"As much as I love you"
"I'm really scared" ♥.
Jaemin
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counting down from infinityby:
thevignette/ pg-13 / oneshot
Something flickers in Jaejoong's eyes, and then dulls almost instantly. If it was irritation, Changmin will never know. He prefers to pretend that it is gratitude.
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fifty sentencesby:
thevignette/ pg-13 /
“Is it so easy to forget?” Changmin asks, “If it is, please teach me.”
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gravityby:
thevignette/ pg-13 / au / oneshot
The intensity of Changmin's gaze in that brief moment is burnt into his mind and the back of his eyelids, a scar.
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what you don't understand you can make mean anythingby:
all-nostalgia/ pg-13 / au / oneshot
The alarm goes off at 8:00 AM.
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sing a good songby:
mikkyboom/ pg / au / oneshot
the boy strums softly, sings softer, and looks up for just a second. their eyes meet and jaejoong thinks -ah, so this is love.
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skies that fall downby:
dewberrie/ pg / oneshot
it's never only just the lonely
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sightby:
be_ddelusionall/ r / oneshot
Changmin's lived in darkness for three years, but Jaejoong is there to cheer him up.
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songbirdby:
vitiates/ r / drama, angst, tragedy / au
[He wants to say so many things, but there’s only ever silence.]
Where Yunho was the one who found his broken pieces, Jaejoong was the one who couldn’t fix him, and Changmin…Changmin was the one who no one could save.
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towersby:
sekushiai/ pg-13 / angst, romance / au
Jaejoong's lost a lot to love but Changmin's determined to teach him how to live again.
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moments endlessby:
mormorando/ g / 379w
What Jaejoong knows as fact and what Changmin thinks as theory is this: that Jaejoong fell for Changmin on the 584th day since their first introduction.
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hard habit to breakby:
mormorando/ r / 507w
It's routine now, when Changmin comes into Jaejoong's room and interrupts him from whatever he's doing to wrestle a kiss from him.
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the dragon and the sun (1),
(2)by: yulebaifenbai90/ pg-13 / historic, romance
Changmin just shook his head. “My silly Jae. Why would I look for companionship in marriage when I have you already? Don't you know by now that you're the only companion that I will ever need? We're supposed to be filial towards each other until the end.”
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undonepg-13/ drama, romance
Changmin has a secret, Jaejoong endeavors to find out.
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a better tomorrowby: Yulebaifenbai90/ pg-13 / angst, romance
With possibly only six months left to live, Changmin enlists the aid of his best friend Jaejoong to help him complete the one thing he wants to do before he dies- fall in love
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we drive along open highways like thisby:
onew/ pg-13 / 1726w
Out of the many stars in the sky, only one shines for each person. Just one.
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scandalousby:
maafkandaku/ r / romance
when it comes to affairs, there’s always a need to draw a line.
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if I sing you a song, would you sing along?by:
maafkandaku/ pg / angst /
it’s time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change / and maybe I’m not ready but I’ll try for your love / we’ve been hiding enough
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in which changmin is a superstar and jaejoong is his secret lover.by:
jaemint/ g / au / oneshot
Jaejoong waits and listens, but he sees and hears nothing; perhaps maybe a little too late.
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unplugged;by:
jaemint/ pg-13 / au / romance /
in which changmin and jaejoong have themselves a little playtime affair when yunho called in to announce that he'll be home late.
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aberrationby:
yassan/ g / au / oneshot
This is Changmin and he's 16 years old. He's watching his math teacher's lips and thinking about what it would taste like, if he kissed a boy.
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eyes like oceansby:
pikasu/ pg / oneshot
sometimes, it isn't that easy to love something after all. but neither is it that difficult either.
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breaking the waves (jaejoong's pov) (changmin's pov)pg-13 / angst, romance / 5662w / 4910w
In which Jaejoong seeks closure in a worn scrapbook of memories and Changmin tries for redemption after five years of silence.
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somethings,
nothings,
gibberish,
by:
i_am_rolling/ drabble series / pg / fluff
i was waiting for this.
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better to have loved and lostby:
xiahtic/ r / sequel to
this Changmin doesn't mean to fall in love, because Jaejoong's not his type at all, but he does anyway.
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the gods of rainby:
thirdonebetween/ pg-13 / 4639w
It is the hottest summer Korea has had in years when Changmin finds Jaejoong again.
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indulgeby:
boomtrack/ nc-17
Changmin has a crush and Jaejoong indulges.
~
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A Firecracker Sort of Love by:
beautifulburn / 1115 / pg
"All I wanted was a sparkling love, a love that burns everything to the ground and leaves behind just the two of us. Why is that hard?" he mutters.
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A Home for Usby:
beautifulburn / 2055 / pg
The first snow is falling and you can feel the distance between you and him grow even bigger.
