Addictive Obsession ~ Chapter Twenty-four | part one
Title: Addictive obsession
Authors:
aroruae &
fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
A/N: Worst day ever, but let me bring you something from AO ^o^ Sorry for the long wait, but we wanted to finish AO & SW in the same time and that's why we posted several chapters of SW the last weeks XD now, we're on a normal track and we're getting near the end, folks~
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth Scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Thirteenth Scent ~ Body
Fourteenth Scent ~ Memory
Fifteenth Scent ~ Toxic
Sixteenth Scent ~ Narcotic
Seventeenth Scent ~ Hollow
Eighteenth Scent ~ Mother
Nineteenth Scent ~ Love
Twentieth Scent ~ Tomorrow
Twenty first Scent ~ Rewind
Twenty second Scent ~ Blood
Twenty third Scent ~ Madness
Chapter Twenty Fourth
Twenty Fourth Scent ~ Bonds
We all run from our past because there’s a moment - there’s a second in our life - when we have done something that we shouldn’t have and we’re ashamed and maybe we’re even sorry for letting it happen, but we hadn’t had a chance to stop it and we had been forced to suffer the consequences. We all forget about those little mistakes because life goes on, right? New experiences and different mistakes make us forget about the first one that brought us here and that made us who we are.
But the truth is that we can’t escape from anything, little less from fate. And it will come up catching us from behind and reminding us - this is what you’ve done.
These are your sins.
Kazuya arrived at his place after exactly an hour and a half, purposely being late in meeting Jin. After all, he had to think for himself for a while and if he was to meet Jin, he’ll soon forget about all and just drown in lust with his lover. But he had to think and he had to find a way to make Jin realize that all he had been doing up until now was wrong and that he needn’t to continue like this. And there was also this thought of Hayato and Kazuya couldn’t suppress the feeling that they too might end up this way. Kazuya wasn’t afraid of dying, but he was afraid of letting Jin kill him. Because if such a thing were to happen, when Jin will realize what he had done, Kazuya would no longer be able to help him, to save him from what he might do to himself. Jin was too engrossed with him right now and Kazuya was sure that dying wasn’t an option for neither one of them.
That’s why he needed to drag Jin out of this messed up world and show him other parts of life, good parts that were worth. Kazuya entered in his apartment and saw the shoes of Jin’s already at the door. Somehow, this sight made him smile.
“I’m home.” He said with a loud voice and waited for Jin to come out and yell at him for being late.
“You’re late.” As expected, these were the first words Jin uttered as he appeared from the kitchen with a sulky expression, his arms on his waist and an apron above his clothes.
“What in the devil are you wearing?” Kazuya burst out into laughter, looking at the pink apron. “Don’t tell me you’re going to cook!” He continued to laugh, approaching his lover and pecking his lips a little before going to kitchen. “Hope it’s pasta or I expect half of the kitchen burned by now.” He snickered maliciously and entered the room.
“Well, it’s not completely burned…” Jin lingered on his words a little as he let the younger take in the view. Actually, the kitchen was a complete disaster. There were pots everywhere and flour spread on the floor as Jin had tried to make… something, even he wasn’t that sure what anymore. The gas cooker was covered with all kinds of burned food that Jin had tried to make and failed more than badly. The sink was also full with dishes and the water was still pouring on them, the gloves on Jin’s hands showing that he had wanted to take care of them first before Kazuya got home. If he had looked into the fridge, he would have found all of his food practically destroyed and the bits that were still safe were thrown one over the other, making them impossible to distinguish. And the best part was the balloons of soap that were flowing in the air. “I can clean!” Jin hurried to say before Kazuya had time to show his anger, afraid of his lover’s revenge on him.
Kazuya lifted a hand, unable to speak anymore. He surveyed the room once more and touched his forehead, feeling tired. “OUT!!!” he then roared and turned to Jin, his eyes flashing dangerously. “If you put another foot - no, a finger!! - in this kitchen, I’ll cut your dearest thing on your body!” Kazuya shouted and moved towards Jin like an angry cat.
The older quickly backed away, honestly afraid of Kazuya’s frightening expression, and yelped helplessly for forgiveness. “I just wanted to cook you dinner to make it up to you!!” he defended himself, taking one more step back. “I didn’t know that it would end that bad.” He added and completed in his mind - even if I had managed to set up on fire my kitchen the last time I tried to cook.
“Get out of here in this instant.” Kazuya said and pushed Jin out of the kitchen, closing the door behind him. When he turned to look around once more, he closed his eyes and heaved a sigh.
Only half an hour later, he came out from the kitchen looking all worn-out, but thoroughly pleased. His kitchen was sparkling and there was no sign of Jin having ever entered there. He went to his room, looking for the older one who was standing in the middle of the bed, his legs crossed under him and his eyes cast down, looking like a kicked puppy. He raised his gaze and locked his eyes with Kazuya, flinching a little. “I’m sorry.” He said with a small voice, thinking that all he always did was to make Kazuya mad and angry.
Kazuya sighed yet again and went to the bathroom to wash his hands off before returning to the room and sitting down next to Jin. He let out a chuckle. “You’re not.” He replied and pinched Jin’s cheek, enjoying his angry yet puppy like glare. “But next time, wait for me.” He then scolded and kissed the spot he had pinched as it was all red. “And you better order some take-out because I’m not moving an inch after I’ve scrubbed clean the kitchen.” Kazuya added and lay down on his bed, sighing once more tiredly.
“But I really am sorry!” Jin insisted, crawling on bed on four legs and looking at Kazuya with a pleading expression. “I didn’t want to make you mad or to have you clean my mess…” he confessed and his eyes darted at the gloves he had been using and were now sitting on the table in Kazuya’s room. “I just wanted to make you a surprise.” He muttered, looking at his hands again.
“Then surprise me with a great take-out.” Kazuya smiled at Jin. “And I’m not that mad now, cleaning always helps me clear my mind.” He stuck out his tongue before closing his eyes. “Jin… you’re really a menace, you know?” Kazuya added with a slightly joking voice.
“I’ve been told that.” The older finally smiled and snuggled close to Kazuya, taking the phone out of his jeans and ordering food before throwing it on the bed and cuddling closer to his lover, his arm around the younger one’s waist and his head resting on the boy’s chest. “But I know you love me for being like this.” He added after a while like he had just remembered there was something pending and also giggling a little.
“You’re so full of yourself.” Kazuya poked Jin’s ribs with his finger. “But if you leave me alone like today, who knows... someone might snatch me away~” He added nonchalantly, realizing the implying of his words only after he said them. And suddenly the image of him and Pi kissing popped inside his mind. Kazuya bit his tongue.
“No one would dare to snatch you away when you’re in my blocks.” Jin replied confidently. They would try to fuck him or even rape him, that was true and it was the reason Jin never allowed him to be alone while there, but nothing more than this. After all, they all knew better than to harm Jin’s possession.
“Then what if this will really happen?” Kazuya suddenly felt like saying, though he was kind of playing with fire. But after what had happened with Pi, Kazuya was feeling a bit unsure. Besides killing the other part, will Jin try to win him again or simply force him like always? “What if I’d fell for another?” He added, completely aware that this was a dangerous question to ask.
Jin raised his head a little, looking a little suspicious at Kazuya. “Why are you suddenly asking this?” he retorted with another question. “Did something happen?” he then asked concerned, thinking that he hadn’t talked with Shige to know if Kazuya had been safe without him.
Kazuya looked back at Jin, not betraying one single emotion. Should he tell Jin about what happened with Pi? But that would mean certain death to Pi and imprisonment to him. And besides, it meant another friend of Jin killed by him. No, of course he couldn’t say such a thing. “You’re stupid or what?” He said back, rolling his eyes. “I was only saying if. Besides, if something had really happened, would I be like this right now?” He asked with a quirk of an eyebrow. “But I see that, as always, you don’t trust my words.” He rose up, pushing Jin a bit. Inside his mind, he cursed himself - he accused Jin of not trusting him when he had indeed betrayed his trust. He was the worst.
“It’s not that I don’t trust you.” Jin replied with a small voice, thinking that he had indeed trusted Kazuya on the matter with Hiroki - the fact that he had someone follow Kazuya all the time didn’t have anything to do with it. “But I don’t trust the others.” He confessed, sitting back on the pillow and looking at Kazuya’s back with his hands crossed behind his head.
“Then why do you leave me into other people’s care?” Kazuya asked, not looking at Jin. If he hadn’t been left, something like this wouldn’t have happened. “Besides, what’s your relationship with Yamapi?” Now he turned and looked kind of angry. And he was because he remembered Pi saying what he had done at a certain time with Jin. “You were with him, t-right?” He had almost said too, but stopped in time.
Jin laughed, sounding really amused by this situation. “You’re jealous of Pi?” he asked with a somehow mocking chuckle, like this was impossible from the beginning.
Kazuya counted to three and snapped at one and a half. “I have reasons not to be?” He asked with an angered voice. “From what I heard, you had a great time with him. Maybe we should have a threesome or something.” He continued, flailing his hands, his eyes flaring up.
“It seems that Pi has been a little chatty as I was gone and took advantage of this.” Jin chuckled again, standing on his ass and grabbing Kazuya’s hand to pull him back on the bed, lying down on it with the younger on top of him and Jin’s hands surrounding his waist. “Missed me?” he then asked with a playful voice and licked Kazuya’s nose.
