin’s throbbing member. “And what else makes me sluttier, Jin?” the younger whispered, blowing hot air over his manhood. “How my dress slips when I take you in my mouth?” Kazuya grabbed the boxers and pulled them slowly, his hand touching briefly the prideful shaft. “Or how my long hair tickles you as my lips graze along your length?” there was a pause and the boy looked up at Jin, innocent as he was - his lips parted, his face flushed and his eyes burning with malice and desire.
Oh… the first explosion reached within him, Kazuya thought as he felt his body engulfed in the warmth of the pill’s effect.
Jin opened his eyes, darkened by lust and desire, and looked into Kazuya’s brown orbs. He smirked and lifted himself, supporting his body on his elbows to come closer to the younger. “Come here.” He breathed, his voice deep and uncontrollable. He pushed Kazuya on the bed and just looked at him for a couple of seconds, before cupping his cheek with his left hand. And he smiled, leaning over Kazuya to kiss his lips as gently as he had done it earlier on the couch. His hand explored the boy’s body as Jin got rid of the shirt and jeans that were keeping him from fully touching Kazuya. Jin swallowed hard, letting his eyes roam over the body that always succeeded to make him lose his mind. His eyes met Kazuya’s once more, seeming able to pierce to the bottom of the younger one’s soul and decipher every secret that he was hiding. A weird glint was glowing in them and it made Jin look mysterious and dangerous. Too dangerous to not fall for him.
The older one raised himself from the bed once more, dragging Kazuya by his hand with him. Once they were standing on their own feet, Jin’s eyes seemed to observe Kazuya once more, like he wanted something more, like he wasn’t satisfied with just having the younger one’s body but more. More and more until he’ll know nothing but Kazuya.
“Search into my closet. The top drawer from the left.” Jin said, leaning over Kazuya to trap his lips into a sweet kiss once more. “I’ll be back in five.” Were the last words he said before he headed to the door with a promising smile and left the younger alone.
Kazuya stood for a few moments transfixed, not really getting what was happening. Here he was, with a hard on - let alone the idiot who had one too - and he was supposed to search for something in a drawer. If Kazuya had not been taking those pills, maybe he would have gotten angry, but this way… he started to laugh and practically floated to that drawer Jin had pointed to him. Humming, he searched for whatever Jin had and whistled when he found it. He took the costume out, jiggling those two big and rough-looking circles while he stared at them thoughtfully. Well, he won’t be using that and that, but the others seemed to him a must.
So, Kazuya took the black stockings and pulled each of them on his legs, styling the white and red silk into a nice bow at the half of his thigh. Then - sighing at his still hard on - he pulled over a tight dress, that of a police woman, and buttoned it only half, revealing his small chest. Kazuya looked at the remaining items and smirked. He took the collar and tied it around his neck, letting its chain fall and jiggling the earlier circles - the handcuffs. The younger returned to the bed and climbed up on it, stretching his now beautiful and dressed in silk legs and handcuffing one of his hands. He left the other one free, just in case.
And when the door opened and Jin returned, Kazuya signaled him with his leg, calling his lover in the bed. Then he lifted his hand to show Jin that he was prisoner of his own body, the handcuffs and the collar visible from that position. The dress was a bit tight and much revealing, but that was one of Kazuya’s least worries. He was paying attention only to his lover who looked famished… of him.
Jin took a step into the room, almost like he couldn’t believe his eyes. He had a few costumes on his top shelf but he had to admit he had forgotten about most of them since he had last used them. He had only tried this fetish when he had first started to have sex but after a few failed attempts, nothing seemed to get Jin riled up so he had given up at cosplay. But this… Jin had no words to describe the image in front of his eyes. It was appealing, it was seductive, it was sexy as hell and it was driving Jin crazy. He got closer to the bed in a split of a second, his eyes still roaming over Kazuya’s body and sparkling with a powerful glint. He licked his lips and a smirk appeared on his perverted face, as he put his knee on the bed to be closer to Kazuya.
