i dont know whats wrong with me!
i just keep eating and eating.  Everyday turns into "oh well i binged horribly today but I WILL restrict/fast tomorrow"  
"tomorrow i will start fresh"

what happened to my control?!
what happened to me?
i am disgusting.
165 pounds.
gag me.
or maybe i will just gag myself.
i have never purged...but it's never looked so ( Read more... )

Had Mash and cabbage for dinner and still -45 calories for the day =]

Tomorrow will be even better hopefully
xx

How is everyone else doing?
xx

Hello all, I'm in a weird place in my disorder right now and am finding that my support group isn't very keen on talking about some of the nitty-gritty, so to speak, and I don't always feel like I can talk about wanting to stay disordered or go into any details about stuff like that. So here I am ( Read more... )

I had a doctors appointment today and I'm down 4kgs since May =]
I was so happy.

I've done well today all i've had about 148 cals and a litre of water and I've burned 547 cals by just being in college and walking around town so I have a deficite of 399 cals for the day.

Today is good but I can do better

xx

new to livejournal completly tbh,
had the account for a few weeks but this is the first time iv been on,

So nice to meet you =]
Lets all try to have a good day, x

Heyy Lovess<3
Tomorrow is monday! its a new week. all the crap and mistakes for last week are done and over with. lets start fresh<3
I finally got my period after being 3 weeks late. Finally the cravings and the bloating and water weight will be going away.
Only my period is wicked light. doesn't even really feel like i have it. Wish i could say ( Read more... )

Anyone here in Ireland?

I really need support =[

Heyy Loves<3
I am feeling this FAT FRIDAY. I don't even know what was wrong with me this week. I ate a disgusting amount of calories almost everyday. sure they were under my technical "normal" amount but to me they are disgustingly high. I feel so sore and achey all over still from the car accident. I have been taking motrion for almost a week and ( Read more... )

Rant, mentions of specific food and calorie counts, don't read if this will trigger you. Edited to fix the lj cut!
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( pics of me )