“Stop it.” Kazuya grabbed Jin by the face and pushed him away. “I see that you don’t regret having your way with Yamapi. Do you do him now too? Or he does you?” The younger hissed, his nails digging a bit more into Jin’s cheeks, surely to leave marks afterwards. But he was bothered that Jin wasn’t even trying to deny that he had - or has - this kind of relationship with Pi!
Jin sighed, seeing that he has no way to avoid this subject, and let his hands fall on the bed to give Kazuya the liberty of moving if he wanted to. “I know Pi since we were kids.” He started, still not knowing if it was a wise thing to tell his lover all of this. But, after all, it wasn’t like Kazuya could blame him for sleeping around when the younger had also done it and had even asked money for his services. “We were young and we were curious…” he lingered a little on his words, biting his lower lip and looking with sparkling eyes at the other. “So we tried all kind of things.” He shrugged a little, like he wasn’t bothered at all that his best friend was also his sex friend. “Though I haven’t been sleeping around since we’ve gotten together.” He added quickly, not wanting Kazuya to make a wrong impression and get the wrong conclusion of this, looking with honest eyes into those brown orbs that were studying him back and trying to look as innocent as Jin could.
Kazuya snorted and released Jin’s face, still glaring suspiciously at him. “Really?” He then asked and in his voice there was unmistakably hope. But then he remembered Pi kissing him and quickly added: “I don’t believe you.” If Pi was horny all of a sudden, Jin was an easy seduced man and they spent a lot of time together. Conclusion? It was impossible to not feel any desire towards a person you have tried many things with.
“Thanks for not trusting me.” Jin pointed out with an arched eyebrow, looking curiously at the younger but not seeming mad at all because of Kazuya’s accusations.
“It’s not like you’re quite the innocent lamb here.” The younger retorted and poked Jin in the chest. “And damn, Jin, you still work with him! What if all of a sudden you want to get laid and Pi is near?! After all, he did say that you enjoyed his skills.” Kazuya continued with an angry pout. Really, did he have any right to complain about Jin’s affairs?
The older laughed this time and raised his hands on Kazuya’s waist, turning them around in bed and topping the boy with a smirk on his face. “I actually loved fucking Pi,” he whispered with a mean voice at Kazuya’s ear, biting on it and quickly adding after, “but not as much as I love fucking you.” Jin confessed and blew a trail of hot air into the ear. “Not as much as I enjoy your skills.” He continued as he nibbled on it, kissing the spot behind Kazuya’s ear and licking it gently.
Kazuya’s body shivered a little and the younger bit on his lower lip, feeling his heart racing because of Jin’s actions. It was like he hadn’t felt Jin for a long time and that his body had been aching for him. Maybe that was why he had accepted Pi back then, because in a way - in a very stupid way - he reminded of Jin and how he had forcefully used to make Kazuya his. Yes, this might be, this was why the younger had submitted to Pi even for a moment.
“So I’m better than Pi, right?” Kazuya half moaned the question, his hands finding their way into Jin’s dark mane, the fingers curling around those silky locks.
“You’re the best.” Jin laughed against Kazuya’s neck and raised his head to kiss those pouty lips.
*
In the end, nothing that the younger did seemed to convince Jin that he was ready and good enough to be taken outside and meet the real world that Jin lived in. The only thing he did was to run all around the place, taking care of what Jin deemed to be serious business. Of course, this was restricted only to the building and only when Jin was sure that there was no harm to Kazuya, which seemed to be happening lately most of the time. This made the boy happy because it meant that Jin was starting to have more confidence in him and maybe soon he’ll even let him participate in these meetings that Jin said were too dangerous for Kazuya.
But, to be honest, his job was kind of boring. He would only deal with papers and arranging Jin’s meetings - this had the benefit of knowing all the time where Jin was and what he was doing so Kazuya wasn’t complaining that much - and never have part of any action. The guys that were usually around the building weren’t that bad or dangerous as Jin had claimed, though Kazuya had a suspicion that they had been threatened not to touch him even with one finger, but he had managed to be friendly with them and to have them answer back without any snarky remarks or something like that.
Luckily, Yamapi hadn’t been around that much either. The few times they had met had always been in Jin’s presence and the two of them hadn’t exchanged a word since that day when Kazuya had forgotten about who exactly was this man he was dealing with. Pi seemed to have no problem to ignore him too, though he would throw dirty glances and obscene signs to Kazuya when Jin wasn’t looking. But this was all and in the two weeks he had been working there, there hadn’t been anything else which could tell Jin that something was wrong between them.
It was totally different with Shige though. Kazuya had tried to hint something about it, but every time Jin would dismiss the problem. He had confessed to Jin that Shige had approached him and that was how he now knew who was the man following him all the time. He had also tried to say that if he was going to be watched, then it might be better and easier for everyone if Shige would be allowed to go everywhere with Kazuya. Jin hadn’t denied that, but his office had still remained off-limits for the man and he still had no intentions of changing his mind.
But today would be a different day, Kazuya decided as he was heading towards Jin’s office. He had just found out that his lover was going to another meeting in a few hours and he was determined not to let the chance escape him again. He would do anything to make Jin accept to bring him this time, the younger said to himself as he skipped to the office, feeling light and happy for no reason as it had been lately, since he had started working with Jin and seeing more of the older.
He didn’t knock on the door as he opened it and stepped inside confidently. His eyes skimmed over the lazy figure of Jin and Kazuya couldn’t suppress a smile coming across his lips. Unexpectedly, he found this sight of Jin kind of arousing, the aura of danger surrounding him. He looked quite concentrated on his papers and the cigarette was between his lips, smoke spiraling upwards from its end. Also, his feet were resting on the desk as he was leaning on his chair.
Yes, he looked damn hot, arousing and dangerous. Kazuya licked his lips and made way to his lover, thinking that he could ravish him on the spot. It wasn’t a bad idea, but he had plans, so he satisfied himself with simply taking Jin’s cigarette from his mouth and replacing it with his own lips. The kiss tasted of tobacco and toothpaste.
“You look smoking sexy.” Kazuya chuckled close to Jin’s lips and his eyes bored into the other one’s.
Jin laughed and caught Kazuya by his waist, pulling him down to sit on his lap, the papers forgotten on the desk and nothing else mattering than the beauty from his arms. “I could say the same about you.” He smirked as he guided Kazuya’s hand with the cigarette back to his mouth, taking a deep breath from it and then blowing the smoke into the younger’s face.
“Hey, not fair!” The younger waved a hand to wind the smoke away, before he brought the cigar to his own mouth, inhaled a bit and then leaned and kissed Jin, from the corners of their united mouths the smoke spiraling itself. The younger pulled back, coughing a bit, but looking thoroughly satisfied. “Now this is fair.” He smirked to his boyfriend and put the cigarette away. Too much smoke for one day, he needed fire now.
Jin groaned and moved Kazuya again, making the boy straddle him and settle better in his arms, leaving more room for Jin to touch him. “How is that fair?” he pouted, complaining that it hadn’t been enough for him and lifting his hips a little to show his hidden intention. “Is the door locked?” he then asked with an innocent voice and a playful smirk on his lips, his dirty intentions clear and obvious.
Kazuya laughed and intentionally shifted his body so that their lower parts touched a bit more. “No.” He replied and leaned to suck a bit on Jin’s neck. “Does it bother you?” The younger then asked with an apparent innocent and worried expression as he looked at Jin, now his hands slowly working their way on Jin’s shirt, revealing slowly, inch by inch, the slightly tanned chest of his lover.
“Not really.” Jin answered with a frown, relaxing even more as Kazuya’s fingers continued to touch him. “Though it would bother me if someone else than me sees you naked or…” he stopped and smirked, his hand sneaking deep into the back of Kazuya’s pants, “aroused.”
The younger arched like a purring cat and his fingers dug into Jin’s skin, leaving beautiful red marks. “And whose fault would that be?” Kazuya whispered as he met Jin’s eyes, lowering his head, apparently wanting to kiss his lover, but he passed briefly over Jin’s lips and bent lower until his mouth slowly touched the collarbone and then trailed with kisses a line until he stopped above one nipple, his breath tickling it and making it harden by not even touching it. Then his tongue darted out and flicked over the nub a couple of times until he felt Jin’s hand scratching his ass cheek. “Loving it?” Kazuya asked with a purr in his voice as he directed his attention to the other nipple under which laid his initial. He placed a soft kiss over the letter, before tracing it with his tongue and reaching the perking nipple.
“No, totally hating it.” Jin replied, biting back a moan, not knowing if to like that his skin had become extremely sensitive where Kazuya had cut him or to hate it because it made him feel even weaker in front of the younger and more exposed to his touches. In the end, he just closed his eyes and let himself succumb to Kazuya’s fingers and tongue and to the feeling of having the one he loved loving him back. “Totally.” He repeated the word with a breathless voice, his hand moving to the center of Kazuya’s ass and teasingly touching his hole, his index finger dipping a little in it.