Their eyes met and Jin stopped for a second to just take in every emotion, every feeling that was in Kazuya’s brown orbs. He let his gaze travel south, over the boy’s body, until it reached his toes where Jin’s hand was already waiting. He touched Kazuya’s foot with a ghostly movement, lingering on it just a little before going up on his leg, teasing his calf and reaching his knee. Jin stopped yet again and leaned over to kiss the spot where his hand rested, locking his eyes with Kazuya who was now watching him intensively. He let his hand continue its observing and slowly touched the younger’s tight, fisting the edge of the skirt and letting it free after to go to the boy’s crotch, pressing with a little strength, just enough to earn a low moan from Kazuya.
Jin ignored Kazuya’s silent plea and continued his little game, his eyes still fixed on his moving hand like this was the only thing that mattered. He sneaked a finger through the dress’s buttons and leaned over for the second time, this time letting his tongue tease the burning skin and doing the same thing for every spot between the buttons of the dress until he reached the top where Kazuya’s neck was waiting for him just perfect to be kissed and taken advantage of. His hand still didn’t stop and continued to go up on Kazuya’s arm while Jin bit on the boy’s skin and left marks all over his neck, marking Kazuya as his and only his and carefully avoiding the precious collar. Their hands entwined when Jin finally raised himself to kiss the younger with madly, unsatisfied and almost painful desire to feel him more, to know about him and his body even if there wasn’t anything that Jin didn’t already know about how to make Kazuya scream his name with a loud moan.
The need for air finally won and Jin separated their lips, still nibbling on them, not willing to let go. A click was heard and Kazuya found himself trapped, the other handcuff being now locked to the bed. Jin smirked. Drunken on whatever Jin was doing to him, Kazuya had realized too late that he was captive by his own game. He had planned to handcuff Jin with the other one, but the bastard outdid him first. He growled unsatisfied at the turn of the events and bit forcefully onto Jin’s lower lip.
“Give it to me.” He asked, his teeth still seeping into the older one’s soft lip. Kazuya lifted a silky leg to wrap it around Jin’s waist, causing two buttons of his dress to snap. “And you’ll take it with me.” The younger added, smirking and finally releasing the painful throbbing lip. He could only move a hand now so he passed trembling fingers over the swollen lip.
“Give you what?” Jin asked innocently, pretending that he wasn’t understanding what the younger was talking about. “This?” he added, grinding his hips into Kazuya’s and brushing his body onto the younger’s crotch, now naked and fully exposed to the rough material of Jin’s jeans.
“Oh, fuck, Jin.” Kazuya groaned and threw his head back, shivers of pleasure spreading in all his body. He caught Jin by the nape, his hold tight and punishing. “Do that again and…” he stopped all hitched breath when Jin did exactly what he had warned against. “You’ll kill me.” The younger whispered and crushed his mouth against the older one’s.
Jin leaned more into the kiss, slowly rediscovering Kazuya and exploring his mouth like it was the first time their tongues met, like it was the last time he could suck on the younger’s lips and devour them with a lick. “Interesting choice of words.” He breathed against Kazuya’s lips, entwining their hands again and letting his other hand slip under the dress to touch the younger’s erection softly, with a ghostly caress. He freed the younger’s mouth to suck on his neck a little something that he had put earlier on the soft skin above the dress and then he lifted his head to look at Kazuya and slip another pill into his mouth, keeping one for himself. “Because I want to kill you now so much so you can’t belong to anyone else but me.” He confessed, his voice hateful and loving and caring and just void in the same time.
Kazuya sucked a little on the pill before swallowing it and smirked at the last words of Jin’s. There was his hand, teasing and caressing, and the boy felt his body tremble with excitement and expectance. He shifted a little, the dress being suddenly uncomfortable. He urged Jin to touch him, bucking his hips towards the teasing hand while his tongue danced skillfully on Jin’s lips. “Then… kill me.” Kazuya whispered and his body arched as the drugs were having effect on him. He closed his eyes and his nails dug into Jin’s nape, feeling the shudder of pleasure taking over him. “Kill me and that’s how you’ll completely have me…” he breathed again, opening his eyes now of a darker and brightening color. His free hand relaxed and slowly moved down Jin’s neck and up to his lips. The younger lifted his head a little and caught Jin’s lips and one of his fingers with his own lips. He began to suck on the other’s tongue, wetting in the same time the digit.
