Addictive Obsession - Chapter seventeen [part I]
Title: Addictive obsession
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~ And now his facebook and OMG, youtube account!!
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Thirteenth Scent ~ Body
Fourteenth Scent ~ Memory
Fifteenth Scent ~ Toxic
Sixteenth Scent ~ Narcotic
Chapter seventeen
Seventeenth scent ~ Hollow
When you find yourself seeing your life passing in front of your eyes like a train hurrying to its destination, you never doubt the need of something to put an end to those horrible flashbacks from the life you wish you never had. And you will do anything, you will beg, cry, threaten -anything as long as you’ll get that something. It doesn’t matter that it’s deep inflicted in your body or that you can’t get it out of your system, you just want more of the bliss that made you forget about those awful moments of your life.
But as paradise is easily demolished, when you don’t get them, all you find is the hell you never had the courage to face. All of your demons are back and their torture is unceasing and a thousand times more awful than before. You crave for the paradise, your body craves for soothing and your mind craves for obliviousness.
Kazuya knew all of this. Worst, he felt all of this eating him alive and he’d rather succumb to a quick death than what he was trying right now. But he’ll try again, he’ll prove stronger than the drugs, stronger than the demons from his past. But from the moment his hands began shaking uncontrollably, his mouth was dry even after drinking water and there was an itch begging to be scratched, Kazuya had known this time won’t be as easy as the first time. This time, he was trying alone without doctors, only with Jin by his side. And this time the demons were stronger and the drugs needier. Silently, the younger hoped that he’ll survive in the end.
As one day passed, he could still control that urge of indulging himself into drugs, there was apparently no problem. But there were nightmares, there were cries of help and the soothing arms of Jin around him. Kazuya would suddenly come back to reality, with tears streaming down his cheeks, with a hoarse voice and with a body drenched in sweat. He’d wake up hearing Jin’s voice promising better things, encouraging him to endure, to fight off the past. And Kazuya would cuddle in that warmth that Jin offered, keeping away his demons.
But even so, things weren’t going like they hoped. Soon, Kazuya - desperate for drugs - began to scratch his skin, making it bleed, making it painful even to look at. Somewhere, inside his head, he reacted to pain with pain. And there were long and sparkling red cuts on his arms and on his neck. Slowly, but clearly, the younger was submitting to his need and was forsaking his reason. And when he began to chew on his fingers, leaving them raw and red, Jin had no choice but to have him tied up. And this happened only after a week since they had started this.
Only at night, when Kazuya would face his nightmares, Jin would untie and hold him, kissing his chewed fingers and the tears that never stopped. And Kazuya was Kazuya only when the nightmares were back.
As days passed, Kazuya turned from bad to worst. He was now tied to the bed, sheets tangled around him and there were scratches on his arms and chest. His lips were bitten to blood and if not for Jin’s treatment, they would have been dry and split. Kazuya was lost in his need for drugs and there was little reason left in his actions. And sometimes he would scream, he would threaten and cry, he would go from mad to madder. Yet he never stopped from begging for drugs and neither did the nightmares stop.
If the days were rough, the nights were even more. Because each time Kazuya would drown in a pitch black pit and memories from his childhood would unceasingly haunt him, his cries of help and his need for drugs growing more and more. And each time he was denied, he would succumb even more into the madness, forgetting who was near him or who wasn’t. There was just his mother and her clients that were going to crush him and his body every time, slowly destroying his spirit. It was so much to endure and his body was pleading for some medicine; there would be itches to scratch, desires to drown and Kazuya wasn’t able to do anything. And if he could have done so, he would have hurt his body in order to gain what it needed.
The door opened and light flooded the semi obscure room. Kazuya turned his blood-shot eyes to the person who entered. He licked his lips and let a growl escape. His vision was hazy, but he could see the shape of a man. “Give them to me.” He croaked and arched his body towards the man. “And I’ll give you something in exchange. Something better that you’ll love~” Kazuya continued after a pause in which he received no answer and moved his body suggestively. He continued to lick his lips and showed his tongue as in demonstration of what he will do. “Come here…” the younger purred low and throaty, letting a moan escape his lips.
It was the first attempt of the addicted Kazuya to try and seduce Jin into giving him drugs.
Jin stopped in front of the door and looked at Kazuya with an arched eyebrow. “Glad to see you’re feeling better.” He scoffed, approaching the younger and sitting next to him on the bed. He lifted his hand and touched the younger’s cheek, caressing it with slow and gentle touches, his thumb drawing a thing line on his red lips.
Kazuya opened his mouth and drew Jin’s thumb into it, sucking slowly, his tongue curling around it. He looked at Jin, not really recognizing him. The older one sighed, his body trembling a little as his eyes fixed themselves on Kazuya’s tongue. The need of sex was starting to make its presence but Jin bit his lower lip as he pulled back his finger from the boy’s mouth and leaned over him to place a small kiss on his lips. “What are you doing?” he asked with a husky voice, even if it was kind of obvious that Kazuya wanted to offer Jin what he wanted most in that moment.
The younger’s eyes were darkened and he caught Jin’s lips with his, forcing his tongue inside the other’s cavern. There was a great amount of need in that kiss Kazuya offered and it wasn’t in the least related to sexual desire. So he plunged deeper into Jin’s mouth, his lips brushing roughly against the older one’s as Kazuya’s kiss was rather unceremonious. There were hidden pleas behind every action of Kazuya’s and the boy would resort to anything if that meant he could have his dose or overdose, anything that will erase the pain and need.
Jin answered to the kiss, oblivious to Kazuya’s real intentions and too immersed into their kiss to notice that maybe something was off. The only thing on his mind was Kazuya, his body, his mouth and his lips that made him go crazy every time he kissed them or even saw the younger brushing his tongue on them. They were maddening, as everything that was Kazuya, and Jin wasn’t planning to think about anything else than his own need that hadn’t been satisfied for days, since the moment he had promised his lover to help him with giving up at drugs.
“Kazuya…” Jin whispered his name with an aroused voice, as he climbed a little into the bed, putting one leg on it and bending it to reach further into Kazuya’s mouth, his hands cupping his cheeks and touching them lightly for now.
Just a little more, Kazuya’s mind said and his body moved towards Jin, his mouth gluing itself even closer to Jin’s. And moments later, he detached from Jin and with small pants, he licked his lips again, making a sound as of a satisfied cat. “There will be more…” he said to Jin as his eyes pointed to his own body. “…just give me drugs.” He added, now looking straight at the older one, lips parted and tongue slightly darting through them, inviting to naughty thoughts.
Jin laughed. He should have expected that, he thought as he lifted his body a little to look properly at Kazuya. He shook his head, cursing himself because he hadn’t realized the younger’s hidden intentions and wanting to hit himself for getting hard so fast. Oh, well, he shrugged, he knew that Kazuya would want to use every tactic that he had to convince Jin to give him drugs, but that didn’t mean that he couldn’t have a little fun while he was suffering from abstinence.
So he smirked and his eyes found Kazuya’s, staring into them and seeing what lied beyond the brown color. It wasn’t lust, he now understood, it was the power of the drugs that made the younger do things like this. “Kazuya,” he said with an amused voice, “if I want to fuck you, you can’t stop me seeing as you’re tied up like that.” Jin chuckled and stuck out his tongue in a playful way. “But…” he continued as he leaned over Kazuya once more, their lips briefly touching, “I can give you something else that would make you lose your mind.” He said, looking into Kazuya’s eyes and biting hard his lower lip, sinking his teeth into it and drawing blood from it - intentionally hurting the boy even more.
He was kind of frustrated with this situation and even if he knew that it was for Kazuya’s own good, he couldn’t help but torture the younger a little more. Just to make him feel as useless as Jin did in that moment, when he couldn’t touch or take advantage of the boy, not even to mention that he couldn’t help him more than distracting him from drugs.
Kazuya whimpered and turned his head from Jin, his body burning and hurting. “Drug me into losing my mind.” He said on a distant voice as he licked his lips constantly. “That’s the perfect solution.” He added and began on chewing his lips, a habit he had developed since Jin had tied his hands to not let him chew his fingers.
“I can surely do that.” Jin laughed softly as he crushed his mouth against Kazuya’s again, stopping him from chewing and instead licking his lips gently and sucking on them with a soothing movement. It was a slow kiss, one that was meant for Jin to remember what Kazuya meant for him and that he couldn’t just take him like that. A kiss that - even if it was normally arousing - calmed down a little Jin’s hormones, while he kept his eyes closed and enjoyed the feeling of Kazuya’s bruised lips against his own dry ones.
He detached himself from the kiss a little and put a small distance between them, his eyes never leaving the boy. His hand had never left Kazuya’s cheek and Jin continued to caress it gently with a small smile plastered on his face. But his voice was cold and composed when he spoke. “I’m not going to give you drugs.” He said, sounding firm and confident. “Nothing that you do can change my mind.” He added, letting his free hand roam on Kazuya’s arm, brushing on it from his shoulder to his fingers, entwining his hand with the younger’s.
“Then get away from me!!” Kazuya suddenly shouted, his eyes bulging and his lips bleeding again. “Don’t take advantage of me if you don’t give me anything!” he added with hatred and began to kick with his legs the thin air. “Go away!! I don’t want to see you! GO!!” he continued shouting, his eyes closed and his body still moving furiously.
Jin sighed again, being now a little familiar with Kazuya’s fits when his body screamed the most because of its need for drugs. “Kazuya, calm down.” He said with a gentle voice, hoping that the boy will feel his intentions and would stop. “Calm down or I’m going to tie your legs too.” He then threatened, even if his voice didn’t seem to have that sharp edge that it once had when Jin wanted something with any cost.