“Ngh…” came a guttural noise from Kazuya and for a moment his mouth was motionless on Jin’s skin. His hand slipped lower between their bodies and his fingers found their way to the zipper, teasingly passing over the slight bulge hidden underneath. “You dirty liar.” Kazuya hissed as he bit on the nipple and a zip down noise was heard through their harsh breaths. “You’re practically begging for more…” He whispered as he sucked some more on the nub before going up, biting and licking the skin, stopping right under Jin’s chin. “And you’re already… oh.” The younger’s fingers slipped inside Jin’s jeans and found his member pulsing with life and slightly wet. He gave a slow caress along its length, his fingers dirtying themselves with pre-cum. “Take me with you and I’ll give you full course.” Kazuya whispered close to Jin’s lips, teasing them with his breath and tongue.
“Sweetie, you should know better than to threaten me with something like this.” Jin laughed as he leaned more into the comfy chair, the sudden move making Kazuya fall over Jin and the finger that was just teasing him, now enter his hole with its full length.
Kazuya moaned and hid his face in the crook of Jin’s neck, feeling himself shuddering against his will. “Either way…” He managed to say through quick breaths. “… if you want anything more, you have to take me with you.” He continued and Jin’s finger pulled out and entered once more, making him clutch onto the chair. “J-Jin…” Kazuya moaned and bit onto the older one’s shoulder, hating that he was feeling so aroused when he was supposed to be in control.
“Were you saying something?” the older asked with an innocent tone, his fingers teasing Kazuya’s hole and another one sneaking inside of him as Jin guided the younger’s mouth to his own and pressed his lips against Kazuya’s into a wet and sloppy kiss, clearly enjoying his reactions and his inability to speak anymore. Though he had to be careful because he never knew what to expect from Kazuya, so Jin was prepared any moment for him to try and escape, planning to stop him and… maybe punish him a little. “Oops.” He exclaimed innocently when a third finger entered Kazuya, their lips still locked and their bodies still tangled.
Kazuya gasped in their kiss at the sudden intrusion and goddamn, it felt good. Even if it hurt a little, it felt so damn good. But no matter how it made him feel, he still had to convince Jin to take him to that meeting. “Even if you do me like this…” He detached a little, though this was kind of a mistake because it changed the angle of Jin’s fingers inside of him and it sent waves of pleasure through his body at this movement, making him close his eyes involuntarily. “…I won’t let you come.” Kazuya continued and even if this meant torture for him, he grinded their crotches together, making both of them groan. “And if I stay behind… I’ll be so aroused that you won’t even be able to leave, especially to leave me like this in the middle of a pack of hungry wolves.” Kazuya continued and another moan escaped his lips as he tried to create more friction between the two of them. “Your choice, Jin. Take me with you and you can have me any way you want tonight…” He whispered and his eyes bored into the older one’s.
Jin laughed again and started to move his fingers faster, not planning on answering to Kazuya’s challenge or request. His free hand rested on the back of the boy’s head and kept him close to his lips for Jin to kiss and devour them as the movement of his other hand intensified, trying to bring Kazuya to his release only with this, the movement of his hips against the boy’s and the way his tongue circled the hot cave of Kazuya’s mouth, entering it as deeply as his fingers traveled inside of the younger.
And anymore of this and Jin will truly succeed in making Kazuya come just from some fucking fingers and some fucking tongue. His hand slipped once more between their bodies and slithered its way around Jin’s shaft, curling around it and tightening his hold as he moved slowly up and down. “Take me with you or I swear I won’t let you come, but painfully make you beg for it.” Kazuya threatened as he tried to steady himself, to fight off the sweet and painful sensations from his body. “Aa-and…” the word became a moan as a certain spot was reached inside of him. “Goddammit, Jin. I won’t let you fuck me for a month.” The younger said and his hand tightened even more on Jin’s member.
Jin stopped suddenly for a moment, clearly not enjoying this threat of Kazuya’s not to let him fuck the boy for a whole month. It didn’t last long and when he recovered, he started to move his fingers even faster than before, letting the hand drop from Kazuya’s head to his own crotch, joining the younger’s and moving it together on his cock. “Come for me, Kazuya…” he whispered with a low and husky voice at the younger’s ear, biting on it and blowing hot air into it. “Fuck yourself on my fingers and come.” He then ordered with the same tone, opening Kazuya’s zipper and bringing together their crotches, forcing Kazuya’s hand to also move faster on their lengths while their lips met again into another forceful and demanding kiss.
Listening to Jin’s voice, reacting to his touches and kisses, Kazuya slowly lost control over himself and without caring, he moved up and down on Jin’s fingers, wanting them to hit that sweet spot from earlier and when it did, his body gave a slight shudder, his throat vibrated and his cock trembled with anticipation under his and Jin’s hand. “I hate you for this.” He muttered next to the older one’s mouth, not having anymore control as lust took over his body and made it ride until he reached the peak. “I hate you for fucking me like this…” His voice got lost in another moan as the older one’s fingers thrust deeper and he arched under the pleasure he was feeling. Then he felt the hand quickening its pace on his cock and he knew he wasn’t going to last long. He found Jin’s mouth again, muttering the words I hate you nonstop. And when he finally came, he didn’t realize that hate had turned into love and that his body was all sweaty and his clothes were sticking to him.
Jin chuckled and kissed Kazuya again, savoring his own orgasm that had followed quickly after his lover’s. “I love you too, babe.” He whispered, still amused by the younger’s stubbornness to do this and the grand finale that they had had. “We should do this more often.” He then added, laughing again as he finally retrieved his fingers and playfully touched Kazuya’s lips with them, a smirk on his face and an eyebrow lifted in anticipation.
“You jerk.” Kazuya hissed and took the fingers in his mouth, just like Jin expected him to do. After wetting them long enough, he leaned and kissed Jin, sharing his own taste with him. “Of course we’ll do this more often… if you take me with you.” The younger said as he drew back and looked at Jin. “If not… sex between us will become extinct.” He then smiled innocently as he pecked gently the other’s lips.
“Oh, you always say that.” Jin quickly dismissed the threat, kissing Kazuya back and letting his hands roam on the boy’s back. He was up for a second round and maybe for something more this time. “But it’s not going to bring you anything.” He pointed out, sure that Kazuya must be aware at this point that it was useless to use this card with Jin because he would still get what he wanted. “Not like…” he started to say but stopped himself, a playful smirk dancing on his lips.
Kazuya frowned and pinched Jin’s both cheeks. “Like what? Is there really something that could make you take me with you?” He asked with hope in his voice. “You’re such a pain, Jin. I just want to come with you.” He continued and wriggled his way out from his lover’s arms and chair, glancing at their dirtied clothes as he began to take off his own until he was naked in front of the other one. “You keep some changes in here, right?” Kazuya asked and went to a closet, looking through it.
Jin didn’t bother to answer seeing that Kazuya had already found some clothes and just stood up, going to the door to lock it and then turning at the younger, undressing himself too - luckily for him this hadn’t been the first time to have sex in the office. “I was just proposing a trade.” He finally said, throwing his shirt at Kazuya and laughing like a child when it landed on his head. “I do something for you, you do something for me.” He explained as he proceeded to take off his pants too, moving a little away from Kazuya and the revenge that was bound to come for the discarded shirt.
But the younger didn’t seem eager to get his payback as he looked at Jin with big and wide eyes. “Really?!” he asked and he almost couldn’t believe that Jin had been this simple from the beginning. “Sure! What should we trade?” He agreed immediately, seemingly utterly happy and not even thinking about what Jin might ask him to do.
“A week off.” Jin was prompt to reply. “Just me, you, the bed and the rule that you have to accept anything I say and do everything I want.” He said with an innocent smile on his lips, now looking at Kazuya while being completely naked and, for that matter, looking like a total idiot.
Kazuya looked up and down on Jin’s body, a frown creasing his forehead. “I wonder if you’re worth it…” he said, pretending to think up this offer. Then his eyes met Jin’s puppy ones and smirked. “Deal.” He agreed and extended his hand to seal this trade. “But Jin… there might not be things we hadn’t tried out yet.” He then added and looked quite dejected.
Jin laughed. “This is what had you worried?” he said as he shook hands with Kazuya. “Don’t worry about this.” He continued with a baby-voice, kissing the boy on his forehead. “While it’s true that the two of us have tried a lot of things, it’s also true that there are a lot of toys that we could have so much fun with.” He said, sounding like he was already dreaming at this possibility. “And I can’t wait to make you come without touching you.” He added with a sigh, like he was regretting that he had to wait to fulfill this fantasy of his.
Kazuya pouted as he looked at Jin. “You won’t touch me?” He asked on an upset voice. “Without you in me, I won’t be thoroughly satisfied.” He sighed dramatically and played with his fingers on Jin’s bare chest, tracing his own initial.
“Babe, I can make you feel satisfied with just my voice.” Jin whispered into Kazuya’s ear, chuckling after as the soft sensation of the younger’s fingers on his skin made him feel ticklish. “And I’ll prove it to you soon, so look forward to it.” He added with a perverted voice as he bit on the boy’s ear and then detached himself from Kazuya, looking innocently at him and blinking his eyes like he hadn’t said or done anything wrong.
Kazuya looked with a doubting expression on his face before he smirked confidently. “You’ve got some balls to say that, Akanishi.” He said with a superior voice. “I’m looking forward to my orgasm brought by your voice.” And from two small steps, he was close again to Jin, his hand in the other’s hair and his mouth crushed against Jin’s one. One quick and passionate kiss was Kazuya’s other way of sealing their deal. “Now get ready, I want you to tell me what you’ll be doing at today’s meeting and how can I assist.” Kazuya said and went to the desk.