Jin looked with a foggy gaze at Kazuya, savoring the kiss and letting himself be driven mad by the younger. His hand released the boy’s crotch and Jin let it roam above Kazuya’s body, slowly making its way up and touching and caressing his skin until it found the younger’ neck. The younger one looked at the other one in anticipation, but Jin stopped there and circled Kazuya’s neck with his hand, pressing a little on it to make Kazuya choke, exactly on the collar that he was wearing, but not enough to let him lose his breath completely. The boy gasped for air, but in a seductive way, his lips slightly parted and his breath just a tad hitched. Jin’s mouth left Kazuya’s lips and he raised himself a little to look at his lover while his hand was still pressing on the spot that was making Kazuya nervous and uncertain. The older one smirked.
“If you die, I’d have to kill myself after because I don’t think I could survive without you.” Jin said, his eyes locked with Kazuya’s and his breath as heavy as the younger’s. His grip became a little softer but the force was still there when Jin leaned over Kazuya to bite on his ear, tracing a wet line with his tongue from his ear to his neck where he sank his teeth into the flesh, sucking and biting with force and leaving a big and red mark.
“Undress me.” Jin whispered, his gaze still over Kazuya, his hand now completely releasing the boy’s neck as Jin said those words.
“With one hand, Jin?” Kazuya asked, his voice slightly strangled. “I want to feel you, not to pretend doing so.” He added with a smirk. He closed his eyes, licked his lips and his mind blanked out. “Before I fall apart…” the younger whispered as another shudder took over him.
“With one hand, baby.” Jin confirmed with a smirk adorning his face. He retreated his hands and set them aside, supporting his body on them to look at Kazuya from above. “Touch me, Kazuya.” He continued to whisper with a low and needy voice, his breath rolling over Kazuya’s lips and making him tremble at the contact. “Make me feel you with your everything.” He added, softly nibbling on the younger’s lips, this being the only contact between them that Jin initiated.
Kazuya chuckled softly and passed his tongue over Jin’s lips, before letting himself succumb to his emotions. There was a blur in his mind, his eyes were slowly becoming blind, nothing but the pure lust - that was Jin - being the one he could see and feel. Kazuya made his body lower under Jin, now his mouth dancing on the other one’s neck, his tongue kissing the skin wet while his teeth seeped when ghostly, when powerfully in it. His hand slipped between their bodies, snapping open the shirt Jin wore as his fingers trailed over his chest, scratching and pinching the hardened nipples. Kazuya wriggled his legs from under Jin and encircled the older one’s waist, causing another two buttons of his dress to snap open too. The only difference between them was that he was naked while Jin still had clothes on - not for long though - so, his only free hand made way to the already unbuttoned jeans and slid into them, caressing the sensitive skin around Jin’s crotch. Meanwhile, his mouth was busy to pull off Jin’s shirt, wetting the material and grazing with his teeth the hot skin. Kazuya’s tongue left burning trails over the other one’s shoulder and collarbone, making him shudder while his hand passed briefly and teasingly over his throbbing member. Taking support in his legs, Kazuya lifted his lower part and moved up and down, brushing against Jin’s cock and causing the jeans to slowly slip, leaving the older one just in his boxers.
“Take me.” Kazuya whispered as he pulled up his body, his mouth searching for Jin’s. There was his rasp breath, the hot air warming Jin’s lips and the naughty tongue wetting them. “I want to feel you now.” He added, kissing the older with greediness as he began to buck his hips.
Jin trembled under Kazuya’s administrations and shuddered when he felt his cock about to explode because of the pleasure that he was refusing to give to it. He chuckled when Kazuya expressed his desire to have Jin and he grinded his body to the younger one’s, gluing them and grinding their hips to cause more friction between them. He suppressed a moan and let Kazuya kiss him until he fell out of breath on him, his lips still searching the soft skin that he had missed so much even when he was touching it all over.
“So impatient.” Jin said, laughing again as his hand sneaked under Kazuya’s dress and touched his shaft, letting his hand roam up and down on it. “You’re such a slut for my cock, aren’t you?” he breathed, using his other hand to snap open the rest of the buttons from the dress, allowing Jin to finally touch Kazuya, to pinch his nipples and caress his whole body with his tongue, going lower and lower, stopping just above his navel. He raised his head and looked at Kazuya with a smirk before letting his head fall again and engulfing Kazuya’s penis in his mouth.