And, miraculously, Kazuya calmed down, but when he spoke to Jin it was clearly wrong. “If I’ll be a good boy, will you give them to me?” he asked the older, teary eyes and everything. “Just a bit… on the tip of my tongue.” The boy showed the tip of his tongue wearing an expression of a lonely puppy. “Pleeeease…” he whined with his tongue still between his lips.
“If you behave, I promise that I’ll untie your hands.” Jin said instead, hoping that at least this would please Kazuya. He knew that his wrists and arms were hurting even if he had tried to tie them with care and using something that wouldn’t hurt much, but Kazuya’s struggles have made that impossible. At least, there wasn’t any drug in the younger’s system anymore and Jin knew that he only needed more time until Kazuya will start to feel better with this sensation and won’t need those stupid drugs that bad.
“Noooooooo~” Kazuya whined some more, flipping his legs and crying like a little child. He also rattled the headboard on which his hands were tied, making a lot of noise. But soon all this stopped, including the chewing of his lips too and Kazuya looked at Jin with round and blood-shot eyes. “Really?” he asked on a distrusting voice. It took him a while to process everything Jin had said since he had refused supplying him drugs. “You’re lying!” The boy snarled and shot daggers at the older man. “You said before that you’ll give me drugs if I sleep with you! I can’t trust you, liar!” He added, shaking his head in denial several times.
“And I gave you drugs, didn’t I?” Jin replied, taking a deep breath and preparing himself for one more round of Kazuya’s madness. “I supplied you with drugs as long as you needed but now I won’t because you told me not to.” He added with a knowing smile, continuing quickly to not let the boy interrupt him: “And you can’t change your mind now, the deal is off anyway.” He shrugged a little, a small smile curling up his lips.
“Liar, liar, liar, liar!!” Kazuya began to sing, flipping his legs again. “Evil, evil, evil!!” he added and he began to bounce his body on the bed, even if it hurt. Kazuya was near the boundaries of madness and there was no assurance that he will be able to not cross it.
“Kazuya, I swear that I’ll fucking tie your fucking whole body if you don’t stop moving fucking now!!” Jin threatened, now his annoyance visible in his voice as he raised himself up from the bed and looked from above at the younger with an expression that clearly said that he was going to do what he threatened this time. “This way, I’ll show you that I’m no liar.” He then added with a sweet tone, tilting his head a little and looking scary rather than cute.
“Will you give them now?” the younger asked and even if his body stopped from moving, he was now chewing again on his lips. “Will you untie me now?” he continued to ask, licking the blood that he had caused to drip.
“I said that I’ll untie you if you behave. Show me a good example for a couple of days and I’ll keep my word to let you free.” Jin bargained, hoping that he wasn’t making a mistake in doing so. It didn’t matter after all, because even if Kazuya would be free, Jin won’t leave his side not even for a moment to stop him from doing anything crazy. Besides, maybe the prospect of freedom will determine Kazuya to refrain his outbursts and his crave for drugs.
“A couple of days?!” Kazuya asked with a whiny voice. It was impossible, even if Kazuya wanted so. But he had other ideas, better ones. “Then go away! When you’re not here, I feel better!” he shooed Jin, moving a leg towards him as if he wanted to push him out. “I will behave if you’re away!” he added with stubbornness.
“Okay, I will go.” Jin accepted easily, already heading for the door. “I’ll come back later with your dinner.” He added as he opened the door and stepped outside.
*
Jin had never thought that this will be easy or that Kazuya will indeed keep his promise and try more to fight his addiction, but it seemed that the younger had remembered his will to fight off the drugs from his system and Jin had to admit that he was doing a lot better than before. He had no idea what exactly had managed to convince Kazuya, but Jin wasn’t that concerned about this as he was about the fact that the boy was finally showing some progress.
He still remembered the first days when Kazuya had started this. Jin hadn’t thought that it was that bad, maybe because he had never seen the younger in such a situation and he had no idea how addicted was Kazuya to drugs. The younger hadn’t been right when he had said that he only needed them once in a while because it was clearly that his body needed them desperately and even more as Kazuya was trying to fight his urges. It was frankly unbearable to watch him in so much pain, especially when it was partly his fault seeing as he had supplied Kazuya with drugs and had offered him ways to get them for free. But he had never known and frankly, he had never cared that Kazuya was in such a difficult situation until he had realized that he had fallen in love with the younger.
And now, he was afraid that he had been too late, especially when he couldn’t do anything but stand next to Kazuya when he would scream for drugs, get annoyed at Jin for not giving them or just cry because of his nightmares. It was terrible to just sit by, knowing that the only thing he could do was to try and offer support and comfort.
Fortunately, it seemed that this phase had finally passed.
Of course, it wasn’t as if Kazuya had gotten rid of his addiction so fast. After the boy had made that promise to him - the older one had been determined to see it as a promise and as a sign that his lover was finally recovering - Jin had taken the liberty to supervise the younger when he wasn’t aware that Jin was watching him and he had seen him struggling to get rid of his ties but without any success. But usually Kazuya wouldn’t insist that long and he would always give up with a frustrated sigh, letting his hands hang above the bed without bothering to do something about them. And Jin would spend a lot of time then watching Kazuya and wanting to see when he’ll try again to fight off his bindings but this never happened and he would always leave with a smile on his lips.
Until the next time when he’ll catch Kazuya doing this again.
Nevertheless, it was a great improvement and Jin was proud of Kazuya. He hadn’t left the house since he had told Kazuya that he would untie him if he acted nice and this was the third day since he had made that promise. It was time to fulfill it so Jin had woken up earlier that day, drank his coffee and then returned to their room with a wide smile on his lips, excited that Kazuya will be finally free - even if this didn’t meant that he won’t be put under observation or that his every move won’t be watched anymore.
But the sad part of all this was that Jin had no idea how much had Kazuya faked his moments of silence or that the calmness that Jin had witnessed was just an image that Kazuya had wanted him to see.
“Rise and shine, sleepy-head!” he exclaimed excitedly, entering the room and heading to the windows to draw the curtains and let the light come into the room. “It’s time to wake up!” he added, jumping on the bed and looking nervously at Kazuya, biting his lips and wondering how will the younger react when he’ll notice that Jin hadn’t tied him up again after waking up, as he did every night after he managed to lure Kazuya back to sleep and he was certain that nightmares won’t appear again.
Kazuya opened his eyes lazily, feeling tired and rusty. He turned to look at Jin who was smiling and for a moment, the younger felt the need to erase that annoying smile he didn’t want to see, not when he was suffering that much. But it passed and this way he noticed his freed hands, his eyes widening with disbelief clearly written in them. Not until he lifted his hands - which were heavy and marked - Kazuya stopped doubting the feeling of being free. He gulped once, twice and he touched his hands, as a trapped man would do.
“You really untied me.” He croaked as he looked at Jin. His throat felt raspy and he needed water. “Give me some water, please.” Kazuya asked, licking his dry lips.
“As I promised.” Jin answered happily, turning a little to take the bottle of water that he had brought with him earlier and handing it to Kazuya, not before giving the boy a small kiss on his lips. “Do you need any help?” he asked, looking concerned and worried.
Kazuya looked wary at Jin but shook his head. “I’m fine.” He said, opening the bottle with a somehow difficulty and drinking from it insatiable. He finished it and although his throat was not that rasp anymore, there was still something lingering and that won’t be satiated with simple water. Kazuya chose to ignore it and handed the bottle to Jin. “I’d like to shower.” He said as he looked at his own body. “Would you join me?” he then asked with a shy voice, fidgeting a little.
“It would be my pleasure.” Jin chuckled, not being able to stop himself from feeling excited at the idea that he had a somehow normal Kazuya back with him and even more - in the shower. He grinned as he left the bed and stopped next to it, stretching a hand to Kazuya to help him. He knew that it would be a little hard for him to walk, considering that he had been prohibited to do it for a week or so, but Jin was feeling happy to help him readjust to things. They will do it together and that was all that mattered for now. “Just tell me if you need anything else.” He smiled gently, hoping that he sounded encouraging enough.
Kazuya took the hand Jin offered and climbed off the bed, the muscles in his feet sore and weak. He clung onto Jin, smiling a bit. “I’ll need you to help me in the shower.” He said and lifted his face, now so close to Jin’s. “And don’t think of perverted things.” He added with a slight tease. Apparently, Kazuya was feeling better.
“I won’t.” Jin pouted, taking advantage of their closeness and stealing a kiss from Kazuya. “Or at least, I’ll try not to.” He shrugged a little, holding the younger by his waist. “No, let me rectify that. I won’t bother you and I’ll only help you with what you want me to.” He finally seemed to decide that he couldn’t control his body or thoughts, but he could listen to Kazuya.
The younger man laughed, his first real laugh since they started all this. “I like this helping you, it’s …” Kazuya licked his lips and looked innocently at Jin. “…umm, it’s refreshing.” He settled for this word though his eyes were saying differently. Then he leaned forward and whispered to Jin’s ears. “The shower will make us wet. Kind of thrilling, no?” Kazuya smiled and nudged the older one towards the bathroom.
”Kazuuu~” Jin whined, knowing that Kazuya liked to tease, especially when he knew that he won’t be giving any. “Don’t be so sure that I won’t attack you.” He continued, following the younger to the bathroom and closing the door behind them. “You know how I get when I’m horny.” He added with a smirk as his eyes traveled on Kazuya’s body, examining him with famished eyes.