“Um, you’re not going to do anything.” Jin said a little unsure, knowing perfectly well that this wasn’t what Kazuya wanted to hear. But before the younger could say anything, Jin hurried to add: “It’s just a transaction. I give him the drugs, he gives me the money. It’s nothing exciting or something like that.” He laughed awkwardly, only now thinking that Kazuya would be along him the whole time. Oh, God, he was definitely going to regret this, especially since they weren’t dealing with a peaceful and normal person.
Kazuya looked a bit taken aback. “You go and deliver the drugs personally?” he asked, curiosity in his voice. “And are you going alone? I mean, I’m going, of course, but… won’t there be others?” He continued, interested on how Jin was managing his affairs, even if it was one such as drug dealing. “And how will they know if the drugs are good? Will they try it in front of you or what?” He added, thinking that he might have seen some American films having drug transactions as a theme.
“No, they don’t try it because they trust me and no, I don’t usually deliver them by myself.” Jin sighed and finally went to the closet to pick some clothes for him too seeing as the younger one had already dressed while talking. It wasn’t like he had from where to choose, considering these were just some back-up clothes that he hadn’t used since Kazuya had appeared in his life, but they had to do for the moment. “The client is pretty special and he can’t afford to be seen coming here or anywhere near me.” He explained as he tucked the shirt over his head and dragged some pants on him.
“I see. It isn’t yakuza or something, is it?” Kazuya asked and despite his curios tone, you could sense his excitement. “And if he can’t be seen near you, won’t you be noticed if you go to him?” He then continued, smiling as an idea struck him. “You can send me to deliver them! I mean you stay in the car or something and I go and seal the deal.” Kazuya said with a bright smile. If he was able to do this, he could understand a little of how Jin would feel during such situations.
“Yeah…” Jin said, prolonging the word and looking at Kazuya like he had suddenly gone mad. “Or not.” He then added with a more serious voice. “We have a meeting place and we won’t be the only ones there either. It’s a big client so there are always lots of us and them to be sure that we don’t get screwed by the other part or by the police.” He explained, sitting on the couch and raising his hand to call Kazuya to him.
The younger sighed and went to his lover, taking a place next to him. “It will be dangerous, right?” It wasn’t a question, more of a statement. “And I still don’t know why you keep doing it…” He then added more as an undertone for himself, but clearly aimed at Jin.
“Because this is what I do.” The older one replied simply and shrugged a little. “Besides, I like the thrill and the excitement that come with every transaction.” He then added with a grin on his face, memories surfacing from his mind and plastering themselves on his expression. “And don’t worry,” he added with a light tone as he dragged Kazuya closer to him, “it won’t be really dangerous considering that we’re dealing with the police.” He admitted and started to laugh.
Kazuya paled. “Police?!” he then asked and his voice was kind of squeaky. “Damn… I wasn’t aware that you were dealing with the police too.” The younger gave a shaky laugh, half feeling like not wanting to know anymore. “And if you have connections with the police, why aren’t they getting you clean? I mean… they could let you live you a normal life.” He continued and he refrained from adding with me.
“Maybe, but this would also mean that they lose their drug supplier.” Jin explained calmly, like he was talking about the weather. “They don’t trust anyone else but me, so I’m kind of stuck with them for as long as they want me to. I help them with this and some other things and they let me do my stuff in peace. It’s a fair trade.” He said with a shrug, seeming totally cool with this situation.
Kazuya sighed, feeling a bit incapable to grasp the width of Jin’s affairs. He felt so little and helpless and as more time passed, he realized that it was going to be harder and harder to pull Jin out of this world. And frankly, he was beginning to doubt that he could even do such a thing. “Jin… have you ever felt fear?” Kazuya asked and cuddled at his lover’s chest.
Jin looked a little suspicious at Kazuya, but didn’t say anything for a long time. “I have.” He admitted with a small and unsure voice, still not really knowing if it was wise to tell Kazuya such a thing. There wasn’t a person who hadn’t felt the claws of fear clutching at their souls and threatening them to destroy their life, to make them not want to make another step in fear of losing something important or to force them to move forward in order to protect that thing.
Kazuya gulped and searched for Jin’s hand. “When?” He asked with a small voice. “Why?” he continued and as he finally found Jin’s hand, held onto it tightly. It was like saying you can trust me, I can understand, I will understand you. He really wanted Jin to open up more to him. He needed him to do so.
Jin laughed a little, thinking at how ironic it was that Kazuya was asking about himself. “Actually, it was like something I have never felt before.” He confessed and his voice seemed to break a little as he uttered the words. “I felt so scared that I thought I’ll never live again, I though that it was the end for me.” He continued and his hand tightened his hold on Kazuya’s one as his expression changed even more, looking truly in pain. “It was when…” he started to say and then stopped himself, like he wasn’t able to say it properly. “When I…” he tried for the second time, but the words seemed to be stuck in his throat. “When you left me one week without sex.” He finally said the dreaded words, shaking his head a little as he was still suffering from it and desperately trying to hide his grin.
Kazuya looked dumbfounded for a few moments before he slapped Jin’s hand and stood up, feeling angry. “Screw you, idiot!” He said out loud, but didn’t look at Jin as he went to the other corner of the room, hating that Jin had made him feel like he was maybe getting somewhere and the jerk laughed in his face. He had thought that maybe Jin will tell him something, so that wouldn’t be forced to ask others, to do favors to others just because he wanted to know more about Jin. It frustrated him how lightly Jin was taking all this. He decided to ignore the older for now.
“Come on, Kazuya, don’t be mad.” Jin called him back, standing up but still laughing a little. “It was pretty funny, you have to admit.” He said with a grin and a satisfied expression on his face.
Kazuya didn’t answer as he went to Jin’s chair and sat on it, closing his eyes. He began humming and even whistling as he began to swirl around with Jin’s ergonomic chair. If to Jin it seemed funny, well to Kazuya it seemed stupid and not in the least funny.
“Kazuuuuu…” Jin complained and pouted when he was ignored yet again. He tried a few more times to catch Kazuya’s attention, but the younger seemed to be set on pretending that he didn’t exist. “Will it make you feel better if I tell you the real answer?” he finally said, sighing and cursing himself in the same time for agreeing to do this.
Kazuya’s interest perked up. “If it’s something related to sex, then no thanks.” He replied quickly, his eyes still closed and him still swirling on the chair.
“I do have a lot of stories related to sex though.” Jin sulked again and pursed his lips as he looked with narrowed eyes at Kazuya, trying to look upset but looking more like a kicked puppy. “But,” he quickly added, approaching the younger and stopping in front of him, now with a serious expression, “I suppose I could tell you even if it’s something stupid and you’ll laugh at me.” He continued and pouted again, an incredulous but sincere look on his face.
Kazuya lazily opened an eye. “Tell me about your sex stories?” He asked with a growl. “If I wanted that, Jin, I would have asked you to show me, not to narrate them.” The younger scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Ah, you’re so annoying right now.” He then mumbled and swirled with the chair some more.
“I was talking about your question, not about my sex stories.” Jin clarified, an amused eyebrow lifted and a slightly mocking smile dancing on his lips as he stared at Kazuya, not knowing if to be upset for not being understood or to laugh because the younger still seemed to be thinking of sex.
The swirl stopped and Kazuya looked at Jin with narrowing eyes. “Do you even know why I’m asking you such questions?” He inquired and his voice shook a little. “And what are you going to tell me? That you felt fear of being bitten by a dog?” He continued and there was anger in his words. “That isn’t fear.”
“Then why are you asking me such things?” Jin inquired, choosing to ignore Kazuya’s last words in favor of finding out what was all of this about. After all, it wasn’t everyday that his lover asked such question and was so wiling to find out more about Jin.
Kazuya laughed. “You practically know everything about me.” He started and threw a dirty look to his lover, as if he was guilty of such an impossible thing. “And what do I know about you? I said before that I wanted to understand you, that I wanted to come here and work with you. Why do you think I’m doing all this? Because I’m bored?” Kazuya continued and gave another short laugh, Jin choosing not to say that he had actually thought this at some point. “Is it really that hard to see that I want to know you better? I’m not usually honest with such things, but you’re so fucking stupid and dense that I think I might have to write it with caps on a board.” Kazuya rolled his eyes and resumed his chair swirling.
Jin’s eyes widened. Oh, yeah, he had forgotten about that. He had forgotten about their discussion and the only thing he remembered from all of that was that Kazuya wanted him to give up at the life that had made him who he was. But his lover wanted to know him better and to do stuff together.
Somehow, it made his heart skip a beat.
“Then ask me.” Jin proposed and sat on the desk to be closer to Kazuya. “Ask me whatever you want and I’ll answer you in…” he stopped and looked at the time, “in the ten minutes we have until we have to leave.” He continued, looking back at Kazuya and facing his eyes to show that he wasn’t kidding this time.
Kazuya seemed to think for a second. “Tell me about how you became friends with Pi and Shige.” He asked, knowing that he might want too much from Jin, but he really needed to hear this from Jin and to make him say other things. Pi and Shige had had their share of the story, but Jin was the one holding the missing piece to the puzzle they had created in his mind. And he really wanted to hear Jin talk about this.