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(I want to return to you) a reason to be here by:
lunacrescent /
There's something wrong about being ambushed with camera flashes when they're not working, especially in the privacy of their own home. But of course, no one bothers to tell Jaejoong that.
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Mismatched,
1.5 ,
2 by:
little_bibelot / au / romance
Changmin's life takes an unexpected turn when he falls in love.
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The story has just begun by:
asukasukisu/ 5228 / mpreg / r / drama
Having a baby was never an option for Jaejoong. So, what will he do when he is blessed with one?
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all that glitters by:
sugarfrosting / pg-13
One day Jaejoong wakes up and remembers nothing at all.
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Ours to Protect by:
magalix3 / romance / drama / angst / r
Changmin isn’t stupid. He may have been the quiet nerd, but he knows when someone is attracted to someone else. He takes the lack of cigarette and alcohol smell the first hint. He takes the open gestures and constant smiles another hint. He can also tell that the way Jaejoong hides his smile behind the back of his hand that he’s shy, despite his out-going personality.
He can tell by the way Jaejoong’s hand hovers around his before pulling away that Jaejoong is nervous; this is the first time he’s serious about something.
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eyes on fire. by:
bluedveins / 837 / pg-13
it's him who has to do it. if not, it's someone else. the job gets done either way.
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This is not a white lie by:
thevignette/ 200
“I wish,” Jaejoong’s voice cracks. He clears his throat, Changmin holds his breath. “I wish you weren’t you.”
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Texts From Last Night 1a,
1b by:
magalix3/ romance / humor / nc-17
HIS LONG STRIDES ARE BEAUTIFUL YOU SHOULD SEE HIS STILT LEGS LET ME GET BETWEEN THEM PLEASE
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haemoglobin by:
leprixx / au
jaejoong is a writer. life writes itself.
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More Than The Air I Breatheby:
waterpulse/ nc-17 / mild angst
In which Changmin is the wide-eyed rising star behind the camera and Jaejoong is the cynical model in front of it.
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Apology by:
evangellie / g / 137w
It was just too much...
the scent.
the sight.
the feeling.
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Uncomfortableby:
evangellie / fluff / g / 281w
"I am your Hyung! You have to respect me!"
"You are on my lap. My being the key word. So my rules."
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attention /
trouble & banana by:
evangellie / 324w / g / gen
attention: "This moment deserves your full attention, for it will not pass your way again."
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Random question, Sleepy answer by:
evangellie / 573w / fluff
"New memories."
"What?"
"I want new memories for my birthday."
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Sign by:
evangellie/ r / angst / 1048w
He was born deaf and mute. But it didn't bother him; he had sign language and could read books to his heart's content.. Moreover, how could he miss something he never had in the first place?
Or so he thought until meeting him, until losing everything, until the world didn't make any sense anymore.
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All That's Left of Us by:
magalix3/ drama / romance / pg-13
“Jaejoong?” Changmin reads softly after a confused silence.
The sound of his own name chokes him. He looks the doctor in the eyes and thinks, if is what promise and hope looks like…
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the sound of artby:
xiahtic/ pg-13
Changmin had just turned eighteen when he moved to New York, full of hopes and dreams and everything young adults are made of.
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the process of love. by:
firelights/ pg / romance / angst
He wonders what Jaejoong’s laugh would sound like, and when he looks at Jaejoong again - and again, and again - for some reason, he wonders what kind of beauty Jaejoong’s voice would hold if he sang, and if it would be as delicate as his face or as gentle as his words or as painful and empty as his eyes.
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Plunging Downwards by:
virdant/ r / 430w
For theirs is a violent love.
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the boys i mean are not refined. by:
sleepish/ 677w
shim changmin does see him. jaejoong scrambles back around. "he's coming over here he's coming over here hurry act like we're talking intelligently."
"so," yoochun starts, "global warming."
"it's getting warmer," jaejoong says, lamely. "across the globe."
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Four Seasons by:
sum3r/ pg to nc-17 / romance, fluff
“Now, now, Changmin, be nice and give the crayon to Jaejoong. Jaejoong, ask Changmin by saying the word ‘please.’”
Jaejoong turned his head away, puffing out his cheeks as he gripped his unfinished drawing. Changmin was sitting on the floor, legs spread wide as he was bent over, scribbling away with the red crayon.
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Leave The World Behind by:
aidrocsid_eris There’s a moment of stunned silence before Changmin abruptly pulls himself up and hoists Jaejoong to his feet as well. “Sorry,” he says easily, as if Jaejoong wasn’t at fault, and their hands touch for a second too long.
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All Riseby:
vitiates/ 10376w / pg-13 to r / drama, romance, angst, tragedy
None of them believe in Justice.