The image wasn’t that very nice to be seen because Kazuya had lost a lot of weight in the past couple of weeks as he had refused to eat and had ended up vomiting almost all of the food that Jin had forced him to eat - and he had already been too skinny too begin with. He had dark circles around his eyes caused by the sleepless nights and his skin was pale, his body tired and barely moving, consequence of the fact that he hadn’t moved from the bed too much, just enough to go to the bathroom.
Nevertheless, Kazuya was still Kazuya and his appearance was always breathtaking for Jin as the older gulped once, thinking at how much time had passed since he had last felt the younger as his.
“Who said I don’t want you to attack me?” Kazuya replied teasingly as he slipped off his clothes, revealing his even skinner body. “And don’t just stand there. Strip.” He laughed as he grabbed the sliding doors of the shower and slipped a leg through them. “We’re here to shower.” He added with an innocent voice as he entered the cabin and turned on the water.
“Just don’t be sorry later.” Jin mumbled under his breath as he quickly disposed of his clothes, throwing them randomly in the bathroom and following Kazuya into the shower, closing the sliding door and leaving them trapped inside, the older one’s hands settling once again on the younger’s waist in a possessive manner. He smirked as he leaned down to kiss Kazuya’s lips slowly and gently, taking care to not hurt them more as they were already red and a little bloody again. “How are you feeling?” Jin asked, stopping the kiss and lifting his head a little to look into Kazuya’s eyes.
“Wet.” Kazuya replied with a small smile as the water was pouring down on them. “Clean.” He added, hugging Jin, his hands around the other’s neck. Kazuya placed a kiss on Jin’s shoulder. “Scrub my back…” he said slowly as the water was hitting his skin rapidly.
Jin sighed into their embrace, only now realizing how much he had missed this. It was good to have back the normal Kazuya and to have hopes that he won’t be falling into the same trap again. Maybe he was naïve for believing this, but he trusted Kazuya and he knew that the younger was strong enough to fight the urge of taking drugs. He stretched his hand to take a sponge and he poured a little shower gel on it, squishing it a little and spreading it on the younger’s back with slow and caring moves, as his hand roamed over his shoulders, back, waist and playfully teasing his butt cheeks only to draw back and have Jin looking at him with a smirk.
Kazuya looked back and replied with a kiss. “You’re digging your own grave.” He said against Jin’s lips, playfully toying with his tongue that was skimming over his mouth. Kazuya’s fingers got tangled in the wet mane of Jin’s and he pulled easily on the locks. “I’m sorry.” The younger mouthed inaudible, his eyes sparkling as he once more cuddled at Jin’s chest, keeping close the man who had come to be his shelter.
“I love you, Kazuya.” Jin simply replied, tightening his hold on the boy a little and continuing to rub the sponge on his delicate skin, cleaning yet again his shoulders and then kissing every spot after the water that continued to pour over them cleaned it. “I told you once before, I belong to you.” Jin reminded him, his lips curling up a little at the memory that wasn’t that distant for them. “I won’t blame you no matter what you do so you don’t have to be sorry.” He added, putting his hands on Kazuya’s shoulders and pushing him away a little to gaze into his eyes.
Kazuya smiled, a faint blush coloring his cheeks. “You’re cheesy, jerk.” The younger replied, sticking his tongue out. “I’d love to say that I want you to make me yours here, but I’m not sure I could resist you.” He then said, his eyes shining fervently. “So… bare with me, okay?” Kazuya added as he cupped Jin’s face and placed kisses all over it.
The older answered with a smirk as he responded to Kazuya’s advances. “Don’t worry, I have others ways.” He mumbled between their lips, reaching with one hand Kazuya’s cheek and tilting his head a little to deepen their kiss and explore even more of that warmth that he had missed so much while his other hand slipped between their bodies and cupped the younger’s cock, starting to stroke it slowly and with teasing moves. “Good?” he asked, detaching their mouths only to whisper the question and then attacking the boy again, having missed his taste for far too long.
And Kazuya had to cling onto Jin, feeling suddenly limp and aroused. The way Jin’s fingers were curled around his member, the way the hand moved and teased the sensitive skin of it made Kazuya feel like he hadn’t felt in two weeks already. He moaned into Jin’s mouth, losing control of his body, letting Jin take all of him or all that was left of him. Kazuya moved his hips a little, gasping when Jin’s hand tightened around his cock that was hardening under his movements. “J-Jin…” the younger mumbled when their lips parted. Kazuya looked at Jin, dripping wet and his eyes fogged with desire. “I-I might want you to do more…” he said, licking his lips, insecurity written all over his lustful face. His nails dug into Jin’s skin as the older pressed his thumb over the slit of his cock. “…if you keep doing this.” Kazuya managed to complete, trembling despite the warm water.
“As much as I’d want to take this even further,” Jin chuckled, a little amused by Kazuya’s reaction, but more aroused by the sounds that that sinful mouth produced, “we’ll stop at this I’m afraid.” He teased, grinding his hips into Kazuya’s body and catching both of their erections with one hand, rubbing them together while his mouth descended on the younger’s neck, biting gently and sucking slowly the wet skin.
As Kazuya leaned back, shivers passing down his spine as he felt the cold wall behind him, he slipped his hand too between the two of them and clasped around their cocks, teasing Jin’s one as much as the older was teasing his. He trembled under Jin’s mouth and when Jin’s teeth seeped into his skin, his hand tightened around the older one’s member, grazing it slowly with his nails. “Kiss me.” Kazuya breathed as his other hand lifted Jin’s head, now looking into his eyes. “Let me feel you at least this way…” he muttered before closing his mouth over Jin’s, slipping his tongue inside gently, slowly, tasting everything that was Jin.
Jin sighed into their kiss, letting Kazuya take control of it and just submitting to his will, to his every wish and desire. It felt good to be like this again, it felt good to feel wanted again by the one you loved, Jin thought as he tilted his head and followed Kazuya’s hand which was deep buried into his hair. He moaned, sensing as the thrusts on his erection fastened, and Jin followed the younger’s example, teasing even more the boy’s cock, running his hand down and up on it and enjoying the sounds of pleasure that Kazuya breathed into his mouth as their tongues battled into a forceful and passionate kiss, mouths sucking and teeth biting and wanting to mark the other as their own.
“Kazuya…” Jin gasped as the younger moaned again and buried his nails into Jin’s arm, looking for support as his legs were trembling even more now. “Like that.” he asked with a whine and complained loudly when Kazuya stopped his administrations and looked at him with a smirk plastered on his red lips.
“Like this?” Kazuya asked and moved his hand slowly over Jin’s member, pressing with his thumb against the slit before gripping it a little, not letting Jin come. “You want it?” he said as Kazuya buried his teeth in Jin’s lower lip and pulled on it slightly. “You want me to let you cum?” the younger purred and kissed forcefully Jin, his tongue entering like a fire and taking everything, not even giving Jin the chance to fight him off. Kazuya bucked his hips in Jin’s hands, his cock touching the other’s, now sensible to every touch. He curled his fingers around their heads and pushed his finger between them, creating friction and a desperate need. “You feel so much better when you’re in me than in my hand.” Kazuya whispered against Jin’s lips, his body trembling a little and his breath a little heavier.
“And you have no idea how much I’d want to fuck your ass rather than your hand.” Jin replied with a broken voice, trying to refrain from screaming or moaning loudly but failing miserably as Kazuya seemed to be determined to make him beg for release. He whimpered, gasped and whined, trying to make the younger give him what he wanted, forgetting about his own hand on Kazuya’s cock and thinking only at the sweet sensation of coming into his lover’s hand. “Kazuya, please…” he only needed a couple of minutes to beg, Kazuya’s voice and slow moves on his cock driving him mad and almost taking him over the edge.
Kazuya’s eyes darkened at the pleading voice of Jin’s and he almost didn’t want to offer the other’s release, just because of that simple please. He had pleaded countless time in front of Jin and he hadn’t been listened to. But Kazuya smirked and tilted his head with a teasing expression. “Say please more.” He kissed Jin’s lips. “More.” A kiss, a slow move. “More.” Another kiss and a tight grip on Jin’s cock stopping him from coming.
“Ah!” Jin moaned and buried his head into Kazuya’s hair, trying to control his breath while his hand completely let go of the younger’s erection. “Please.” His mouth formed the word though it was muffled by the hot water pouring down on them. “I beg you.” He added with a louder voice as his hands found Kazuya’s waist and traveled down, cupping his ass cheeks with a forceful move as Jin tried yet again to refrain from moaning. “Please let me come.” He begged, throwing away all of his dignity in front of Kazuya and laying bare more than ever, all just for the pleasure that would come soon.
“Your wish is granted, my love.” Kazuya replied with a low chuckle and fastened his moves on Jin’s member, brushing his fingers over the reddened head as he began to kiss the other’s neck, his teeth grazing gently the skin and his tongue licking it to sooth. A few more thrusts and Jin came in his hand with a low moan that reverberated in the bathroom. Kazuya smirked and let his hand fall under the water spray, washing the semen away. “Now it’s your turn.” He looked at Jin with a malicious expression. “I want you down.” He whispered, licking his lips. “On your knees.” Kazuya tilted his head and smiled at Jin.
Jin looked back at Kazuya, still trying to regain his breath after the incredible orgasm he had just had - after two weeks without getting anything, even a hand job was incredible as long as it included Kazuya - and looking ruffled and toyed with. He smirked as he leaned over Kazuya and caught his lips into a kiss, devouring his mouth and clutching his hands into Kazuya’s hair, pulling on it with strength and pouring more power into their kiss. He sucked on his lips and gently pulled on them with his teeth, being careful to not hurt him anymore than he already was and using just enough strength to make him feel something good. His tongue traveled lower, placing kisses all over Kazuya’s neck, chest and belly, going down and playfully brushing his tongue over the younger’s shaft, looking from below at him and enjoying the short intake of breath that Kazuya had to take. The smirk reappeared on his lips as Jin caught the boy’s erection with his hand and traced a wet line on it using his tongue, his eyes still settled on Kazuya’s face and his head down, letting the water pour on his back.