PART TWO
Authors:
aroruae &
fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
A/N: Worst day ever, but let me bring you something from AO ^o^ Sorry for the long wait, but we wanted to finish AO & SW in the same time and that's why we posted several chapters of SW the last weeks XD now, we're on a normal track and we're getting near the end, folks~
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Seventh Scent ~ Sky
Eighth Scent ~ Winter
Ninth Scent ~ Loneliness
Tenth Scent ~ Run
Eleventh Scent ~ You
Twelfth Scent ~ Statice
Thirteenth Scent ~ Body
Fourteenth Scent ~ Memory
Fifteenth Scent ~ Toxic
Sixteenth Scent ~ Narcotic
Seventeenth Scent ~ Hollow
Eighteenth Scent ~ Mother
Nineteenth Scent ~ Love
Twentieth Scent ~ Tomorrow
Twenty first Scent ~ Rewind
Twenty second Scent ~ Blood
Twenty third Scent ~ Madness
Chapter Twenty Fourth
Twenty Fourth Scent ~ Bonds
We all run from our past because there’s a moment - there’s a second in our life - when we have done something that we shouldn’t have and we’re ashamed and maybe we’re even sorry for letting it happen, but we hadn’t had a chance to stop it and we had been forced to suffer the consequences. We all forget about those little mistakes because life goes on, right? New experiences and different mistakes make us forget about the first one that brought us here and that made us who we are.
But the truth is that we can’t escape from anything, little less from fate. And it will come up catching us from behind and reminding us - this is what you’ve done.
These are your sins.
Kazuya arrived at his place after exactly an hour and a half, purposely being late in meeting Jin. After all, he had to think for himself for a while and if he was to meet Jin, he’ll soon forget about all and just drown in lust with his lover. But he had to think and he had to find a way to make Jin realize that all he had been doing up until now was wrong and that he needn’t to continue like this. And there was also this thought of Hayato and Kazuya couldn’t suppress the feeling that they too might end up this way. Kazuya wasn’t afraid of dying, but he was afraid of letting Jin kill him. Because if such a thing were to happen, when Jin will realize what he had done, Kazuya would no longer be able to help him, to save him from what he might do to himself. Jin was too engrossed with him right now and Kazuya was sure that dying wasn’t an option for neither one of them.
That’s why he needed to drag Jin out of this messed up world and show him other parts of life, good parts that were worth. Kazuya entered in his apartment and saw the shoes of Jin’s already at the door. Somehow, this sight made him smile.
“I’m home.” He said with a loud voice and waited for Jin to come out and yell at him for being late.
“You’re late.” As expected, these were the first words Jin uttered as he appeared from the kitchen with a sulky expression, his arms on his waist and an apron above his clothes.
“What in the devil are you wearing?” Kazuya burst out into laughter, looking at the pink apron. “Don’t tell me you’re going to cook!” He continued to laugh, approaching his lover and pecking his lips a little before going to kitchen. “Hope it’s pasta or I expect half of the kitchen burned by now.” He snickered maliciously and entered the room.
“Well, it’s not completely burned…” Jin lingered on his words a little as he let the younger take in the view. Actually, the kitchen was a complete disaster. There were pots everywhere and flour spread on the floor as Jin had tried to make… something, even he wasn’t that sure what anymore. The gas cooker was covered with all kinds of burned food that Jin had tried to make and failed more than badly. The sink was also full with dishes and the water was still pouring on them, the gloves on Jin’s hands showing that he had wanted to take care of them first before Kazuya got home. If he had looked into the fridge, he would have found all of his food practically destroyed and the bits that were still safe were thrown one over the other, making them impossible to distinguish. And the best part was the balloons of soap that were flowing in the air. “I can clean!” Jin hurried to say before Kazuya had time to show his anger, afraid of his lover’s revenge on him.
Kazuya lifted a hand, unable to speak anymore. He surveyed the room once more and touched his forehead, feeling tired. “OUT!!!” he then roared and turned to Jin, his eyes flashing dangerously. “If you put another foot - no, a finger!! - in this kitchen, I’ll cut your dearest thing on your body!” Kazuya shouted and moved towards Jin like an angry cat.
The older quickly backed away, honestly afraid of Kazuya’s frightening expression, and yelped helplessly for forgiveness. “I just wanted to cook you dinner to make it up to you!!” he defended himself, taking one more step back. “I didn’t know that it would end that bad.” He added and completed in his mind - even if I had managed to set up on fire my kitchen the last time I tried to cook.
“Get out of here in this instant.” Kazuya said and pushed Jin out of the kitchen, closing the door behind him. When he turned to look around once more, he closed his eyes and heaved a sigh.
Only half an hour later, he came out from the kitchen looking all worn-out, but thoroughly pleased. His kitchen was sparkling and there was no sign of Jin having ever entered there. He went to his room, looking for the older one who was standing in the middle of the bed, his legs crossed under him and his eyes cast down, looking like a kicked puppy. He raised his gaze and locked his eyes with Kazuya, flinching a little. “I’m sorry.” He said with a small voice, thinking that all he always did was to make Kazuya mad and angry.
Kazuya sighed yet again and went to the bathroom to wash his hands off before returning to the room and sitting down next to Jin. He let out a chuckle. “You’re not.” He replied and pinched Jin’s cheek, enjoying his angry yet puppy like glare. “But next time, wait for me.” He then scolded and kissed the spot he had pinched as it was all red. “And you better order some take-out because I’m not moving an inch after I’ve scrubbed clean the kitchen.” Kazuya added and lay down on his bed, sighing once more tiredly.
“But I really am sorry!” Jin insisted, crawling on bed on four legs and looking at Kazuya with a pleading expression. “I didn’t want to make you mad or to have you clean my mess…” he confessed and his eyes darted at the gloves he had been using and were now sitting on the table in Kazuya’s room. “I just wanted to make you a surprise.” He muttered, looking at his hands again.
“Then surprise me with a great take-out.” Kazuya smiled at Jin. “And I’m not that mad now, cleaning always helps me clear my mind.” He stuck out his tongue before closing his eyes. “Jin… you’re really a menace, you know?” Kazuya added with a slightly joking voice.
“I’ve been told that.” The older finally smiled and snuggled close to Kazuya, taking the phone out of his jeans and ordering food before throwing it on the bed and cuddling closer to his lover, his arm around the younger one’s waist and his head resting on the boy’s chest. “But I know you love me for being like this.” He added after a while like he had just remembered there was something pending and also giggling a little.
“You’re so full of yourself.” Kazuya poked Jin’s ribs with his finger. “But if you leave me alone like today, who knows... someone might snatch me away~” He added nonchalantly, realizing the implying of his words only after he said them. And suddenly the image of him and Pi kissing popped inside his mind. Kazuya bit his tongue.
“No one would dare to snatch you away when you’re in my blocks.” Jin replied confidently. They would try to fuck him or even rape him, that was true and it was the reason Jin never allowed him to be alone while there, but nothing more than this. After all, they all knew better than to harm Jin’s possession.
“Then what if this will really happen?” Kazuya suddenly felt like saying, though he was kind of playing with fire. But after what had happened with Pi, Kazuya was feeling a bit unsure. Besides killing the other part, will Jin try to win him again or simply force him like always? “What if I’d fell for another?” He added, completely aware that this was a dangerous question to ask.
Jin raised his head a little, looking a little suspicious at Kazuya. “Why are you suddenly asking this?” he retorted with another question. “Did something happen?” he then asked concerned, thinking that he hadn’t talked with Shige to know if Kazuya had been safe without him.
Kazuya looked back at Jin, not betraying one single emotion. Should he tell Jin about what happened with Pi? But that would mean certain death to Pi and imprisonment to him. And besides, it meant another friend of Jin killed by him. No, of course he couldn’t say such a thing. “You’re stupid or what?” He said back, rolling his eyes. “I was only saying if. Besides, if something had really happened, would I be like this right now?” He asked with a quirk of an eyebrow. “But I see that, as always, you don’t trust my words.” He rose up, pushing Jin a bit. Inside his mind, he cursed himself - he accused Jin of not trusting him when he had indeed betrayed his trust. He was the worst.
“It’s not that I don’t trust you.” Jin replied with a small voice, thinking that he had indeed trusted Kazuya on the matter with Hiroki - the fact that he had someone follow Kazuya all the time didn’t have anything to do with it. “But I don’t trust the others.” He confessed, sitting back on the pillow and looking at Kazuya’s back with his hands crossed behind his head.
“Then why do you leave me into other people’s care?” Kazuya asked, not looking at Jin. If he hadn’t been left, something like this wouldn’t have happened. “Besides, what’s your relationship with Yamapi?” Now he turned and looked kind of angry. And he was because he remembered Pi saying what he had done at a certain time with Jin. “You were with him, t-right?” He had almost said too, but stopped in time.
Jin laughed, sounding really amused by this situation. “You’re jealous of Pi?” he asked with a somehow mocking chuckle, like this was impossible from the beginning.
Kazuya counted to three and snapped at one and a half. “I have reasons not to be?” He asked with an angered voice. “From what I heard, you had a great time with him. Maybe we should have a threesome or something.” He continued, flailing his hands, his eyes flaring up.
“It seems that Pi has been a little chatty as I was gone and took advantage of this.” Jin chuckled again, standing on his ass and grabbing Kazuya’s hand to pull him back on the bed, lying down on it with the younger on top of him and Jin’s hands surrounding his waist. “Missed me?” he then asked with a playful voice and licked Kazuya’s nose.