But Changmin is new and his eyes are bright and feverish with the light that comes from sweet innocence. It seems to radiate from his very heart.
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T for Trace by:
thevignette / pg-13
“Did you have a nightmare?” Changmin props his head up with a hand and uses his free hand to prod at Jaejoong until he stirs.
Jaejoong’s eyes flutter open like the coming of spring (just equally beautiful), and he reaches a hand to brush the side of Changmin’s jaw fleetingly. “I dreamt that the door to your heart was starting to close.”
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Tell my love the secret I have died to keepby:
thevignette/ pg-13
You told me it was perfectly safe to fall in love, so long as you resisted the side-effects, but you never taught me how to
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Undoneby:
_tabris &
vitiates/ 3216+3265w / pg-13
Changmin. His name is soft on your lips and he turns, blinking more than necessary. You pretend not to notice. Here. You throw the water bottle by your side into his hands and look away as he struggles to twist open the cap with shaking fingers. It's not your place to watch him in his moment of weakness.
~
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Signs by:
beautifulburn / pg / 330w / a n g s t
Maybe they were things that he was trying to tell you.
All chances, soundless words that you could have read.
Did you choose to ignore them? Were they too much for your little heart to take?
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B-11-3A by:
blurmeese / 7535w / angst / pg-13
He lies for hours in the sun and tries to remember how it used to feel like to be warm.
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factsheet by:
unlearned / 865w /
Reciprocation has become a habit. He thinks about psychology and chemical equations until Jaejoong fits his fingers into the spaces between his, then he forgets to think at all.
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Articulating Distance by:
thevignette / pg-13 / 1779w
Changmin fell for Jaejoong's lack of predictability, his desire for freedom, the way he's forever full of surprises, the way he's both a dreamer and a realist, and his heartbreakingly beautiful voice.
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Shooting Vampires in the (...) Faceby:
awoken / incomplete / r / au
He shrugged, smiling in a gentle sort of way, only showing off the very tips of his fangs. I supposed they weren't that hideous. Maybe. "You're... different," he said, after a pause. "With most humans, I want to rip them apart after spending only twenty minutes with them." I remembered, vividly, being up on the rafters with Jaejoong, trying to align all the spotlights properly. We had to have been up there for nearly two hours an afternoon earlier this week alone. "You, though," he continued, musingly, "you aren't so bad."
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Forever's Not Enough (
all chapters )
by:
lil_pinai / pg / angst
Jaejoong and Changmin have always been together. Even though Jae's with someone else, Changmin accepts it and he's ready to move on with his life, but one accident may bring more than just suffering to the two drifting friends.
~
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If The Shoe Fits by:
onew / 2277w / pg13 /
Jaejoong is fond of surprises, except the ones in which he foresees himself failing miserably and falling hard.
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Every Good Thing by:
vhii1217 / pg13 / supernatural / fantasy
So he decided. He would go to look for an absolute ‘good thing’ that created ‘happiness’. With that ‘happiness’, he would fill the emptiness in his heart and move on.
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And Then there Were Four... by:
sahbel / pg13 / 1843w
"I fell off a building."
~
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Yearning by:
yakuso5u / g / slight angst / romance
You're always like that, hiding those things that are important me in that place that's always the same. So today, I'll go there first and wait for you...
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back to seoul by:
firelights / g / au / 2400w
Jaejoong's a musician, a singer, and one of his favourite jobs is playing piano in a jazz club two streets away from Changmin's house.
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Empirical Knowledge by:
jaejoong / pg-13 / drama / romance
Kim Jaejoong is a genius. However with a partner that is increasingly distant, a life that is increasingly boring, an evil French professor, and a student that he may or may not have a crush on, being a genius doesn't seem so great after all.
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When all other lights go out. by:
rennie_88 / fantasy / angst
He dared to go to the place where stars fell, all for a single wish.
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Maps by:
awoken / r / i n c o m p l e t e
"Shit," he whined, as Changmin's teeth closed down sharply on his flesh. "Come home with me now?"
"We can't leave unless we have another two or three people leave, too," Changmin mumbled against Jaejoong's skin. "It'd be too obvious otherwise. You've got to be more careful."
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One Summer by:
bicycleforfive / nc-17 / au / angst / romance / psychological
"I hate them." The words broke through the silence, disturbing the song of the cicadas as Changmin's scalding hot tears rolls down his cheeks.
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my oven full of sunshineby:
pikasu / pg-13 / 12940w / romance/ fluff / drama / angst
Changmin is a weatherman with an unusual ability. Jaejoong is an award-winning chef that's not as cheerful as he seems. Together, they meet, cook up a storm and slip sunshine into each other's little ovens in life.
-last updated: 07082014-