Kazuya gasped and put one hand on the wall to support his body, while the other made its way to Jin’s hair, telling him silently to start already and give him what he needed. And the older hurried to comply with his request, engulfing his whole length from one move and starting to thrust his head up and down on the younger’s erection, cupping his balls in his hand and covering with his other hand where his mouth couldn’t reach, trying to deep-throat him and take Kazuya as deep as it was possible.
“Oh, fuck…” Kazuya muttered as he looked down at Jin, his body shuddering at the wonderful sensation Jin’s warm mouth could offer. “I knew your mouth was good… but now it’s awesome.” He managed to say through moans, his hand grasping tighter Jin’s hair. “Lick it.” He asked, feeling that if Jin was going to swallow him like that he’ll come faster when he was actually feeling masochistic. “Tease it.” He said, bucking his hips a little, suppressing the urge to spill himself over Jin’s face.
Jin refrained from laughing at Kazuya’s masochistic words and just did what the younger asked him to, slowing his pace and letting his hands settle on the boy’s waist now, directing his hips and continuing to suck his cock, his eyes now concentrating on the view surrounding his mouth. He gave it one more lick before detaching himself from it, closing his eyes while his hand searched for the tap to turn the water off and give him more space to move. Jin continued to lean down, kissing Kazuya’s legs one by one, caressing his knee with his tongue and gently lifting his right foot to place a small kiss on top of it, his eyes fixed again on the younger’s expression. He smiled as he sat on his knees and continued to kiss every part of Kazuya’s body, letting his hands cover where his lips couldn’t reach from that position, taking his time with this and only brushing his tongue on Kazuya’s cock for a few times.
“Tell me more.” Jin whispered against his erection as he wanted to hear more of Kazuya’s voice, he wanted to enjoy more of the younger’s dominating personality which always managed to give Jin shivers and make him tremble with excitement.
Kazuya was slowly losing himself under Jin’s administrations, his legs now trembling and craving for more touches. He was gasping loudly and he was feeling more aroused than ever, making his masochistic side win over his desire of release. He shuddered in front of Jin, his cock twitching as it was brushed by the older one’s breath. “Take it slowly in your mouth and look only at me.” Kazuya asked Jin, his breath uneven and his hand stretched towards his lover to cup his face and pass his thumb over those plump lips.
Jin smiled, obviously happy that his little wish had been complied, and licked the top of Kazuya’s cock, a small smirk appearing on his lips as he looked at the erection with devilish eyes. He grinned and looked up at Kazuya, beginning to slowly take his shaft into his mouth, taking his time with every little inch of it, sucking it with his lips and teasing it with his teeth as he advanced slowly but firmly until he couldn’t take anymore. He blinked twice, his eyes still fixed on Kazuya as this had been the order and waited patiently for the next one, not moving at all and just breathing deeply on the younger’s cock.
“You’re feeling M too?” Kazuya asked with a loud groan as he pushed slowly into Jin’s mouth. “I want to see your tongue while you’re licking it.” He demanded with a smirk. “And don’t forget to look at me. I want to see you…” The younger added, licking his lips suggestively.
‘I’m feeling quite sadistic as I enjoy torturing you, but I love more to hear you ordering me with that aroused voice of yours.’ Jin said in his mind as he blinked again, trying to smirk and succeeding only a little as his mouth was still full with something else. He started to bob his head on Kazuya’s length, using more of his tongue than his lips to touch the sensitive skin, cheating a little and brushing his teeth along with his lips as he tried to show Kazuya the show that he wanted to see. He let go suddenly and caught the boy’s erection with his hand, looking up while he extended his tongue and ran it over the shaft, fast and needy, as his lips tried to catch some of the cock and giving Kazuya a different kind of blowjob.
Either this was the hottest sight ever, either Kazuya was dreaming. The younger closed his eyes for a moment, enjoying the sensations, then he reopened them, looking at Jin with a lustful expression, his mouth dry and chest rising from the harsh breaths. “Come here.” He said to Jin, wriggling his finger to make the other stand up. “I want your lips on mine.” He whispered, waves of pleasure rising in his too heated body. “Make me come when you’re kissing me.” Kazuya demanded, feeling like he won’t take long until his release and that he wanted Jin to kiss him quicker, to ravish him completely.
Jin followed Kazuya’s order and sat up slowly, leaving wet kisses all over his heated skin as he climbed up on Kazuya’s chest with his lips, caressing his forgotten cock with his hand as his lips landed on the younger’s, kissing him deeply and moving his hand fast, driving Kazuya over the edge fast and hard and leaving him breathing intensively. Jin smirked as he lifted his hand and licked his fingers covered by Kazuya’s sperm one by one, his eyes locked with the boy’s, watching Kazuya watching his tongue running over his fingers almost painfully slow and smirking knowingly. “Like what you see?” he asked with a husky voice and darkened eyes, feeling how his own hard-on was coming back to life.
“Allow me.” Kazuya replied instead and took Jin’s hand, showing the older one how to do properly finger fellatio. He ran his tongue over one finger before swallowing it and grazing it slowly, feeling his own taste. Then with a swift move, he took the second finger in his mouth and began to play with his tongue between them, licking and teasing them. Kazuya looked at Jin and his tongue darted a little from the fingers, wriggling it at the older as if he was inviting him to join. And indeed he was, because what was better than one tongue blowjob? Two tongues doing a blowjob.
Jin gulped, the image in front of him being too much arousing to resist it. He came closer, sucking on his own fingers and brushing his tongue over Kazuya’s from time to time, engaging into a little kiss just to stop and begin yet again to clean his fingers from the younger’s sperm, their eyes never leaving each other and almost like challenging the other to see who lasted longer. “Kazuya?” Jin called the younger’s name with a whisper, giving up at his hand and just capturing the boy’s lips into another kiss, as it never felt enough.
Kazuya moaned into the kiss and griped with one hand Jin’s hair, pulling him towards him, their bodies crushing into each other, insatiable of everything. Their tongues were engaged in a wild dance, their lips were bruised and bitten, but neither one cared. They felt that they had so much more passion to be consumed, desire bursting out even from a single touch. Drunk with passion, Kazuya’s free hand spread on the wall searching for the water tap and he turned it on, cold water pouring down and making them yelp in surprise.
“We need to chill.” Kazuya laughed and kissed Jin shortly on the lips. “We have forgotten our purpose here.” He breathed against the other’s lips and he detached quickly, not allowing any more touching, otherwise they won’t be able to stop. He turned the hot water tap on, mixing them. Kazuya looked at Jin and smiled.
Jin smiled back - not being able to stop it from appearing on his lips - but then he quickly frowned and pouted, remembering the younger’s words. “It’s your fault! I really intended to play nice this time...” he said with a serious voice, immediately bursting in laughter.
Kazuya joined him and took the sponge, squishing him with an innocent expression. “Which part should we rub first?” he asked with sparkling eyes and his tongue passed lasciviously over his lips.
Jin just kissed him again as a response and the two lovers spent their time together after that by washing each other, teasing and laughing, feeling like every bad thing had been left behind and that they could finally move on. Kazuya seemed to be feeling a lot better and Jin couldn’t help but be happy that he had his old lover back, the one who responded so easily to his every touch but would be stubbornly defying him with every occasion. He had missed being like this with Kazuya and he had to admit that it had been hard to just watch the younger one hurting himself and screaming at Jin to give him drugs. He hadn’t wanted to ever see Kazuya in such a situation, but he was also guilty of this so Jin had braced himself and had stayed with the boy, helping him and refusing to give him what had been causing so much pain to him.
All good things come to an end eventually though, so they needed to step out of the shower at some point and go back to bed. Jin took care to carefully and gently wipe the water off of Kazuya’s body and then lifted him to his arms, carrying the boy back to the bedroom as it was obvious that he was feeling too tired to even move. His eyes were closing themselves against his will and Jin had to chuckle at the way Kazuya had cuddled into his arms, refusing to let him go even after they had settled on the bed.
“Come on, you need to get dressed or you’ll catch a cold.” The older one advised but received only a groan and a sleepy moan in response. A sigh followed as Jin climbed out of bed and decided to take matters into his own hands, searching for new clothes for the both of them and getting them dressed. When he finally finished - Kazuya first and him second - he looked down only to find his lover already sleeping peacefully.
It was weird how he couldn’t stop smiling as he watched the younger one sleeping for a few minutes before finally deciding to leave the room. But things were finally looking so good for them and he couldn’t help but be happy that Kazuya was slowly but surely recovering and that there were no more obstacles in their way. No more Ueda, no more drugs, no more insecurities. They were going to be fine and they were going to stay together forever, as he had wished for since the day he had realized that Kazuya meant more for him than any other person.
He loved Kazuya how he had never loved anyone and just the fact that he could see his smile and could receive his kisses was making him more satisfied than he could ever tell. He was possessive, indeed, but maybe for Kazuya he could also change. The boy had definitely tried to do so for his sake, so maybe he could do the same and maybe even grant a few of the younger one’s wishes.
With these thoughts in mind, Jin closed the door of the apartment behind him and left the building. He could use this time, now that Kazuya was sleeping, to go and buy the things that he had been meaning to buy since a few days ago, before that promise between them had been made. At least now, he could go and leave the younger one alone knowing that nothing will happen.