“Stop it.” Kazuya grabbed Jin by the face and pushed him away. “I see that you don’t regret having your way with Yamapi. Do you do him now too? Or he does you?” The younger hissed, his nails digging a bit more into Jin’s cheeks, surely to leave marks afterwards. But he was bothered that Jin wasn’t even trying to deny that he had - or has - this kind of relationship with Pi!
Jin sighed, seeing that he has no way to avoid this subject, and let his hands fall on the bed to give Kazuya the liberty of moving if he wanted to. “I know Pi since we were kids.” He started, still not knowing if it was a wise thing to tell his lover all of this. But, after all, it wasn’t like Kazuya could blame him for sleeping around when the younger had also done it and had even asked money for his services. “We were young and we were curious…” he lingered a little on his words, biting his lower lip and looking with sparkling eyes at the other. “So we tried all kind of things.” He shrugged a little, like he wasn’t bothered at all that his best friend was also his sex friend. “Though I haven’t been sleeping around since we’ve gotten together.” He added quickly, not wanting Kazuya to make a wrong impression and get the wrong conclusion of this, looking with honest eyes into those brown orbs that were studying him back and trying to look as innocent as Jin could.
Kazuya snorted and released Jin’s face, still glaring suspiciously at him. “Really?” He then asked and in his voice there was unmistakably hope. But then he remembered Pi kissing him and quickly added: “I don’t believe you.” If Pi was horny all of a sudden, Jin was an easy seduced man and they spent a lot of time together. Conclusion? It was impossible to not feel any desire towards a person you have tried many things with.
“Thanks for not trusting me.” Jin pointed out with an arched eyebrow, looking curiously at the younger but not seeming mad at all because of Kazuya’s accusations.
“It’s not like you’re quite the innocent lamb here.” The younger retorted and poked Jin in the chest. “And damn, Jin, you still work with him! What if all of a sudden you want to get laid and Pi is near?! After all, he did say that you enjoyed his skills.” Kazuya continued with an angry pout. Really, did he have any right to complain about Jin’s affairs?
The older laughed this time and raised his hands on Kazuya’s waist, turning them around in bed and topping the boy with a smirk on his face. “I actually loved fucking Pi,” he whispered with a mean voice at Kazuya’s ear, biting on it and quickly adding after, “but not as much as I love fucking you.” Jin confessed and blew a trail of hot air into the ear. “Not as much as I enjoy your skills.” He continued as he nibbled on it, kissing the spot behind Kazuya’s ear and licking it gently.
Kazuya’s body shivered a little and the younger bit on his lower lip, feeling his heart racing because of Jin’s actions. It was like he hadn’t felt Jin for a long time and that his body had been aching for him. Maybe that was why he had accepted Pi back then, because in a way - in a very stupid way - he reminded of Jin and how he had forcefully used to make Kazuya his. Yes, this might be, this was why the younger had submitted to Pi even for a moment.
“So I’m better than Pi, right?” Kazuya half moaned the question, his hands finding their way into Jin’s dark mane, the fingers curling around those silky locks.
“You’re the best.” Jin laughed against Kazuya’s neck and raised his head to kiss those pouty lips.
*
In the end, nothing that the younger did seemed to convince Jin that he was ready and good enough to be taken outside and meet the real world that Jin lived in. The only thing he did was to run all around the place, taking care of what Jin deemed to be serious business. Of course, this was restricted only to the building and only when Jin was sure that there was no harm to Kazuya, which seemed to be happening lately most of the time. This made the boy happy because it meant that Jin was starting to have more confidence in him and maybe soon he’ll even let him participate in these meetings that Jin said were too dangerous for Kazuya.
But, to be honest, his job was kind of boring. He would only deal with papers and arranging Jin’s meetings - this had the benefit of knowing all the time where Jin was and what he was doing so Kazuya wasn’t complaining that much - and never have part of any action. The guys that were usually around the building weren’t that bad or dangerous as Jin had claimed, though Kazuya had a suspicion that they had been threatened not to touch him even with one finger, but he had managed to be friendly with them and to have them answer back without any snarky remarks or something like that.
Luckily, Yamapi hadn’t been around that much either. The few times they had met had always been in Jin’s presence and the two of them hadn’t exchanged a word since that day when Kazuya had forgotten about who exactly was this man he was dealing with. Pi seemed to have no problem to ignore him too, though he would throw dirty glances and obscene signs to Kazuya when Jin wasn’t looking. But this was all and in the two weeks he had been working there, there hadn’t been anything else which could tell Jin that something was wrong between them.
It was totally different with Shige though. Kazuya had tried to hint something about it, but every time Jin would dismiss the problem. He had confessed to Jin that Shige had approached him and that was how he now knew who was the man following him all the time. He had also tried to say that if he was going to be watched, then it might be better and easier for everyone if Shige would be allowed to go everywhere with Kazuya. Jin hadn’t denied that, but his office had still remained off-limits for the man and he still had no intentions of changing his mind.
But today would be a different day, Kazuya decided as he was heading towards Jin’s office. He had just found out that his lover was going to another meeting in a few hours and he was determined not to let the chance escape him again. He would do anything to make Jin accept to bring him this time, the younger said to himself as he skipped to the office, feeling light and happy for no reason as it had been lately, since he had started working with Jin and seeing more of the older.
He didn’t knock on the door as he opened it and stepped inside confidently. His eyes skimmed over the lazy figure of Jin and Kazuya couldn’t suppress a smile coming across his lips. Unexpectedly, he found this sight of Jin kind of arousing, the aura of danger surrounding him. He looked quite concentrated on his papers and the cigarette was between his lips, smoke spiraling upwards from its end. Also, his feet were resting on the desk as he was leaning on his chair.
Yes, he looked damn hot, arousing and dangerous. Kazuya licked his lips and made way to his lover, thinking that he could ravish him on the spot. It wasn’t a bad idea, but he had plans, so he satisfied himself with simply taking Jin’s cigarette from his mouth and replacing it with his own lips. The kiss tasted of tobacco and toothpaste.
“You look smoking sexy.” Kazuya chuckled close to Jin’s lips and his eyes bored into the other one’s.
Jin laughed and caught Kazuya by his waist, pulling him down to sit on his lap, the papers forgotten on the desk and nothing else mattering than the beauty from his arms. “I could say the same about you.” He smirked as he guided Kazuya’s hand with the cigarette back to his mouth, taking a deep breath from it and then blowing the smoke into the younger’s face.
“Hey, not fair!” The younger waved a hand to wind the smoke away, before he brought the cigar to his own mouth, inhaled a bit and then leaned and kissed Jin, from the corners of their united mouths the smoke spiraling itself. The younger pulled back, coughing a bit, but looking thoroughly satisfied. “Now this is fair.” He smirked to his boyfriend and put the cigarette away. Too much smoke for one day, he needed fire now.
Jin groaned and moved Kazuya again, making the boy straddle him and settle better in his arms, leaving more room for Jin to touch him. “How is that fair?” he pouted, complaining that it hadn’t been enough for him and lifting his hips a little to show his hidden intention. “Is the door locked?” he then asked with an innocent voice and a playful smirk on his lips, his dirty intentions clear and obvious.
Kazuya laughed and intentionally shifted his body so that their lower parts touched a bit more. “No.” He replied and leaned to suck a bit on Jin’s neck. “Does it bother you?” The younger then asked with an apparent innocent and worried expression as he looked at Jin, now his hands slowly working their way on Jin’s shirt, revealing slowly, inch by inch, the slightly tanned chest of his lover.
“Not really.” Jin answered with a frown, relaxing even more as Kazuya’s fingers continued to touch him. “Though it would bother me if someone else than me sees you naked or…” he stopped and smirked, his hand sneaking deep into the back of Kazuya’s pants, “aroused.”
The younger arched like a purring cat and his fingers dug into Jin’s skin, leaving beautiful red marks. “And whose fault would that be?” Kazuya whispered as he met Jin’s eyes, lowering his head, apparently wanting to kiss his lover, but he passed briefly over Jin’s lips and bent lower until his mouth slowly touched the collarbone and then trailed with kisses a line until he stopped above one nipple, his breath tickling it and making it harden by not even touching it. Then his tongue darted out and flicked over the nub a couple of times until he felt Jin’s hand scratching his ass cheek. “Loving it?” Kazuya asked with a purr in his voice as he directed his attention to the other nipple under which laid his initial. He placed a soft kiss over the letter, before tracing it with his tongue and reaching the perking nipple.
“No, totally hating it.” Jin replied, biting back a moan, not knowing if to like that his skin had become extremely sensitive where Kazuya had cut him or to hate it because it made him feel even weaker in front of the younger and more exposed to his touches. In the end, he just closed his eyes and let himself succumb to Kazuya’s fingers and tongue and to the feeling of having the one he loved loving him back. “Totally.” He repeated the word with a breathless voice, his hand moving to the center of Kazuya’s ass and teasingly touching his hole, his index finger dipping a little in it.