The younger gasped as he felt the warmth of Jin around him and began to move up and down, needing more. “The same goes for you too, right?” he breathed, curling his fingers around Jin’s locks until he got a firm grip of his hair. His body arched as Jin grazed with his teeth along his length and his tied hand hooked around the bed’s front, biting on his lower lip. “I like the way your tongue goes around my cock.” Kazuya chortled low and deep, quickly followed by a moan as the older took him fully. Well, Jin could do a proper blowjob.
A smirk flickered on Jin’s lips as Kazuya’s moans became louder and louder, his hips bucking into Jin’s mouth and making him take even more of Kazuya into his mouth. Jin caught the younger’s hips with his hands and pinned them down into the sheets, not allowing Kazuya to move more than a little, just enough to let Jin have the liberty to do what he wanted, slowly guided by the younger’s hand which was still fisted in his hair, moving Jin’s head up and down, along his shaft. The older one let his tongue roam on Kazuya’s cock, sucking it dry and cupping his balls into his hand, earning another moan from Kazuya when he pressed with too much strength.
“And what else do you like my tongue to do?” Jin asked with a perverted voice, on a low and almost dark tone, looking at Kazuya while his lips found the younger’s cock again and sank his teeth a little in it, just enough to make the boy tremble and moan for more, soothing it after with his tongue, giving it a few licks before taking Kazuya back into his mouth, quickening his pace and using more force.
“What - ah - do you have in mind?” Kazuya asked, biting his lower lip, closing his eyes and feeling the pleasure spreading thorough him. “But - please - don’t stop…” his body shook, drug and desire exploding in him.
Jin smirked again, stopping from deep-throating Kazuya’s cock, and looked at him with an expression that said more than enough. Oh, and he had a lot of things in mind. It was just he wasn’t sure he’d have the time to do them all before he had the younger one fainted in front of him. “Hmm…” he started, lingering on his words and pretending to think. He replaced his mouth with his hand, continuing to move along Kazuya’s penis but now at a slow pace, not allowing Kazuya to have his release. His other hand brushed over his nipple and went down Kazuya’s body, caressing it with a soft touch, moving it along his waist and continuing its way on the younger’s leg to stop behind his knee which Jin lifted to place a brief kiss on the exact spot his hand had been resting.
“I don’t know, you tell me what to do.” He finally answered, kissing again the skin behind his knee and heading up his leg, his eyes fixed on Kazuya’s face to catch every expression of the younger one, to see and hear every moan that his lover released.
If it was something more erotic or arousing than Jin kissing his knee… well, Kazuya failed to recall it. Because that soft kiss, that excruciating meeting of the lips and skin had Kazuya shudder deeply till his core. He stilled for the moment and whimpered a little, trying to pull his leg but not really wanting to do so. The gentle kiss and the sadistic way of having Kazuya writhing couldn’t have a better effect on him. And there he was - head fallen back, mouth wide open, eyes shut in delight and his whole body arched in expectance. The room was filled with Kazuya’s moans and his words filled with neediness.
“Oh, Jin. Please…” he writhed and bucked his hips, feeling at his limit. “You’re torturing me.” The younger one added, stretching his handcuffed hand towards Jin, his face twisted in pleasure and pleading.
Jin smiled, seeming satisfied with the reaction he got from the younger one and approached him to kiss his lips, letting Kazuya taste himself into a forceful and needy kiss. His right hand left Kazuya’s cock and sneaked under him, silently searching for that tiny hole which Jin knew that wanted to be touched as much as the front part, while his other hand found Kazuya’s tied hand, entwining with it in the kiss and disappearing when Jin’s lips started to kiss his chest and tease his nipples. He brought it to the table beside the bed and searched from something, throwing all the stuff he didn’t need until he finally found it. With a short click, Jin opened Kazuya’s handcuffs from the bed and threw the key on the floor, letting them to hang on Kazuya’s hand. He still had an idea for them, but it had to wait until he could finish preparing the boy.