He had no idea how wrong he was.
PART II
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~ And now his facebook and OMG, youtube account!!
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Thirteenth Scent ~ Body
Fourteenth Scent ~ Memory
Fifteenth Scent ~ Toxic
Sixteenth Scent ~ Narcotic
Chapter seventeen
Seventeenth scent ~ Hollow
When you find yourself seeing your life passing in front of your eyes like a train hurrying to its destination, you never doubt the need of something to put an end to those horrible flashbacks from the life you wish you never had. And you will do anything, you will beg, cry, threaten -anything as long as you’ll get that something. It doesn’t matter that it’s deep inflicted in your body or that you can’t get it out of your system, you just want more of the bliss that made you forget about those awful moments of your life.
But as paradise is easily demolished, when you don’t get them, all you find is the hell you never had the courage to face. All of your demons are back and their torture is unceasing and a thousand times more awful than before. You crave for the paradise, your body craves for soothing and your mind craves for obliviousness.
Kazuya knew all of this. Worst, he felt all of this eating him alive and he’d rather succumb to a quick death than what he was trying right now. But he’ll try again, he’ll prove stronger than the drugs, stronger than the demons from his past. But from the moment his hands began shaking uncontrollably, his mouth was dry even after drinking water and there was an itch begging to be scratched, Kazuya had known this time won’t be as easy as the first time. This time, he was trying alone without doctors, only with Jin by his side. And this time the demons were stronger and the drugs needier. Silently, the younger hoped that he’ll survive in the end.
As one day passed, he could still control that urge of indulging himself into drugs, there was apparently no problem. But there were nightmares, there were cries of help and the soothing arms of Jin around him. Kazuya would suddenly come back to reality, with tears streaming down his cheeks, with a hoarse voice and with a body drenched in sweat. He’d wake up hearing Jin’s voice promising better things, encouraging him to endure, to fight off the past. And Kazuya would cuddle in that warmth that Jin offered, keeping away his demons.
But even so, things weren’t going like they hoped. Soon, Kazuya - desperate for drugs - began to scratch his skin, making it bleed, making it painful even to look at. Somewhere, inside his head, he reacted to pain with pain. And there were long and sparkling red cuts on his arms and on his neck. Slowly, but clearly, the younger was submitting to his need and was forsaking his reason. And when he began to chew on his fingers, leaving them raw and red, Jin had no choice but to have him tied up. And this happened only after a week since they had started this.
Only at night, when Kazuya would face his nightmares, Jin would untie and hold him, kissing his chewed fingers and the tears that never stopped. And Kazuya was Kazuya only when the nightmares were back.
As days passed, Kazuya turned from bad to worst. He was now tied to the bed, sheets tangled around him and there were scratches on his arms and chest. His lips were bitten to blood and if not for Jin’s treatment, they would have been dry and split. Kazuya was lost in his need for drugs and there was little reason left in his actions. And sometimes he would scream, he would threaten and cry, he would go from mad to madder. Yet he never stopped from begging for drugs and neither did the nightmares stop.
If the days were rough, the nights were even more. Because each time Kazuya would drown in a pitch black pit and memories from his childhood would unceasingly haunt him, his cries of help and his need for drugs growing more and more. And each time he was denied, he would succumb even more into the madness, forgetting who was near him or who wasn’t. There was just his mother and her clients that were going to crush him and his body every time, slowly destroying his spirit. It was so much to endure and his body was pleading for some medicine; there would be itches to scratch, desires to drown and Kazuya wasn’t able to do anything. And if he could have done so, he would have hurt his body in order to gain what it needed.
The door opened and light flooded the semi obscure room. Kazuya turned his blood-shot eyes to the person who entered. He licked his lips and let a growl escape. His vision was hazy, but he could see the shape of a man. “Give them to me.” He croaked and arched his body towards the man. “And I’ll give you something in exchange. Something better that you’ll love~” Kazuya continued after a pause in which he received no answer and moved his body suggestively. He continued to lick his lips and showed his tongue as in demonstration of what he will do. “Come here…” the younger purred low and throaty, letting a moan escape his lips.
It was the first attempt of the addicted Kazuya to try and seduce Jin into giving him drugs.
Jin stopped in front of the door and looked at Kazuya with an arched eyebrow. “Glad to see you’re feeling better.” He scoffed, approaching the younger and sitting next to him on the bed. He lifted his hand and touched the younger’s cheek, caressing it with slow and gentle touches, his thumb drawing a thing line on his red lips.
Kazuya opened his mouth and drew Jin’s thumb into it, sucking slowly, his tongue curling around it. He looked at Jin, not really recognizing him. The older one sighed, his body trembling a little as his eyes fixed themselves on Kazuya’s tongue. The need of sex was starting to make its presence but Jin bit his lower lip as he pulled back his finger from the boy’s mouth and leaned over him to place a small kiss on his lips. “What are you doing?” he asked with a husky voice, even if it was kind of obvious that Kazuya wanted to offer Jin what he wanted most in that moment.
The younger’s eyes were darkened and he caught Jin’s lips with his, forcing his tongue inside the other’s cavern. There was a great amount of need in that kiss Kazuya offered and it wasn’t in the least related to sexual desire. So he plunged deeper into Jin’s mouth, his lips brushing roughly against the older one’s as Kazuya’s kiss was rather unceremonious. There were hidden pleas behind every action of Kazuya’s and the boy would resort to anything if that meant he could have his dose or overdose, anything that will erase the pain and need.
Jin answered to the kiss, oblivious to Kazuya’s real intentions and too immersed into their kiss to notice that maybe something was off. The only thing on his mind was Kazuya, his body, his mouth and his lips that made him go crazy every time he kissed them or even saw the younger brushing his tongue on them. They were maddening, as everything that was Kazuya, and Jin wasn’t planning to think about anything else than his own need that hadn’t been satisfied for days, since the moment he had promised his lover to help him with giving up at drugs.
“Kazuya…” Jin whispered his name with an aroused voice, as he climbed a little into the bed, putting one leg on it and bending it to reach further into Kazuya’s mouth, his hands cupping his cheeks and touching them lightly for now.
Just a little more, Kazuya’s mind said and his body moved towards Jin, his mouth gluing itself even closer to Jin’s. And moments later, he detached from Jin and with small pants, he licked his lips again, making a sound as of a satisfied cat. “There will be more…” he said to Jin as his eyes pointed to his own body. “…just give me drugs.” He added, now looking straight at the older one, lips parted and tongue slightly darting through them, inviting to naughty thoughts.
Jin laughed. He should have expected that, he thought as he lifted his body a little to look properly at Kazuya. He shook his head, cursing himself because he hadn’t realized the younger’s hidden intentions and wanting to hit himself for getting hard so fast. Oh, well, he shrugged, he knew that Kazuya would want to use every tactic that he had to convince Jin to give him drugs, but that didn’t mean that he couldn’t have a little fun while he was suffering from abstinence.
So he smirked and his eyes found Kazuya’s, staring into them and seeing what lied beyond the brown color. It wasn’t lust, he now understood, it was the power of the drugs that made the younger do things like this. “Kazuya,” he said with an amused voice, “if I want to fuck you, you can’t stop me seeing as you’re tied up like that.” Jin chuckled and stuck out his tongue in a playful way. “But…” he continued as he leaned over Kazuya once more, their lips briefly touching, “I can give you something else that would make you lose your mind.” He said, looking into Kazuya’s eyes and biting hard his lower lip, sinking his teeth into it and drawing blood from it - intentionally hurting the boy even more.
He was kind of frustrated with this situation and even if he knew that it was for Kazuya’s own good, he couldn’t help but torture the younger a little more. Just to make him feel as useless as Jin did in that moment, when he couldn’t touch or take advantage of the boy, not even to mention that he couldn’t help him more than distracting him from drugs.
Kazuya whimpered and turned his head from Jin, his body burning and hurting. “Drug me into losing my mind.” He said on a distant voice as he licked his lips constantly. “That’s the perfect solution.” He added and began on chewing his lips, a habit he had developed since Jin had tied his hands to not let him chew his fingers.
“I can surely do that.” Jin laughed softly as he crushed his mouth against Kazuya’s again, stopping him from chewing and instead licking his lips gently and sucking on them with a soothing movement. It was a slow kiss, one that was meant for Jin to remember what Kazuya meant for him and that he couldn’t just take him like that. A kiss that - even if it was normally arousing - calmed down a little Jin’s hormones, while he kept his eyes closed and enjoyed the feeling of Kazuya’s bruised lips against his own dry ones.
He detached himself from the kiss a little and put a small distance between them, his eyes never leaving the boy. His hand had never left Kazuya’s cheek and Jin continued to caress it gently with a small smile plastered on his face. But his voice was cold and composed when he spoke. “I’m not going to give you drugs.” He said, sounding firm and confident. “Nothing that you do can change my mind.” He added, letting his free hand roam on Kazuya’s arm, brushing on it from his shoulder to his fingers, entwining his hand with the younger’s.
“Then get away from me!!” Kazuya suddenly shouted, his eyes bulging and his lips bleeding again. “Don’t take advantage of me if you don’t give me anything!” he added with hatred and began to kick with his legs the thin air. “Go away!! I don’t want to see you! GO!!” he continued shouting, his eyes closed and his body still moving furiously.
Jin sighed again, being now a little familiar with Kazuya’s fits when his body screamed the most because of its need for drugs. “Kazuya, calm down.” He said with a gentle voice, hoping that the boy will feel his intentions and would stop. “Calm down or I’m going to tie your legs too.” He then threatened, even if his voice didn’t seem to have that sharp edge that it once had when Jin wanted something with any cost.