“Ngh…” came a guttural noise from Kazuya and for a moment his mouth was motionless on Jin’s skin. His hand slipped lower between their bodies and his fingers found their way to the zipper, teasingly passing over the slight bulge hidden underneath. “You dirty liar.” Kazuya hissed as he bit on the nipple and a zip down noise was heard through their harsh breaths. “You’re practically begging for more…” He whispered as he sucked some more on the nub before going up, biting and licking the skin, stopping right under Jin’s chin. “And you’re already… oh.” The younger’s fingers slipped inside Jin’s jeans and found his member pulsing with life and slightly wet. He gave a slow caress along its length, his fingers dirtying themselves with pre-cum. “Take me with you and I’ll give you full course.” Kazuya whispered close to Jin’s lips, teasing them with his breath and tongue.
“Sweetie, you should know better than to threaten me with something like this.” Jin laughed as he leaned more into the comfy chair, the sudden move making Kazuya fall over Jin and the finger that was just teasing him, now enter his hole with its full length.
Kazuya moaned and hid his face in the crook of Jin’s neck, feeling himself shuddering against his will. “Either way…” He managed to say through quick breaths. “… if you want anything more, you have to take me with you.” He continued and Jin’s finger pulled out and entered once more, making him clutch onto the chair. “J-Jin…” Kazuya moaned and bit onto the older one’s shoulder, hating that he was feeling so aroused when he was supposed to be in control.
“Were you saying something?” the older asked with an innocent tone, his fingers teasing Kazuya’s hole and another one sneaking inside of him as Jin guided the younger’s mouth to his own and pressed his lips against Kazuya’s into a wet and sloppy kiss, clearly enjoying his reactions and his inability to speak anymore. Though he had to be careful because he never knew what to expect from Kazuya, so Jin was prepared any moment for him to try and escape, planning to stop him and… maybe punish him a little. “Oops.” He exclaimed innocently when a third finger entered Kazuya, their lips still locked and their bodies still tangled.
Kazuya gasped in their kiss at the sudden intrusion and goddamn, it felt good. Even if it hurt a little, it felt so damn good. But no matter how it made him feel, he still had to convince Jin to take him to that meeting. “Even if you do me like this…” He detached a little, though this was kind of a mistake because it changed the angle of Jin’s fingers inside of him and it sent waves of pleasure through his body at this movement, making him close his eyes involuntarily. “…I won’t let you come.” Kazuya continued and even if this meant torture for him, he grinded their crotches together, making both of them groan. “And if I stay behind… I’ll be so aroused that you won’t even be able to leave, especially to leave me like this in the middle of a pack of hungry wolves.” Kazuya continued and another moan escaped his lips as he tried to create more friction between the two of them. “Your choice, Jin. Take me with you and you can have me any way you want tonight…” He whispered and his eyes bored into the older one’s.
Jin laughed again and started to move his fingers faster, not planning on answering to Kazuya’s challenge or request. His free hand rested on the back of the boy’s head and kept him close to his lips for Jin to kiss and devour them as the movement of his other hand intensified, trying to bring Kazuya to his release only with this, the movement of his hips against the boy’s and the way his tongue circled the hot cave of Kazuya’s mouth, entering it as deeply as his fingers traveled inside of the younger.
And anymore of this and Jin will truly succeed in making Kazuya come just from some fucking fingers and some fucking tongue. His hand slipped once more between their bodies and slithered its way around Jin’s shaft, curling around it and tightening his hold as he moved slowly up and down. “Take me with you or I swear I won’t let you come, but painfully make you beg for it.” Kazuya threatened as he tried to steady himself, to fight off the sweet and painful sensations from his body. “Aa-and…” the word became a moan as a certain spot was reached inside of him. “Goddammit, Jin. I won’t let you fuck me for a month.” The younger said and his hand tightened even more on Jin’s member.
Jin stopped suddenly for a moment, clearly not enjoying this threat of Kazuya’s not to let him fuck the boy for a whole month. It didn’t last long and when he recovered, he started to move his fingers even faster than before, letting the hand drop from Kazuya’s head to his own crotch, joining the younger’s and moving it together on his cock. “Come for me, Kazuya…” he whispered with a low and husky voice at the younger’s ear, biting on it and blowing hot air into it. “Fuck yourself on my fingers and come.” He then ordered with the same tone, opening Kazuya’s zipper and bringing together their crotches, forcing Kazuya’s hand to also move faster on their lengths while their lips met again into another forceful and demanding kiss.
Listening to Jin’s voice, reacting to his touches and kisses, Kazuya slowly lost control over himself and without caring, he moved up and down on Jin’s fingers, wanting them to hit that sweet spot from earlier and when it did, his body gave a slight shudder, his throat vibrated and his cock trembled with anticipation under his and Jin’s hand. “I hate you for this.” He muttered next to the older one’s mouth, not having anymore control as lust took over his body and made it ride until he reached the peak. “I hate you for fucking me like this…” His voice got lost in another moan as the older one’s fingers thrust deeper and he arched under the pleasure he was feeling. Then he felt the hand quickening its pace on his cock and he knew he wasn’t going to last long. He found Jin’s mouth again, muttering the words I hate you nonstop. And when he finally came, he didn’t realize that hate had turned into love and that his body was all sweaty and his clothes were sticking to him.
Jin chuckled and kissed Kazuya again, savoring his own orgasm that had followed quickly after his lover’s. “I love you too, babe.” He whispered, still amused by the younger’s stubbornness to do this and the grand finale that they had had. “We should do this more often.” He then added, laughing again as he finally retrieved his fingers and playfully touched Kazuya’s lips with them, a smirk on his face and an eyebrow lifted in anticipation.
“You jerk.” Kazuya hissed and took the fingers in his mouth, just like Jin expected him to do. After wetting them long enough, he leaned and kissed Jin, sharing his own taste with him. “Of course we’ll do this more often… if you take me with you.” The younger said as he drew back and looked at Jin. “If not… sex between us will become extinct.” He then smiled innocently as he pecked gently the other’s lips.
“Oh, you always say that.” Jin quickly dismissed the threat, kissing Kazuya back and letting his hands roam on the boy’s back. He was up for a second round and maybe for something more this time. “But it’s not going to bring you anything.” He pointed out, sure that Kazuya must be aware at this point that it was useless to use this card with Jin because he would still get what he wanted. “Not like…” he started to say but stopped himself, a playful smirk dancing on his lips.
Kazuya frowned and pinched Jin’s both cheeks. “Like what? Is there really something that could make you take me with you?” He asked with hope in his voice. “You’re such a pain, Jin. I just want to come with you.” He continued and wriggled his way out from his lover’s arms and chair, glancing at their dirtied clothes as he began to take off his own until he was naked in front of the other one. “You keep some changes in here, right?” Kazuya asked and went to a closet, looking through it.
Jin didn’t bother to answer seeing that Kazuya had already found some clothes and just stood up, going to the door to lock it and then turning at the younger, undressing himself too - luckily for him this hadn’t been the first time to have sex in the office. “I was just proposing a trade.” He finally said, throwing his shirt at Kazuya and laughing like a child when it landed on his head. “I do something for you, you do something for me.” He explained as he proceeded to take off his pants too, moving a little away from Kazuya and the revenge that was bound to come for the discarded shirt.
But the younger didn’t seem eager to get his payback as he looked at Jin with big and wide eyes. “Really?!” he asked and he almost couldn’t believe that Jin had been this simple from the beginning. “Sure! What should we trade?” He agreed immediately, seemingly utterly happy and not even thinking about what Jin might ask him to do.
“A week off.” Jin was prompt to reply. “Just me, you, the bed and the rule that you have to accept anything I say and do everything I want.” He said with an innocent smile on his lips, now looking at Kazuya while being completely naked and, for that matter, looking like a total idiot.
Kazuya looked up and down on Jin’s body, a frown creasing his forehead. “I wonder if you’re worth it…” he said, pretending to think up this offer. Then his eyes met Jin’s puppy ones and smirked. “Deal.” He agreed and extended his hand to seal this trade. “But Jin… there might not be things we hadn’t tried out yet.” He then added and looked quite dejected.
Jin laughed. “This is what had you worried?” he said as he shook hands with Kazuya. “Don’t worry about this.” He continued with a baby-voice, kissing the boy on his forehead. “While it’s true that the two of us have tried a lot of things, it’s also true that there are a lot of toys that we could have so much fun with.” He said, sounding like he was already dreaming at this possibility. “And I can’t wait to make you come without touching you.” He added with a sigh, like he was regretting that he had to wait to fulfill this fantasy of his.
Kazuya pouted as he looked at Jin. “You won’t touch me?” He asked on an upset voice. “Without you in me, I won’t be thoroughly satisfied.” He sighed dramatically and played with his fingers on Jin’s bare chest, tracing his own initial.
“Babe, I can make you feel satisfied with just my voice.” Jin whispered into Kazuya’s ear, chuckling after as the soft sensation of the younger’s fingers on his skin made him feel ticklish. “And I’ll prove it to you soon, so look forward to it.” He added with a perverted voice as he bit on the boy’s ear and then detached himself from Kazuya, looking innocently at him and blinking his eyes like he hadn’t said or done anything wrong.
Kazuya looked with a doubting expression on his face before he smirked confidently. “You’ve got some balls to say that, Akanishi.” He said with a superior voice. “I’m looking forward to my orgasm brought by your voice.” And from two small steps, he was close again to Jin, his hand in the other’s hair and his mouth crushed against Jin’s one. One quick and passionate kiss was Kazuya’s other way of sealing their deal. “Now get ready, I want you to tell me what you’ll be doing at today’s meeting and how can I assist.” Kazuya said and went to the desk.
