An Unbearable Fact 16c/??
Title: An Unbearable Fact
Chapters: 16c/??
Author:
darkwonderland3
Genre: AU/Romance/ Psychological/Angst
Warnings: Language, sexual scenes, mental diseases, violence, character death, suicide attempts, rape.
Rating: NC17
Pairings/Characters: Uruha/Aoi, Reita/Kai
Synopsis: When you lose the only person who loves you from the deepest of her heart, can you go on living? Do you manage to smile again? Can you fight against those demons who break you?
Posted on AO3: here
Posted on Wattpad: here
Previous chapters: Prologue, 1/??, 2/??, 3/??, 4/??, 5/??, 6/??, 7/??, 8/??, 9/??, 10a/??, 10b/??, 11/??, 12/??, 13/??, 14a/??, 14b/??, 15/??, 16a/??, 16b/??
That morning when Kouyou woke up, nothing nor no one could have been able to tarnish his good mood. Not his boss telling him he would have to work with her today, not his neighbours’ daughter’s tears when he told her he couldn't come and play with her today, not the driver who cut him up on his way to the place where the photoshoot would take place. Nothing and no one was going to tear his happiness away from him. A couple hours. Those were the only things that were separating him from this precious raven-haired.
It had taken him a dozen of minutes to realize what had happened once the call had ended. It had taken him a dozen of minutes to realize Yuu had called him, he had heard this voice he hadn’t heard in two years. He had heard his fear, his heartbreaking sobs and his desire to be with Kouyou too. Everything he had ever wanted was happening only two days after the call and Kouyou - even though he was delighted about that - was thinking that maybe they were going a little too fast. Two days weren’t maybe enough for the both of them. Yuu wasn’t ready, Yuu was scared even if he’s been the one to suggest meeting him today. Kouyou on the other hand was looking forward to that moment, but what would he tell him or even do once in front of him? It has been two years, maybe the man Kouyou was today wasn’t the one Yuu needed. Maybe Yuu needed who Kouyou was in that hospital. No way. All these efforts Kouyou had made were only for Yuu. The man he had been couldn’t do a single thing for Yuu, he couldn’t help him. He had broken his promise. And maybe what he was feeling right now, the way everything was going too fast, maybe Yuu was feeling it too.
“Daydreaming again Kouyou?”
“Hm? Oh sorry,” Kouyou answered looking at the make-up artist beside him. She was a beautiful young woman with bright red hair and both ears pierced with multiple earrings. She was working for the agency for only a few months and Kouyou had never met someone like her. She was buzzing with energy, always smiling, always cracking a joke at the agency or during a photoshoot. She was even more spirited than Akira. “Did you need something?”
“Well you of course,” She said laughing. “She’s ready, and strangely in a good mood.”
“Thank goodness! Let me take my camera and I’m all hers.”
The model was barely twenty two but was already well-known in the country, and to Kouyou's great displeasure only wanted to work with him when it was possible. Because he was professional. Because he had that cold aura around him. Because it was easy to play with him and watch him keep calm. She was only twenty two and Kouyou hated that spoiled brat. Of course when she saw him all dashing in his burgundy pullover, his blue-grey scarf, his black jeans - she loved looking down there a little too much when he was wearing this one - and as always his rectangular shaped glasses, she couldn't help but gave him a gorgeous smile. A smile Kouyou hated. It was not a surprise to anyone who was working at the agency that this young woman had a crush on Kouyou. Not even to Kouyou himself.
Fortunately, the photoshoot went well. She didn’t made any comment on the way he was looking today, nor on the fact that he still hadn’t given her an answer about that…. date. Oh crap. She wasn’t going to love what was to follow.
“Thank you once again for letting me work with you,” She told him once there were less people around them. “I’m really grateful to work with someone as professional as you are.”
As if I had a choice, Kouyou thought. “The pleasure is mine Miss Takahashi,” Kouyou answered, giving her the fakest smile he could do.
“What do you think about the pictures?”
“Well, they look pretty good to me. You’re really photogenic and I think I will barely have to edit them,” Kouyou said putting his equipment in his bag, only to avoid her eyes. Of course it was a lie, he would have to edit them. No matter how every pictures turned out, Kouyou always had to edit them.
“You flatter me, I knew a beautiful mouth like yours could only say such nice things.”
“I’m only doing my job you know.”
“Speaking about your job, you really are a workaholic. It’s good to take a break once in a while, going out with friends, having fun. Have you thought about it?”
“I’m sorry I have to go,” Kouyou told her curtly then took his belongings and left, ignoring her calls.
He had to avoid this situation. For anything in the world would he give her what she wanted. Kouyou wasn’t interested and he couldn’t do that. Not when he was getting closer to Yuu with each passing minutes, not when he knew Yuu was still alive. Kouyou was so close and at the same time so far away from him thanks to these two years, but he was going to make up for the time they’ve lost and everything he had promised him but never did.
And maybe things were going too fast, maybe the fact that Yuu was going to see him in less than an hour was terrifying the raven-haired, but Kouyou couldn't bear spending more time away from him. He could feel it in the way Yuu had talk, he could feel it in the tears he had shed.
Yuu couldn’t bear it too.
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A/N: I really love when LJ makes me cut a chapter in differents parts... Sorry about that.
I'm already working on the next chapter so be prepared! :D
See you soon!