And, miraculously, Kazuya calmed down, but when he spoke to Jin it was clearly wrong. “If I’ll be a good boy, will you give them to me?” he asked the older, teary eyes and everything. “Just a bit… on the tip of my tongue.” The boy showed the tip of his tongue wearing an expression of a lonely puppy. “Pleeeease…” he whined with his tongue still between his lips.
“If you behave, I promise that I’ll untie your hands.” Jin said instead, hoping that at least this would please Kazuya. He knew that his wrists and arms were hurting even if he had tried to tie them with care and using something that wouldn’t hurt much, but Kazuya’s struggles have made that impossible. At least, there wasn’t any drug in the younger’s system anymore and Jin knew that he only needed more time until Kazuya will start to feel better with this sensation and won’t need those stupid drugs that bad.
“Noooooooo~” Kazuya whined some more, flipping his legs and crying like a little child. He also rattled the headboard on which his hands were tied, making a lot of noise. But soon all this stopped, including the chewing of his lips too and Kazuya looked at Jin with round and blood-shot eyes. “Really?” he asked on a distrusting voice. It took him a while to process everything Jin had said since he had refused supplying him drugs. “You’re lying!” The boy snarled and shot daggers at the older man. “You said before that you’ll give me drugs if I sleep with you! I can’t trust you, liar!” He added, shaking his head in denial several times.
“And I gave you drugs, didn’t I?” Jin replied, taking a deep breath and preparing himself for one more round of Kazuya’s madness. “I supplied you with drugs as long as you needed but now I won’t because you told me not to.” He added with a knowing smile, continuing quickly to not let the boy interrupt him: “And you can’t change your mind now, the deal is off anyway.” He shrugged a little, a small smile curling up his lips.
“Liar, liar, liar, liar!!” Kazuya began to sing, flipping his legs again. “Evil, evil, evil!!” he added and he began to bounce his body on the bed, even if it hurt. Kazuya was near the boundaries of madness and there was no assurance that he will be able to not cross it.
“Kazuya, I swear that I’ll fucking tie your fucking whole body if you don’t stop moving fucking now!!” Jin threatened, now his annoyance visible in his voice as he raised himself up from the bed and looked from above at the younger with an expression that clearly said that he was going to do what he threatened this time. “This way, I’ll show you that I’m no liar.” He then added with a sweet tone, tilting his head a little and looking scary rather than cute.
“Will you give them now?” the younger asked and even if his body stopped from moving, he was now chewing again on his lips. “Will you untie me now?” he continued to ask, licking the blood that he had caused to drip.
“I said that I’ll untie you if you behave. Show me a good example for a couple of days and I’ll keep my word to let you free.” Jin bargained, hoping that he wasn’t making a mistake in doing so. It didn’t matter after all, because even if Kazuya would be free, Jin won’t leave his side not even for a moment to stop him from doing anything crazy. Besides, maybe the prospect of freedom will determine Kazuya to refrain his outbursts and his crave for drugs.
“A couple of days?!” Kazuya asked with a whiny voice. It was impossible, even if Kazuya wanted so. But he had other ideas, better ones. “Then go away! When you’re not here, I feel better!” he shooed Jin, moving a leg towards him as if he wanted to push him out. “I will behave if you’re away!” he added with stubbornness.
“Okay, I will go.” Jin accepted easily, already heading for the door. “I’ll come back later with your dinner.” He added as he opened the door and stepped outside.
*
Jin had never thought that this will be easy or that Kazuya will indeed keep his promise and try more to fight his addiction, but it seemed that the younger had remembered his will to fight off the drugs from his system and Jin had to admit that he was doing a lot better than before. He had no idea what exactly had managed to convince Kazuya, but Jin wasn’t that concerned about this as he was about the fact that the boy was finally showing some progress.
He still remembered the first days when Kazuya had started this. Jin hadn’t thought that it was that bad, maybe because he had never seen the younger in such a situation and he had no idea how addicted was Kazuya to drugs. The younger hadn’t been right when he had said that he only needed them once in a while because it was clearly that his body needed them desperately and even more as Kazuya was trying to fight his urges. It was frankly unbearable to watch him in so much pain, especially when it was partly his fault seeing as he had supplied Kazuya with drugs and had offered him ways to get them for free. But he had never known and frankly, he had never cared that Kazuya was in such a difficult situation until he had realized that he had fallen in love with the younger.
And now, he was afraid that he had been too late, especially when he couldn’t do anything but stand next to Kazuya when he would scream for drugs, get annoyed at Jin for not giving them or just cry because of his nightmares. It was terrible to just sit by, knowing that the only thing he could do was to try and offer support and comfort.
Fortunately, it seemed that this phase had finally passed.
Of course, it wasn’t as if Kazuya had gotten rid of his addiction so fast. After the boy had made that promise to him - the older one had been determined to see it as a promise and as a sign that his lover was finally recovering - Jin had taken the liberty to supervise the younger when he wasn’t aware that Jin was watching him and he had seen him struggling to get rid of his ties but without any success. But usually Kazuya wouldn’t insist that long and he would always give up with a frustrated sigh, letting his hands hang above the bed without bothering to do something about them. And Jin would spend a lot of time then watching Kazuya and wanting to see when he’ll try again to fight off his bindings but this never happened and he would always leave with a smile on his lips.
Until the next time when he’ll catch Kazuya doing this again.
Nevertheless, it was a great improvement and Jin was proud of Kazuya. He hadn’t left the house since he had told Kazuya that he would untie him if he acted nice and this was the third day since he had made that promise. It was time to fulfill it so Jin had woken up earlier that day, drank his coffee and then returned to their room with a wide smile on his lips, excited that Kazuya will be finally free - even if this didn’t meant that he won’t be put under observation or that his every move won’t be watched anymore.
But the sad part of all this was that Jin had no idea how much had Kazuya faked his moments of silence or that the calmness that Jin had witnessed was just an image that Kazuya had wanted him to see.
“Rise and shine, sleepy-head!” he exclaimed excitedly, entering the room and heading to the windows to draw the curtains and let the light come into the room. “It’s time to wake up!” he added, jumping on the bed and looking nervously at Kazuya, biting his lips and wondering how will the younger react when he’ll notice that Jin hadn’t tied him up again after waking up, as he did every night after he managed to lure Kazuya back to sleep and he was certain that nightmares won’t appear again.
Kazuya opened his eyes lazily, feeling tired and rusty. He turned to look at Jin who was smiling and for a moment, the younger felt the need to erase that annoying smile he didn’t want to see, not when he was suffering that much. But it passed and this way he noticed his freed hands, his eyes widening with disbelief clearly written in them. Not until he lifted his hands - which were heavy and marked - Kazuya stopped doubting the feeling of being free. He gulped once, twice and he touched his hands, as a trapped man would do.
“You really untied me.” He croaked as he looked at Jin. His throat felt raspy and he needed water. “Give me some water, please.” Kazuya asked, licking his dry lips.
“As I promised.” Jin answered happily, turning a little to take the bottle of water that he had brought with him earlier and handing it to Kazuya, not before giving the boy a small kiss on his lips. “Do you need any help?” he asked, looking concerned and worried.
Kazuya looked wary at Jin but shook his head. “I’m fine.” He said, opening the bottle with a somehow difficulty and drinking from it insatiable. He finished it and although his throat was not that rasp anymore, there was still something lingering and that won’t be satiated with simple water. Kazuya chose to ignore it and handed the bottle to Jin. “I’d like to shower.” He said as he looked at his own body. “Would you join me?” he then asked with a shy voice, fidgeting a little.
“It would be my pleasure.” Jin chuckled, not being able to stop himself from feeling excited at the idea that he had a somehow normal Kazuya back with him and even more - in the shower. He grinned as he left the bed and stopped next to it, stretching a hand to Kazuya to help him. He knew that it would be a little hard for him to walk, considering that he had been prohibited to do it for a week or so, but Jin was feeling happy to help him readjust to things. They will do it together and that was all that mattered for now. “Just tell me if you need anything else.” He smiled gently, hoping that he sounded encouraging enough.
Kazuya took the hand Jin offered and climbed off the bed, the muscles in his feet sore and weak. He clung onto Jin, smiling a bit. “I’ll need you to help me in the shower.” He said and lifted his face, now so close to Jin’s. “And don’t think of perverted things.” He added with a slight tease. Apparently, Kazuya was feeling better.
“I won’t.” Jin pouted, taking advantage of their closeness and stealing a kiss from Kazuya. “Or at least, I’ll try not to.” He shrugged a little, holding the younger by his waist. “No, let me rectify that. I won’t bother you and I’ll only help you with what you want me to.” He finally seemed to decide that he couldn’t control his body or thoughts, but he could listen to Kazuya.
The younger man laughed, his first real laugh since they started all this. “I like this helping you, it’s …” Kazuya licked his lips and looked innocently at Jin. “…umm, it’s refreshing.” He settled for this word though his eyes were saying differently. Then he leaned forward and whispered to Jin’s ears. “The shower will make us wet. Kind of thrilling, no?” Kazuya smiled and nudged the older one towards the bathroom.
”Kazuuu~” Jin whined, knowing that Kazuya liked to tease, especially when he knew that he won’t be giving any. “Don’t be so sure that I won’t attack you.” He continued, following the younger to the bathroom and closing the door behind them. “You know how I get when I’m horny.” He added with a smirk as his eyes traveled on Kazuya’s body, examining him with famished eyes.