“Um, you’re not going to do anything.” Jin said a little unsure, knowing perfectly well that this wasn’t what Kazuya wanted to hear. But before the younger could say anything, Jin hurried to add: “It’s just a transaction. I give him the drugs, he gives me the money. It’s nothing exciting or something like that.” He laughed awkwardly, only now thinking that Kazuya would be along him the whole time. Oh, God, he was definitely going to regret this, especially since they weren’t dealing with a peaceful and normal person.
Kazuya looked a bit taken aback. “You go and deliver the drugs personally?” he asked, curiosity in his voice. “And are you going alone? I mean, I’m going, of course, but… won’t there be others?” He continued, interested on how Jin was managing his affairs, even if it was one such as drug dealing. “And how will they know if the drugs are good? Will they try it in front of you or what?” He added, thinking that he might have seen some American films having drug transactions as a theme.
“No, they don’t try it because they trust me and no, I don’t usually deliver them by myself.” Jin sighed and finally went to the closet to pick some clothes for him too seeing as the younger one had already dressed while talking. It wasn’t like he had from where to choose, considering these were just some back-up clothes that he hadn’t used since Kazuya had appeared in his life, but they had to do for the moment. “The client is pretty special and he can’t afford to be seen coming here or anywhere near me.” He explained as he tucked the shirt over his head and dragged some pants on him.
“I see. It isn’t yakuza or something, is it?” Kazuya asked and despite his curios tone, you could sense his excitement. “And if he can’t be seen near you, won’t you be noticed if you go to him?” He then continued, smiling as an idea struck him. “You can send me to deliver them! I mean you stay in the car or something and I go and seal the deal.” Kazuya said with a bright smile. If he was able to do this, he could understand a little of how Jin would feel during such situations.
“Yeah…” Jin said, prolonging the word and looking at Kazuya like he had suddenly gone mad. “Or not.” He then added with a more serious voice. “We have a meeting place and we won’t be the only ones there either. It’s a big client so there are always lots of us and them to be sure that we don’t get screwed by the other part or by the police.” He explained, sitting on the couch and raising his hand to call Kazuya to him.
The younger sighed and went to his lover, taking a place next to him. “It will be dangerous, right?” It wasn’t a question, more of a statement. “And I still don’t know why you keep doing it…” He then added more as an undertone for himself, but clearly aimed at Jin.
“Because this is what I do.” The older one replied simply and shrugged a little. “Besides, I like the thrill and the excitement that come with every transaction.” He then added with a grin on his face, memories surfacing from his mind and plastering themselves on his expression. “And don’t worry,” he added with a light tone as he dragged Kazuya closer to him, “it won’t be really dangerous considering that we’re dealing with the police.” He admitted and started to laugh.
Kazuya paled. “Police?!” he then asked and his voice was kind of squeaky. “Damn… I wasn’t aware that you were dealing with the police too.” The younger gave a shaky laugh, half feeling like not wanting to know anymore. “And if you have connections with the police, why aren’t they getting you clean? I mean… they could let you live you a normal life.” He continued and he refrained from adding with me.
“Maybe, but this would also mean that they lose their drug supplier.” Jin explained calmly, like he was talking about the weather. “They don’t trust anyone else but me, so I’m kind of stuck with them for as long as they want me to. I help them with this and some other things and they let me do my stuff in peace. It’s a fair trade.” He said with a shrug, seeming totally cool with this situation.
Kazuya sighed, feeling a bit incapable to grasp the width of Jin’s affairs. He felt so little and helpless and as more time passed, he realized that it was going to be harder and harder to pull Jin out of this world. And frankly, he was beginning to doubt that he could even do such a thing. “Jin… have you ever felt fear?” Kazuya asked and cuddled at his lover’s chest.
Jin looked a little suspicious at Kazuya, but didn’t say anything for a long time. “I have.” He admitted with a small and unsure voice, still not really knowing if it was wise to tell Kazuya such a thing. There wasn’t a person who hadn’t felt the claws of fear clutching at their souls and threatening them to destroy their life, to make them not want to make another step in fear of losing something important or to force them to move forward in order to protect that thing.
Kazuya gulped and searched for Jin’s hand. “When?” He asked with a small voice. “Why?” he continued and as he finally found Jin’s hand, held onto it tightly. It was like saying you can trust me, I can understand, I will understand you. He really wanted Jin to open up more to him. He needed him to do so.
Jin laughed a little, thinking at how ironic it was that Kazuya was asking about himself. “Actually, it was like something I have never felt before.” He confessed and his voice seemed to break a little as he uttered the words. “I felt so scared that I thought I’ll never live again, I though that it was the end for me.” He continued and his hand tightened his hold on Kazuya’s one as his expression changed even more, looking truly in pain. “It was when…” he started to say and then stopped himself, like he wasn’t able to say it properly. “When I…” he tried for the second time, but the words seemed to be stuck in his throat. “When you left me one week without sex.” He finally said the dreaded words, shaking his head a little as he was still suffering from it and desperately trying to hide his grin.
Kazuya looked dumbfounded for a few moments before he slapped Jin’s hand and stood up, feeling angry. “Screw you, idiot!” He said out loud, but didn’t look at Jin as he went to the other corner of the room, hating that Jin had made him feel like he was maybe getting somewhere and the jerk laughed in his face. He had thought that maybe Jin will tell him something, so that wouldn’t be forced to ask others, to do favors to others just because he wanted to know more about Jin. It frustrated him how lightly Jin was taking all this. He decided to ignore the older for now.
“Come on, Kazuya, don’t be mad.” Jin called him back, standing up but still laughing a little. “It was pretty funny, you have to admit.” He said with a grin and a satisfied expression on his face.
Kazuya didn’t answer as he went to Jin’s chair and sat on it, closing his eyes. He began humming and even whistling as he began to swirl around with Jin’s ergonomic chair. If to Jin it seemed funny, well to Kazuya it seemed stupid and not in the least funny.
“Kazuuuuu…” Jin complained and pouted when he was ignored yet again. He tried a few more times to catch Kazuya’s attention, but the younger seemed to be set on pretending that he didn’t exist. “Will it make you feel better if I tell you the real answer?” he finally said, sighing and cursing himself in the same time for agreeing to do this.
Kazuya’s interest perked up. “If it’s something related to sex, then no thanks.” He replied quickly, his eyes still closed and him still swirling on the chair.
“I do have a lot of stories related to sex though.” Jin sulked again and pursed his lips as he looked with narrowed eyes at Kazuya, trying to look upset but looking more like a kicked puppy. “But,” he quickly added, approaching the younger and stopping in front of him, now with a serious expression, “I suppose I could tell you even if it’s something stupid and you’ll laugh at me.” He continued and pouted again, an incredulous but sincere look on his face.
Kazuya lazily opened an eye. “Tell me about your sex stories?” He asked with a growl. “If I wanted that, Jin, I would have asked you to show me, not to narrate them.” The younger scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Ah, you’re so annoying right now.” He then mumbled and swirled with the chair some more.
“I was talking about your question, not about my sex stories.” Jin clarified, an amused eyebrow lifted and a slightly mocking smile dancing on his lips as he stared at Kazuya, not knowing if to be upset for not being understood or to laugh because the younger still seemed to be thinking of sex.
The swirl stopped and Kazuya looked at Jin with narrowing eyes. “Do you even know why I’m asking you such questions?” He inquired and his voice shook a little. “And what are you going to tell me? That you felt fear of being bitten by a dog?” He continued and there was anger in his words. “That isn’t fear.”
“Then why are you asking me such things?” Jin inquired, choosing to ignore Kazuya’s last words in favor of finding out what was all of this about. After all, it wasn’t everyday that his lover asked such question and was so wiling to find out more about Jin.
Kazuya laughed. “You practically know everything about me.” He started and threw a dirty look to his lover, as if he was guilty of such an impossible thing. “And what do I know about you? I said before that I wanted to understand you, that I wanted to come here and work with you. Why do you think I’m doing all this? Because I’m bored?” Kazuya continued and gave another short laugh, Jin choosing not to say that he had actually thought this at some point. “Is it really that hard to see that I want to know you better? I’m not usually honest with such things, but you’re so fucking stupid and dense that I think I might have to write it with caps on a board.” Kazuya rolled his eyes and resumed his chair swirling.
Jin’s eyes widened. Oh, yeah, he had forgotten about that. He had forgotten about their discussion and the only thing he remembered from all of that was that Kazuya wanted him to give up at the life that had made him who he was. But his lover wanted to know him better and to do stuff together.
Somehow, it made his heart skip a beat.
“Then ask me.” Jin proposed and sat on the desk to be closer to Kazuya. “Ask me whatever you want and I’ll answer you in…” he stopped and looked at the time, “in the ten minutes we have until we have to leave.” He continued, looking back at Kazuya and facing his eyes to show that he wasn’t kidding this time.
Kazuya seemed to think for a second. “Tell me about how you became friends with Pi and Shige.” He asked, knowing that he might want too much from Jin, but he really needed to hear this from Jin and to make him say other things. Pi and Shige had had their share of the story, but Jin was the one holding the missing piece to the puzzle they had created in his mind. And he really wanted to hear Jin talk about this.
PART TWO