“Tell me you like it.” Jin breathed on Kazuya’s lips, kissing him again. “Tell me what I make you feel.” He continued, his index finger teasing the younger’s ass and pushing inside just a little, enough to make Kazuya go mad but too little for him to really feel it.
“Yes. I like it!” Kazuya replied on a strangled voice, his pulsing hole tightening around Jin’s quarter of a finger. “But… more.” He breathed and locked his eyes with Jin, dark liquid of passion. “More… I need you, Jin.” Kazuya threw his hands around Jin’s neck and powerfully grinded his body into the older one, making his finger enter more. He gasped near Jin’s lips before kissing them with his own trembling and dry ones. “You drive me mad, you make me burn, you turn me needy… there’s only you in my mind.” He whispered and plunged his tongue into Jin’s mouth, brushing against his just as his body did the same.
Jin answered to the kiss while he inserted his finger completely into Kazuya’s hole, feeling the younger’s hands fisting in his hair and him swallowing the moan that Kazuya screamed at the intrusion. He moved a little and discarded his pants, also throwing them on the floor and not caring where they landed. He rolled on the bed and pulled Kazuya with him, making him land on top of Jin without interrupting their kiss.
“Good.” He chuckled into the kiss, beginning to move his finger in and out of Kazuya’s ass and slowly inserting the second one.
Kazuya threw his head back, his body making a beautiful arch, the moan escaping his lips being a sweet melody to Jin’s ears. He began to move slowly, wanting more, needing more. Kazuya turned to look at Jin and his hands dug into his chest. “If it’s good, then make it better.” He said and leaned to bite onto Jin’s nipple. “And after better, make it the best.” He added and traced a wet line with his tongue up till Jin’s lips. “Make me crush.” Kazuya ordered and claimed Jin’s lips again, his whole body moving up and down, their throbbing erections brushing against each other.
“As you wish, my love.” Jin chuckled and inserted the third finger, making scissor movements to open up Kazuya as much as he could to not hurt him or at least to help him feel the pain a little less. He raised his other hand and fisted it into Kazuya’s hair, pulling on it and pushing his tongue deep into Kazuya’s mouth, sucking on his tongue with a need and lust that even Jin didn’t know he was capable of. They broke off the kiss when the need for air became too much and just looked a couple of seconds into each other’s eyes before crushing their mouths together again, this time into a slower kiss as Kazuya began to move his hips along Jin’s fingers, moaning into his mouth and asking for more. Both of Jin’s hands cupped Kazuya’s ass now and stretched it a little, allowing the older to move his fingers even more into the younger’s hole. When Jin finally felt that the boy was stretched enough, he detached himself from the kiss and breathed along Kazuya’s lips - “You know what to do.” - with a perverted voice and a low tone, full of lust and passion.
Kazuya gave a soft and low laugh, lowering his hands and pulling off Jin’s boxers. The erect member stood prideful and the younger one threw a glance at it with a smirk tugging at his lips. “So ready for me, ah?” Kazuya whispered as he grabbed Jin’s manhood, pumping it, coating it with the pre-cum. “But, yet again, so am I.” he breathed and pushed himself onto Jin’s cock, gasping for air at the sudden intrusion, making him open up and tighten in the same time. “Oh, god!” Kazuya murmured, closing his eyes and fully taking Jin inside of him. The heat, the throbs, the sweet pain - everything entwined in his body, exploding into thousands of shards of pleasure.
Jin grunted, trying to not move and give Kazuya time to adjust with the sensation of being entered, using all of his self control to not move against Kazuya’s hips and start to buck his hips into him. “Fuck.” He swore when the younger took inside of him all of Jin’s member, making him close his eyes and bury his nails into Kazuya’s skin from his waist in lack of something else and, most of all, of patience to find something else. “You’re so tight.” Jin said, now with his eyes opened and looking at Kazuya who was staring back with a smirk adorning his lips, seeming to have gotten used to the pain and welcoming the pleasure.
“You like it?” the younger asked with a taunting voice, lowering his body to be closer to Jin, but still far enough to not let their lips touch. “You like when you feel your cock being squished into my rear, don’t you?” he added on the same tone, moving his body up and down, slowly, maddening, making Jin growl of frustration.