The image wasn’t that very nice to be seen because Kazuya had lost a lot of weight in the past couple of weeks as he had refused to eat and had ended up vomiting almost all of the food that Jin had forced him to eat - and he had already been too skinny too begin with. He had dark circles around his eyes caused by the sleepless nights and his skin was pale, his body tired and barely moving, consequence of the fact that he hadn’t moved from the bed too much, just enough to go to the bathroom.
Nevertheless, Kazuya was still Kazuya and his appearance was always breathtaking for Jin as the older gulped once, thinking at how much time had passed since he had last felt the younger as his.
“Who said I don’t want you to attack me?” Kazuya replied teasingly as he slipped off his clothes, revealing his even skinner body. “And don’t just stand there. Strip.” He laughed as he grabbed the sliding doors of the shower and slipped a leg through them. “We’re here to shower.” He added with an innocent voice as he entered the cabin and turned on the water.
“Just don’t be sorry later.” Jin mumbled under his breath as he quickly disposed of his clothes, throwing them randomly in the bathroom and following Kazuya into the shower, closing the sliding door and leaving them trapped inside, the older one’s hands settling once again on the younger’s waist in a possessive manner. He smirked as he leaned down to kiss Kazuya’s lips slowly and gently, taking care to not hurt them more as they were already red and a little bloody again. “How are you feeling?” Jin asked, stopping the kiss and lifting his head a little to look into Kazuya’s eyes.
“Wet.” Kazuya replied with a small smile as the water was pouring down on them. “Clean.” He added, hugging Jin, his hands around the other’s neck. Kazuya placed a kiss on Jin’s shoulder. “Scrub my back…” he said slowly as the water was hitting his skin rapidly.
Jin sighed into their embrace, only now realizing how much he had missed this. It was good to have back the normal Kazuya and to have hopes that he won’t be falling into the same trap again. Maybe he was naïve for believing this, but he trusted Kazuya and he knew that the younger was strong enough to fight the urge of taking drugs. He stretched his hand to take a sponge and he poured a little shower gel on it, squishing it a little and spreading it on the younger’s back with slow and caring moves, as his hand roamed over his shoulders, back, waist and playfully teasing his butt cheeks only to draw back and have Jin looking at him with a smirk.
Kazuya looked back and replied with a kiss. “You’re digging your own grave.” He said against Jin’s lips, playfully toying with his tongue that was skimming over his mouth. Kazuya’s fingers got tangled in the wet mane of Jin’s and he pulled easily on the locks. “I’m sorry.” The younger mouthed inaudible, his eyes sparkling as he once more cuddled at Jin’s chest, keeping close the man who had come to be his shelter.
“I love you, Kazuya.” Jin simply replied, tightening his hold on the boy a little and continuing to rub the sponge on his delicate skin, cleaning yet again his shoulders and then kissing every spot after the water that continued to pour over them cleaned it. “I told you once before, I belong to you.” Jin reminded him, his lips curling up a little at the memory that wasn’t that distant for them. “I won’t blame you no matter what you do so you don’t have to be sorry.” He added, putting his hands on Kazuya’s shoulders and pushing him away a little to gaze into his eyes.
Kazuya smiled, a faint blush coloring his cheeks. “You’re cheesy, jerk.” The younger replied, sticking his tongue out. “I’d love to say that I want you to make me yours here, but I’m not sure I could resist you.” He then said, his eyes shining fervently. “So… bare with me, okay?” Kazuya added as he cupped Jin’s face and placed kisses all over it.
The older answered with a smirk as he responded to Kazuya’s advances. “Don’t worry, I have others ways.” He mumbled between their lips, reaching with one hand Kazuya’s cheek and tilting his head a little to deepen their kiss and explore even more of that warmth that he had missed so much while his other hand slipped between their bodies and cupped the younger’s cock, starting to stroke it slowly and with teasing moves. “Good?” he asked, detaching their mouths only to whisper the question and then attacking the boy again, having missed his taste for far too long.
And Kazuya had to cling onto Jin, feeling suddenly limp and aroused. The way Jin’s fingers were curled around his member, the way the hand moved and teased the sensitive skin of it made Kazuya feel like he hadn’t felt in two weeks already. He moaned into Jin’s mouth, losing control of his body, letting Jin take all of him or all that was left of him. Kazuya moved his hips a little, gasping when Jin’s hand tightened around his cock that was hardening under his movements. “J-Jin…” the younger mumbled when their lips parted. Kazuya looked at Jin, dripping wet and his eyes fogged with desire. “I-I might want you to do more…” he said, licking his lips, insecurity written all over his lustful face. His nails dug into Jin’s skin as the older pressed his thumb over the slit of his cock. “…if you keep doing this.” Kazuya managed to complete, trembling despite the warm water.
“As much as I’d want to take this even further,” Jin chuckled, a little amused by Kazuya’s reaction, but more aroused by the sounds that that sinful mouth produced, “we’ll stop at this I’m afraid.” He teased, grinding his hips into Kazuya’s body and catching both of their erections with one hand, rubbing them together while his mouth descended on the younger’s neck, biting gently and sucking slowly the wet skin.
As Kazuya leaned back, shivers passing down his spine as he felt the cold wall behind him, he slipped his hand too between the two of them and clasped around their cocks, teasing Jin’s one as much as the older was teasing his. He trembled under Jin’s mouth and when Jin’s teeth seeped into his skin, his hand tightened around the older one’s member, grazing it slowly with his nails. “Kiss me.” Kazuya breathed as his other hand lifted Jin’s head, now looking into his eyes. “Let me feel you at least this way…” he muttered before closing his mouth over Jin’s, slipping his tongue inside gently, slowly, tasting everything that was Jin.
Jin sighed into their kiss, letting Kazuya take control of it and just submitting to his will, to his every wish and desire. It felt good to be like this again, it felt good to feel wanted again by the one you loved, Jin thought as he tilted his head and followed Kazuya’s hand which was deep buried into his hair. He moaned, sensing as the thrusts on his erection fastened, and Jin followed the younger’s example, teasing even more the boy’s cock, running his hand down and up on it and enjoying the sounds of pleasure that Kazuya breathed into his mouth as their tongues battled into a forceful and passionate kiss, mouths sucking and teeth biting and wanting to mark the other as their own.
“Kazuya…” Jin gasped as the younger moaned again and buried his nails into Jin’s arm, looking for support as his legs were trembling even more now. “Like that.” he asked with a whine and complained loudly when Kazuya stopped his administrations and looked at him with a smirk plastered on his red lips.
“Like this?” Kazuya asked and moved his hand slowly over Jin’s member, pressing with his thumb against the slit before gripping it a little, not letting Jin come. “You want it?” he said as Kazuya buried his teeth in Jin’s lower lip and pulled on it slightly. “You want me to let you cum?” the younger purred and kissed forcefully Jin, his tongue entering like a fire and taking everything, not even giving Jin the chance to fight him off. Kazuya bucked his hips in Jin’s hands, his cock touching the other’s, now sensible to every touch. He curled his fingers around their heads and pushed his finger between them, creating friction and a desperate need. “You feel so much better when you’re in me than in my hand.” Kazuya whispered against Jin’s lips, his body trembling a little and his breath a little heavier.
“And you have no idea how much I’d want to fuck your ass rather than your hand.” Jin replied with a broken voice, trying to refrain from screaming or moaning loudly but failing miserably as Kazuya seemed to be determined to make him beg for release. He whimpered, gasped and whined, trying to make the younger give him what he wanted, forgetting about his own hand on Kazuya’s cock and thinking only at the sweet sensation of coming into his lover’s hand. “Kazuya, please…” he only needed a couple of minutes to beg, Kazuya’s voice and slow moves on his cock driving him mad and almost taking him over the edge.
Kazuya’s eyes darkened at the pleading voice of Jin’s and he almost didn’t want to offer the other’s release, just because of that simple please. He had pleaded countless time in front of Jin and he hadn’t been listened to. But Kazuya smirked and tilted his head with a teasing expression. “Say please more.” He kissed Jin’s lips. “More.” A kiss, a slow move. “More.” Another kiss and a tight grip on Jin’s cock stopping him from coming.
“Ah!” Jin moaned and buried his head into Kazuya’s hair, trying to control his breath while his hand completely let go of the younger’s erection. “Please.” His mouth formed the word though it was muffled by the hot water pouring down on them. “I beg you.” He added with a louder voice as his hands found Kazuya’s waist and traveled down, cupping his ass cheeks with a forceful move as Jin tried yet again to refrain from moaning. “Please let me come.” He begged, throwing away all of his dignity in front of Kazuya and laying bare more than ever, all just for the pleasure that would come soon.
“Your wish is granted, my love.” Kazuya replied with a low chuckle and fastened his moves on Jin’s member, brushing his fingers over the reddened head as he began to kiss the other’s neck, his teeth grazing gently the skin and his tongue licking it to sooth. A few more thrusts and Jin came in his hand with a low moan that reverberated in the bathroom. Kazuya smirked and let his hand fall under the water spray, washing the semen away. “Now it’s your turn.” He looked at Jin with a malicious expression. “I want you down.” He whispered, licking his lips. “On your knees.” Kazuya tilted his head and smiled at Jin.
Jin looked back at Kazuya, still trying to regain his breath after the incredible orgasm he had just had - after two weeks without getting anything, even a hand job was incredible as long as it included Kazuya - and looking ruffled and toyed with. He smirked as he leaned over Kazuya and caught his lips into a kiss, devouring his mouth and clutching his hands into Kazuya’s hair, pulling on it with strength and pouring more power into their kiss. He sucked on his lips and gently pulled on them with his teeth, being careful to not hurt him anymore than he already was and using just enough strength to make him feel something good. His tongue traveled lower, placing kisses all over Kazuya’s neck, chest and belly, going down and playfully brushing his tongue over the younger’s shaft, looking from below at him and enjoying the short intake of breath that Kazuya had to take. The smirk reappeared on his lips as Jin caught the boy’s erection with his hand and traced a wet line on it using his tongue, his eyes still settled on Kazuya’s face and his head down, letting the water pour on his back.