Jin wanted to laugh, but Kazuya’s moves made him unable to talk so Jin shut his mouth and just settled to look at the boy with an expression that said how much he wanted to have him move faster. He gulped, Kazuya’s image being extremely alluring and arousing and making him even harder than he already was. His ruffled hair, his dress still hanging on his back, his perverted and teasing eyes… Jin was already about to explode but then Kazuya moved again and brushed his fingers over Jin’s chest and nipples while his tongue was leaving wet traces on his neck. Jin brought his hands to Kazuya’s waist to hold him tighter and a raw moan escaped his lips when the younger suddenly lifted himself up and let his head fall back, supporting his body on his hands which were now gripping Jin’s legs and taking the older one’s length even more into his hole.
“Harder, Kazuya!” Jin pleaded with a whine and moaned loudly when Kazuya complied with his wish and started to buck his hips up and down much faster, leaning down again to crash his mouth against Jin’s into a disheveled kiss, just a clash of teeth and tongues and saliva and even more passion. Release was the only thing on their minds as both of them started to coordinate their moves in search for that sweet feeling of liberation that they had been deprived of for so long and when it finally came, Jin fisted Kazuya’s hair and pulled on it with force, while Kazuya closed his eyes, enjoying the moment and then collapsing on Jin’s chest.
Kazuya stood this way for a few moments, recovering his breath and stilling his heart. Then, slowly, he moved and felt Jin pulling out of him, a load groan escaping from both. He lied down next to Jin and absently he searched for a cloth in one of Jin’s drawers. He cleaned the other one up, then he simply stared at the ceiling, a well-deserved silence engulfing them. It was for the first time that the drugs he had taken had their effect faded in front of the passion, lust and desire he had for Jin. Of course, he could still feel the euphoria he usually had, but it was less than ordinary. For the first time… the drugs proved to be inefficient.
He turned to look at Jin and saw him with his eyes closed, his breath still hitched, but with a satisfied look on his face. Could it be that Jin can save him from the world of drugs? Could it be that Jin can make the nightmares go away?
No.
Definitely not. Whatever happened tonight, it was just the excess of hormones and the bad quality of the drugs. Or maybe he hadn’t taken enough. Either way, Jin could never give him the obliviousness he looked for or the bliss he found in drugs. So it was better to stop being delusional, because no matter what… the safety Jin offered was nothing than a trap for Kazuya, even if sometimes - most of the time - it felt right. Kazuya drew closer to Jin and blew some air in his ear so that the older would open his eyes and turn to look at him. And when he did so, Kazuya simply smiled.
Sometimes it was better not to question and take what it was given to you. There must be a reason somewhere why you received such things.
Jin blinked for a couple of times, looking at Kazuya and not understanding what happened. He felt his heart beating faster when his eyes fell on that beautiful smile that the younger was showing and Jin couldn’t stop himself and smiled back, feeling something warm making way into his heart and soul. And it was good, it was a wonderful feeling and Jin decided that he never wanted to let it go. His smile got even brighter as soon as these thoughts engraved into his mind and he leaned closer to Kazuya, to wrap him into a warm embrace, holding him tight and letting the younger feel the fast beating of his heart. He was not afraid anymore to share things with Kazuya. He knew now that it wasn’t wrong to trust him and he wanted to do it. He wanted to give Kazuya his heart, body and soul, everything that was Akanishi Jin.
“I love you.” He whispered in the comfortable silence, feeling that it was the only thing that could manage to describe what he was feeling in that moment, the only words close enough to tell Kazuya how much he meant for Jin. It felt right to say them, to feel them. Because it was Kazuya.
The younger chuckled and cuddled into Jin, feeling again warm and fuzzy as that day on the beach. “I know.” He replied, thinking of no better answer after such a great sex. Then there was silence again and Kazuya played lazily on Jin’s chest, his fingers drawing circles or hearts. He wanted to say what he had planned, but… he wasn’t sure it was the best moment. Though another moment he wouldn’t find, so he took his chance, hoping that Jin would understand.
“I’m leaving tomorrow.” Kazuya said with a whisper.
PART II