Kazuya gasped and put one hand on the wall to support his body, while the other made its way to Jin’s hair, telling him silently to start already and give him what he needed. And the older hurried to comply with his request, engulfing his whole length from one move and starting to thrust his head up and down on the younger’s erection, cupping his balls in his hand and covering with his other hand where his mouth couldn’t reach, trying to deep-throat him and take Kazuya as deep as it was possible.
“Oh, fuck…” Kazuya muttered as he looked down at Jin, his body shuddering at the wonderful sensation Jin’s warm mouth could offer. “I knew your mouth was good… but now it’s awesome.” He managed to say through moans, his hand grasping tighter Jin’s hair. “Lick it.” He asked, feeling that if Jin was going to swallow him like that he’ll come faster when he was actually feeling masochistic. “Tease it.” He said, bucking his hips a little, suppressing the urge to spill himself over Jin’s face.
Jin refrained from laughing at Kazuya’s masochistic words and just did what the younger asked him to, slowing his pace and letting his hands settle on the boy’s waist now, directing his hips and continuing to suck his cock, his eyes now concentrating on the view surrounding his mouth. He gave it one more lick before detaching himself from it, closing his eyes while his hand searched for the tap to turn the water off and give him more space to move. Jin continued to lean down, kissing Kazuya’s legs one by one, caressing his knee with his tongue and gently lifting his right foot to place a small kiss on top of it, his eyes fixed again on the younger’s expression. He smiled as he sat on his knees and continued to kiss every part of Kazuya’s body, letting his hands cover where his lips couldn’t reach from that position, taking his time with this and only brushing his tongue on Kazuya’s cock for a few times.
“Tell me more.” Jin whispered against his erection as he wanted to hear more of Kazuya’s voice, he wanted to enjoy more of the younger’s dominating personality which always managed to give Jin shivers and make him tremble with excitement.
Kazuya was slowly losing himself under Jin’s administrations, his legs now trembling and craving for more touches. He was gasping loudly and he was feeling more aroused than ever, making his masochistic side win over his desire of release. He shuddered in front of Jin, his cock twitching as it was brushed by the older one’s breath. “Take it slowly in your mouth and look only at me.” Kazuya asked Jin, his breath uneven and his hand stretched towards his lover to cup his face and pass his thumb over those plump lips.
Jin smiled, obviously happy that his little wish had been complied, and licked the top of Kazuya’s cock, a small smirk appearing on his lips as he looked at the erection with devilish eyes. He grinned and looked up at Kazuya, beginning to slowly take his shaft into his mouth, taking his time with every little inch of it, sucking it with his lips and teasing it with his teeth as he advanced slowly but firmly until he couldn’t take anymore. He blinked twice, his eyes still fixed on Kazuya as this had been the order and waited patiently for the next one, not moving at all and just breathing deeply on the younger’s cock.
“You’re feeling M too?” Kazuya asked with a loud groan as he pushed slowly into Jin’s mouth. “I want to see your tongue while you’re licking it.” He demanded with a smirk. “And don’t forget to look at me. I want to see you…” The younger added, licking his lips suggestively.
‘I’m feeling quite sadistic as I enjoy torturing you, but I love more to hear you ordering me with that aroused voice of yours.’ Jin said in his mind as he blinked again, trying to smirk and succeeding only a little as his mouth was still full with something else. He started to bob his head on Kazuya’s length, using more of his tongue than his lips to touch the sensitive skin, cheating a little and brushing his teeth along with his lips as he tried to show Kazuya the show that he wanted to see. He let go suddenly and caught the boy’s erection with his hand, looking up while he extended his tongue and ran it over the shaft, fast and needy, as his lips tried to catch some of the cock and giving Kazuya a different kind of blowjob.
Either this was the hottest sight ever, either Kazuya was dreaming. The younger closed his eyes for a moment, enjoying the sensations, then he reopened them, looking at Jin with a lustful expression, his mouth dry and chest rising from the harsh breaths. “Come here.” He said to Jin, wriggling his finger to make the other stand up. “I want your lips on mine.” He whispered, waves of pleasure rising in his too heated body. “Make me come when you’re kissing me.” Kazuya demanded, feeling like he won’t take long until his release and that he wanted Jin to kiss him quicker, to ravish him completely.
Jin followed Kazuya’s order and sat up slowly, leaving wet kisses all over his heated skin as he climbed up on Kazuya’s chest with his lips, caressing his forgotten cock with his hand as his lips landed on the younger’s, kissing him deeply and moving his hand fast, driving Kazuya over the edge fast and hard and leaving him breathing intensively. Jin smirked as he lifted his hand and licked his fingers covered by Kazuya’s sperm one by one, his eyes locked with the boy’s, watching Kazuya watching his tongue running over his fingers almost painfully slow and smirking knowingly. “Like what you see?” he asked with a husky voice and darkened eyes, feeling how his own hard-on was coming back to life.
“Allow me.” Kazuya replied instead and took Jin’s hand, showing the older one how to do properly finger fellatio. He ran his tongue over one finger before swallowing it and grazing it slowly, feeling his own taste. Then with a swift move, he took the second finger in his mouth and began to play with his tongue between them, licking and teasing them. Kazuya looked at Jin and his tongue darted a little from the fingers, wriggling it at the older as if he was inviting him to join. And indeed he was, because what was better than one tongue blowjob? Two tongues doing a blowjob.
Jin gulped, the image in front of him being too much arousing to resist it. He came closer, sucking on his own fingers and brushing his tongue over Kazuya’s from time to time, engaging into a little kiss just to stop and begin yet again to clean his fingers from the younger’s sperm, their eyes never leaving each other and almost like challenging the other to see who lasted longer. “Kazuya?” Jin called the younger’s name with a whisper, giving up at his hand and just capturing the boy’s lips into another kiss, as it never felt enough.
Kazuya moaned into the kiss and griped with one hand Jin’s hair, pulling him towards him, their bodies crushing into each other, insatiable of everything. Their tongues were engaged in a wild dance, their lips were bruised and bitten, but neither one cared. They felt that they had so much more passion to be consumed, desire bursting out even from a single touch. Drunk with passion, Kazuya’s free hand spread on the wall searching for the water tap and he turned it on, cold water pouring down and making them yelp in surprise.
“We need to chill.” Kazuya laughed and kissed Jin shortly on the lips. “We have forgotten our purpose here.” He breathed against the other’s lips and he detached quickly, not allowing any more touching, otherwise they won’t be able to stop. He turned the hot water tap on, mixing them. Kazuya looked at Jin and smiled.
Jin smiled back - not being able to stop it from appearing on his lips - but then he quickly frowned and pouted, remembering the younger’s words. “It’s your fault! I really intended to play nice this time...” he said with a serious voice, immediately bursting in laughter.
Kazuya joined him and took the sponge, squishing him with an innocent expression. “Which part should we rub first?” he asked with sparkling eyes and his tongue passed lasciviously over his lips.
Jin just kissed him again as a response and the two lovers spent their time together after that by washing each other, teasing and laughing, feeling like every bad thing had been left behind and that they could finally move on. Kazuya seemed to be feeling a lot better and Jin couldn’t help but be happy that he had his old lover back, the one who responded so easily to his every touch but would be stubbornly defying him with every occasion. He had missed being like this with Kazuya and he had to admit that it had been hard to just watch the younger one hurting himself and screaming at Jin to give him drugs. He hadn’t wanted to ever see Kazuya in such a situation, but he was also guilty of this so Jin had braced himself and had stayed with the boy, helping him and refusing to give him what had been causing so much pain to him.
All good things come to an end eventually though, so they needed to step out of the shower at some point and go back to bed. Jin took care to carefully and gently wipe the water off of Kazuya’s body and then lifted him to his arms, carrying the boy back to the bedroom as it was obvious that he was feeling too tired to even move. His eyes were closing themselves against his will and Jin had to chuckle at the way Kazuya had cuddled into his arms, refusing to let him go even after they had settled on the bed.
“Come on, you need to get dressed or you’ll catch a cold.” The older one advised but received only a groan and a sleepy moan in response. A sigh followed as Jin climbed out of bed and decided to take matters into his own hands, searching for new clothes for the both of them and getting them dressed. When he finally finished - Kazuya first and him second - he looked down only to find his lover already sleeping peacefully.
It was weird how he couldn’t stop smiling as he watched the younger one sleeping for a few minutes before finally deciding to leave the room. But things were finally looking so good for them and he couldn’t help but be happy that Kazuya was slowly but surely recovering and that there were no more obstacles in their way. No more Ueda, no more drugs, no more insecurities. They were going to be fine and they were going to stay together forever, as he had wished for since the day he had realized that Kazuya meant more for him than any other person.
He loved Kazuya how he had never loved anyone and just the fact that he could see his smile and could receive his kisses was making him more satisfied than he could ever tell. He was possessive, indeed, but maybe for Kazuya he could also change. The boy had definitely tried to do so for his sake, so maybe he could do the same and maybe even grant a few of the younger one’s wishes.
With these thoughts in mind, Jin closed the door of the apartment behind him and left the building. He could use this time, now that Kazuya was sleeping, to go and buy the things that he had been meaning to buy since a few days ago, before that promise between them had been made. At least now, he could go and leave the younger one alone knowing that nothing will happen.
He had no idea how wrong he was.
PART II